A PunchDrunk TwistedLogic LoveSick Singalong

2000- 2010

2010-01-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

Before my heart starts to burn
Times are hard when things have got no meaning,
I’ve found a key upon the floor,
Maybe you and I will not believe in,
The things we find behind the door.

So what’s the matter with you,
Sing me something new,
Don’t you know the cold and wind and rain don’t know,
They only seem to come and go away.

Stand by me,
Nobody knows the way it’s gonna be`

What a decade its been
From dreading the halls in All Saints, strolling through the ever-sunny streets of Singapore, to bracing winter cold in Vancouver...

We've seen no robots or flying cars, no stupid calamity-inducing virus, the idea of terrorists introduced to masses via Fox news, survived the Bush, Dick, and Colon era but still reeling from the effects of the invasion of Iraq, seen a white rapper rise to fame, and a black man elected president, watched hopelessly on the sidelines as the economy went to the shitter, mourned the loss of fallen idols, watch as reality killed the video stars as MTV grew farther and farther away from being a music channel, Google plotted down the earth, cellphones replaced public phones, Apple challenged Microsoft for hsehold computer dominance, and Bill Gates entered the video game industry, we've seen rights won for gay marriages and start to get scared about global warming... Hope the next decade will be better : ) Cheers everyone, I'll join the rest of the world in a bit : )!

Lumi Returns'

2009-02-26T11:09:00.000+08:00

Today was walking to school, it was raining. Well nothing out of the norm since Spring was pretty grey yea... Hmm halfway there, I noticed the rain was... less noisy... So I looked above my umbrella and the rain had turned to snow. At first it was just flurries but then it became these clumps of snow. That was definitely a beautiful moment in a day where I had classes about the abortions and euthanasia. Hmm I know I rant (alot) about Winter and how I hate having wet shoes everyday during the season but... today having the snow crunch under my soaking shoes, the snow fluttering like a snow globe, my knuckles clutching the umbrella feels as if I dipped my hands in water and put them in the top freezer, hair more white than Gui Sheng's 21st bday. Still I know I'll never really take it for granted, I will always remember that it used to be just sun and rain for 10 years yea.

I want this

Its the cover collection for Fables, James Jean is just great : ) Plus the series is heading to a new direction with the Adversary staying at Fabletown. Boy Blue died too . Well, the book is good because it has so many characters but you're never really overwhelmed as they all get good set ups yea.

Fave webby at the moment
fmylife.com
A nice pick-me up site to share and revel in people's misery. Example,
Today, I let my 7 year old niece cut my hair. I thought she was using fake scissors. Now, I have a cut on my left ear and a bald spot on the right side of my head. Tomorrow, I have a job interview for Tony&Guy hair salon. FML
Schadenfreude, no?

And as the world waits for Watchmen next Thursday, I'm starting to take a liking to the movie industry in Japan. I mean yes, I dabbled a bit with a bit of Ichi, some Battle Royale, but I think there is a rise of steady movies from Japan. It may have lost the gaming empire(FF XIII trailer does look sweet ).. but their movies are usually not made to appeal to the mainstream. While Hollywood, its usually about who can make the most $. I know that's an over simplistic view but I think other countries`movie industry is in some way more pure since their movies are not

Two picks to look out for yea.
Tokyo!

Big Man Japan

.. my dream team of directors for a movie? Michel Gondry, Takashi Miike and Stanley Kubrick!

And also.. hmm fave vlog lately is UltraNeko
She has knack for making noise : )

Been listening to alot of Iron & Wine yea : ) A very organic sounding band , nice song yea : D

Besides my weekly Pho fix, been lovin waffles and maple syrup... yes, I have it in my hse agn. So all is good : )

Anyway well yesterday , after finishing most tests. Went with Johims over to the arcade yea : ) Played SF IV and got my ass handed to me hahah. There was pool too(finally) but we didn`t get a chance to play since only two tables and everyone round the tables looked like some Biker gang.Anyway end of the night, we running to find a bus with McFlurries in the snow hahah : ) Yeah, it was good to look around town yea. Right, well hope to catch Watchmen nxt week :)

Walk The Line

2009-02-25T17:19:00.004+08:00

Its roughly 2am here...

Hmmm... insomnia is getting progressively worse... too much coffee?... Have I mentioned? Since starting school, lecturers have been trying to get us addicted to coffee. No BS, my Philosophy teacher has his mug in class everyday and has even created a mantra to help us to get coffee... And now... I love coffee... forgot the mantra, but been drinking everyday twice ... coffee double double ... coffee single single...

Anyway besides my caffeine fix... things have been going pretty much the same.. Spring brought false allusions of a beautiful spectrum of yellow and green but hmm its been all grey at this point.

Hmm... yes... this is sounding like that song near the end of Cruel Intentions with the lyrics.. " Coffee black and egg white" Good movie too... Speaking of movies, still haven't caught one since coming here.. but yeah now just waiting so I can watch the Watchmen(no, its not a pun. Look it up yea) which btw IGN scored it well. But then again IGN scored the Devil`s Rejects well too... Anyway the cinemas here ... different.. like... after you finish a movie you could in theory catch another movie if you wanted to. Just go to another hall since the tickets don`t have seats. Yes, I was lame enough to do that yea... Haven`t tried it here but back when I was still pledging allegiance to the Red,White & Blue every school morning. The movies? Beavis and Butthead do America and The Relic. Good times :)

life at the moment

Well decided that I'm not taking the next semester of school, just going return for the winter semester yea. It's one part so school fees will be easier for me, since I'm pouring most of my resources into another thing already.. And been brainwashed into the notion too, that nobody studies in the summer yea . So yeah... back when I first got to Sg... Well in a month, I somehow got a job at Balaclava but anyway the point being the job only gave me one day off a week. So yeah... I remember one shift where I was at the outside area and all the patrons were too drunk to order or bug us so I could just stone for awhile... And I remember looking at at Marina Square from the outside of Suntec... and thinking I should at least go there(yes this was back when that overhead bridge was still there)... and that started a train of thoughts.. of just how much of Singapore I explored since arriving... Yeah... I just felt I should have some experience to show for my friends and myself as well... Well yeah, so basically for Summer.. I plan to get the Hell around Vancouver and lookup everything. There's still lots of places that aren't just trees and hills.

Going to move soon yea... I just want heated floors and non-cold toilet seats.. argh.. every morning... I'm scrambling to find my slippers yea. As for food... I've been starting to take a serious liking to Vietnamnese food yea : ) Aww... the Viet Sub and the Pho :) Another funny thing was when I was eating at a usual place with a friend, I got to try their Jalepeno which has a reputation for one of the spiciest chillies in the West... Hahah... I can`t take spicy food but seriously .. no kick...Like ... vegetable... I mean come over to South East Asia, they would just die. (*Insert memory of CZ chalet? where I had the worst chilli ever)

Well feelings on a whole have been a state of flux.. but anyways yeah... starting to make sense of it all.. Well ... Maybe now isn`t a good time time too since it is a critical time yea... But I still feel the pull of the world too.. and yeah ... what I understand from it is, what I`ve been thinking all last year yea.. This and when I see the students in class, God.. they know what they`re doing for sure... I`m still making it up as I go along... I mean my results have been pretty good but I really hope I don`t drop the ball this time. Just feel I`m on the wrong side of 22.

It`s almost March already.

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion--
Is nothing new
Flashback--warm nights--
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after--

Sometimes you picture me--
and I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said--
Then you say--go slow--
I fall behind--
The second hand unwinds

Hurry up April.

Hoppus DeLonge Barker

2009-02-15T16:12:00.001+08:00

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CHEERS :)Blink is back !!!!!!

Maybe Tomorrow

2009-02-03T11:52:00.003+08:00

Well for the most part, the awful fog seems to be residing at last yea. Haven't been able to see the sun for the 1st few weeks of the year yea. It is better now yea. I remember catching the glimpse of the sun on a walk back from a morning shift on a Sunday some weeks back I think. Yeah, that sounds so passe but you really tend to miss the silliest thing as long as you've been deprived of it long enough. I was happy at least. Foggy blue sky with a perfect slice of red cut in the middle. The Greeks thought that of the four elements, fire was the most purest. Well they base it as to how the universe is set up. Earth, the land. Water, the sea. Wind, the sky. And Fire, the Sun. It's like four layers with Earth in the middle with Fire being the outer layer after the other two.

I had an interesting work day around CNY too. Before I started work, I saw someone hauled away the police. I stood around a bit before making my back to work since I was late. Nearly slammed a door at someone in a wheelchair who was next to me watching the scene. After that fun incident started work. Later on, saw that guy in the wheelchair in the store again but this time the security was leading him out of the store. Didn't catch the full story as to what happened but heard him asking for free coffee. Anyway after work, saw 2 guys arrested outside my school. And up ahead past the school at the fire station, there was 2 cops with a dog sniffing the area for God knows what. At this point I felt something was off with the day in general. So finally made it to the neighbourhood until someone from his house called out for me. He said he saw me walking back all time(which is all too true). He came down to meet me and as I was walking to his house thinking of all the weird stuff that happened, I was thinking owh so finally it ends here hahah. But then again, yeah I didn't think he could really do anything since I just lived nearby from his place. Well turned out in the end, he was a pretty nice guy. Just wanted to sell some cigarettes from Iran ($3 for 3 packs was damn cheap too). Anyway went back after that.

CNY ... yeah not much going on... Yeah... sometimes I just feel that's all I have to say and so talking about here sometime seems pointless. I mean I want to report back home and say interesting things but I don't know... I am doing alright here for the most part, finally starting to make a few friends I guess yea... But it's starting to get busy here. Tests and whatnot. And yes it is hard that I'm not able to catch up with most of them since I don't wake up on time and on the other hand they're graduating soon too so yeah things will be very hectic these few weeks of course. Anyway Godspeed to them, I hope graduation will be great.

Yesterday, messaged AeA since I realised now that it's already been almsot half a year since I talked with him or Su. I'd like to say time went by slowly here while I know things must have picked up quick over there but the honest truth was that it passed by here so quick too without me really taking notice. The truth was that I would probably always head back to Sg before KK. I wished they all moved to KL. I mean it's not fair. Back then, if I wanted to go back to KK from Sg, I only needed to work bout two weeks before going over. But now I had to plan for months. Things would be easier if they all lived together. This and the rest heading to NS yea... But yeah, I just missed home alot. Anf they're all finally making their way to the world too. School was almost up. And so I started to think about everything again. But had a test the next morning so I decided to forget it and catch some rest. I ended up 'forgetting' it all night...

The next morning I got a call which was weird since my phone was pretty much deadweight these days. It was AeA hahah, and yeah I was suprised alright. Well he caught me before I was heading to class. He was working in Digi( something like M1 for Malaysia yea) so he had free calling hahaha :D It definitely made my day. It was very good to hear from him again. I needed somthing to hold on to at least, I mean it's been a piss-poor month so far... I mentioned this to Ivan too, I mean... 22... this was where life was taking us... we all were off doign our own things... Chan's doing well in Penang, president of the Bowling Club:) N is doing well there, I hope to meet her in London this year yea : )Su? He's off to KL to... hahah work with AeA.. they will get to work together :)... And yeah, AeA's the same guy... Chan is coming back home this year finally I heard. And it really is one my great hopes to climb Mount Kinabalu with them. It's definitely past 5 years... I'll probably never forget hahah. We will always have time to talk crap now, and later on too. Yes the gay-meter just broke but screw it.. I'm very glad that things are still good. And that will be good enough to make it for the next month.

Gone baby, gone...

2009-01-11T21:04:00.004+08:00

Right well this is pretty much a post about something that recently happened over the weekend. I'll just get right into the shtick , 1up.com and the fabled Electronic Gaming Monthly has gone the way of the dodo. This is a part geek-ish admiration of the two & also the general feelings I have about the print industry upon this two-strike blow.

1up.com ... well ... yeah as the EGM hit its late teenager years... It kinda lost track I guess? Well I kinda thought 1up.com took over.. I mean the podcasts hahah, there were some funny shit going with Shane & the rest. So yeah... this it you know, its hard to see such a tight community there torn up... The staff were great people ... Here below is a pic...

What's going on? Well over in Gamespot.com a reviewer was fired for a "bad" review of a game called Kane & Lynch.. And these guys came out to bat for him for injustice to a fellow journalist.
Right, if you want to see people faced with real loss , over here. As to what happened? Here.

On to EGM ... And this one is the one that hurts the most for me... Come on ... If you're not pissed off or the slightest clue what this magazine means & stands for then.. this post isn't for you. This mag... it was here back when the hardcore gaming crowd were the only gamers, not all these mainstream "look at me, I'm a gamer too with the Wii Sports/Skateboarde/Guitar Hero/whatever" hippies... Not knocking the games just the new mainstream crowd ... I mean... Yeah more gamers is good for buisness but when games start coming out to cater to them and not to the hardcore you know the gaming industry has changed so much since the days we all 1st Shorukyen's someone's ass..

Granted.. I know EGM on the last few years had a less spectacular run... but I think we all are still on WTF mode as to how easily the best gaming mag is gone when GamePro is still there.. I mean no offense, but EGM >>>>> GamePro... That and the staff... They had such a great Review staff .. plus you could generally tell these people working behind the print really did love their work..

Some of EGM high lights... Hmm Shen Long anyone heheh? Which actually went on to sorta becoming a character in the new SF 4 ... ... Hmm also I thought Shoe's interview with Peter Moore was legend too.. It wasn't the typical "polite and geeky" gaming journalist interview. There were some serious problems with the Xbox 360 & Shoe wanted to know what was going on... What happened to "Next Gen?" I mean as Penny Arcade put it.. It was a necessary step for the easy-going way of most gaming journalists.

I think I'll miss it most when it was just... Shoe.. Sushi-X .. Crispin.. and Shawn... Four man review crew and the mag was so damn fat too : )And now... really.. I don't ever expect any of the other mags to ever step up & try to become the new EGM..

And now well.. how this all hits home... In case you don't know.. I'm studying to become a journalist at the moment... And then this horror story comes along.. It makes you certainly question your career path.. I was probably too naive not to notice that ... print media is dying... Once again as with TRL, internet killed the magazine star... I mean 30 good people lost their jobs.. and they are probably better than what I can ever hope to try to acheive... And yet still... As Shoe puts it... "We know they’re talented people with great resumes from working there, so they should be back working 80-hour work weeks for some other website or magazine soon enough. We just hope this economy cooperates with that theory."

I mean your dad or mom would tell you go become a doctor or lawyer, you'll make guranteed big $$$ .. I always thought doing what you wanted was most important.. but I'm not sure if I can even get to do that 5 years from now... I mean not counting the whole 2012 stuff which hahah I bet all the tea in China is going to be just another boring night. I mean will the industry I aim for even be there after all this economic mess? I mean I know this doesn't just go for me.. but for DET & DMD peeps as well.. We are in the creative industry one way or another.. I mean it isn't set in stone whether we are even going to get a chance to do what we've been studied for so long.

I'll close with pretty awesome quote from Jenn ... "But this is what 1UP very literally means: you will always get to have one more life to play on, because you fucking earned it."

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Zeno's Paradox

2009-01-09T16:03:00.004+08:00

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Hey hey ,
well finally onto 2009 yea : )

Well yeah, hmm lemme see.. well I'm now in school already yea . So well the experience? Hmm yeah needless to say it is very different.. I look around and there the age range in the class is staggering, there are 18 year olds from High School and then are people who are already married too. So yeah it would be pretty hard to feel too old which is definitely good for me right?

1st day didn't really make any friends, as I had realized awhile back. Every class had different people and all my classes are in classrooms , the lecturer is pretty much talking throughout the whole class so you don't really get to find out who's everyone in class. And yeah there was no orientation either, hmm well hahah only in one class of the day which was Sociology, where we really got to talk to each other since we were pretty much forced to do so : ) Hmm and yeah, we kinda set seating for that class so yeah, and the girl nxt to me is pretty alright & friendly;] but alas a ring she wears which means *pfft..heheh : P

Hmm and yeah the other class luckily there was someone from work in there too so yeah that was pretty alright. We decided to join the gym club nxt week hahah, plus they have a snowboarding and skiing event at the end of the month so might as well make the most of the "fun" weather right? So I figure I should probably be hmm okay in the next month or so yea. Though I have this feeling that.. hmm NYP was sorta more on making friends > study...I kinda feel that the case will be the other way around this time.

But to be honest, the sch material is really good.. All the lecturers have phDs:) And hmm one thing I can surmise from all of them they... well it seems everyone in Canada smokes pot hahah. Hmm and yeah I like the Philosophy classes, mind-blowing stuff hahah :) Right now taking a class on Reality & Existence.. And well there's huge study on Greek Mythology , which I love :), and yeah the class really did open my mind on things. And studying Philosophy is different too, in the sense that all our academic lives we were taught that getting the answer was the most important thing whether it was Maths or Biology. But here, it was all about asking the right questions yea :)

Also, hahah wow Chinese New Year is actually on the 1st month of the year for I think the 1st time that I can recall in my life.. Well most definitely going to check out Richmond since that's pretty much the go-to place for Chinese thingies. I reckon they'll have something up .

Well not much to update other than this, the rest is bleh.. Hmm well I finally started to cashier at my work place in the Dollar Store, hmm ... I also noticed that everything here seems to be stuck 30 moments ago in the past. I mean the internet literally took a few months to get up, and argh.. the laptop I want has been out of stock for awhile. That and I've been behind on lotsa things I was supposed to send out for Xmas hahah..

Hmm plans for the year... Saving up for a return trip of course heheh , and yeah before they shave their heads and everything... but yeah realized it's true that most of the ppl are guys in the clques hahah ... Also hopefully a trip this year to London with Nadia. I mean both of us came from a place in South East Asia that most of the world has never heard of.. OKay forget the world, even in Singapore it was pretty much unknown too. But here we are in a extraordinary situation where we can both actually go to London on our power and you know.. damn it, if we're not going to take adavantage of it right? Yeah hahah it's good that it's cheap for her to head there too since she's over in Lithaunia and flying there for me is only 180 yea. So yeah, try to go there and massacre the Cockney ppl yea? That's great... never thought we could do this considering where we came from heheh : ) That's bout the only solid plus I can realy say about ere now... Everything else is just a blur... Hmm well I know I could be happy here given the time, but I'm not sure it would ever be as good as it was back then yea. I was really happy .. but yeah .. shit happens... Well thats how things have pretty much been for the new year... things are still crawling along. Anyway I'm sure the year will get better yea.. All is one afterall ;)
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Today.... was actually the first sunset of the year : ) ... The sun had pretty much been on hiatus through the whole new year.. Finally today was lucky enough to catch some streaks of red in the sky... I have missed the sun... I am so over Winter now... I long for Spring to roll right over Winter's lethargic ass yea : ) Cheers? :)

The Same Deep Water As You

2008-12-28T17:57:00.006+08:00

Hmm hey : )..

Well I think pretty much most blogs have been vacated due to FB or FYP yea? Hmm hahaha owh well.. Right... here it is people , the last week of 2008 right?..

Well in regards to school.. I got in a degree program in Communications.. But hmm its 2 years in college before transferring to a uni midway.. With or without the transfer it is still 4 years .. but haha the thing is ppl here are pretty slack , as in there are students taking like... 5-6 years? cause some would take 1 module for each sem .. Sch starts in Jan 5.. Hmm taking some classes that I need to graduate but not much to do with Communications, like hmm Sociology & Philosophy hahah..

Also weird is the fact that .. it is my 1st year class but since... the way things are.. my classes could be with final year students as well .. like most classes can be taken from any point during your 4 years .. like a Final Year Lit student needs.. hmm like a Science class to graduate , I might have them as classmates even if its my 1st year.. This too and the fact that since you choose your own classes, its possible each of my classes might have different ppl hahah..

Well also, I got a new job heheh.. Working at a One Dollar Shop in the mall, the pay is better and hmm the ppl are easier to get along with yea heheh : ) Hmm plus I always wanted to get a job out of F & B yea . So yeah, good experience nonetheless. And also I finally got internet after like 3 months yea hehe ... Cheers :D

And I would post something up about Xmas but however pretty much nothing happened yea. Everywhere was closed and most of the people were at home with their families for the holidays over ere.. Well the only really good thing I can say about this year's Christmas was that it was a snowy one yea hahah.. Hmm yeah I don't really mind anyways... Wasn't a huge shocker to me that this year there would be no kicking of anyone's ass or turkey... : )

2008 ... hmmm ... Overall.. I think this year was .. great : ) .. There were really alot of great moments for me and yeah I could have done without leaving Sg but even that was really a good farewell too so I can't complain much...

The main things that I can remember for the year..

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Well the 1st goodbye of the year was definitely to hmm .. N233 .. I was kind of completely not expecting to be transferred out of the cg at the time.. I was thinking I was probably " safe " since I was leaving Sg soon but yeah hahah. Wasn't the case.. Hmm the sad/funny thing bout it, was in the end there was no more N233.. Yeah but we all had new CGs( getting to know every1 from N178 was so fun too) and yeah ...Here's the thing... I know I don't say it enough, or more importantly show it enough... I really appreciated all the love and care from the church and everyone...

Hmm the sad case is that I feel I always put on.. another face of sorts at church/work... I mean we all have our hang-ups right? I'm someone who can't talk during work probably cause I think I'm waaay to slow so can't afford to talk.. I mean during break or after work, I definitely get back to myself...Hmm as for church ..I always felt ... kinda like a different person? I don't know... Like before I went to CHC , I was pretty much the same person I am now, always have been.. But at church, I always felt like I have to be polite or something... It's weird because hahah, everyone else is actually nice & fun people. I mean people .. like Clarence or Vincent who know me from sch and in church could probably see the divide in my personality in both places. And I don't do it intentionally or because of the myth that church people are straight as an arrow but really it was just my own ineffiency.

Yeah... hmm and even though my .. "polite" face is incredibly boring , every1 was still alright with me. And I think kindness goes a long way... I mean sure there were many times when I felt like, I was stagnant... but overall I think they're awesome too. I think someone who can be faithful or committed to anything generally translates to people with real passion yea.

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Another thing for the year was well leaving NYP.. I'm not talking about leaving my friends and everything.. I'll get to that later but I mean... just dropping the ball and being wrong about something. This was probably one of my 1st main failures in my life... Not that I dropped out.. but really I felt so horrible that before the course, I really did want to be a game programmer. The main thing is you can do all the research and preparation you want before you commit to something but there's hardly anyway you can prepare your heart... I know that's a lame excuse , yeah I am aware that losing all my interest in chasing a dream fall to pieces was one reason. The other is that .. I was just horrible in the course.. I was probably more better in the TD modules but even then, I wasn't exactly Bryan Yeo (who btw is the creator of the blogskin I'm using) ... I really envy the people who really know what they want to do with their lives.. I feel I'm making it up as I go along sometimes yea...

Strange ironic little tidbit about above... It all almost came to a head at the end of 1st year... I was telling Ivan during 2nd semester already that I wanted to drop out already. So before 2nd year began, I actually went to Ngee Ann Poly to change course... I wanted to go into Mass Communications... And it's weird mainly because, I think I would have stayed here in Singapore if I completed a diploma and I'm sure having failed once would entice me enough to work hard for the 2nd attempt at a diploma. It is so weird how things turn out in the end right? I mean yeah if say, I did take this hmm alternative route, then I wouldn't have gotten to know the rest of SIDM yea. So yeah.. life is just funny sometimes yea : )

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And finally the main thing of the year was definitely of course leaving Sg yea.. It wasn't something that I just dealt with on the penultimate month but I'm not exaggerating when I say that it was on my mind through the whole year. OKay, yeah I beaten this whole leaving home topic for like a billion times, but yeah hahah along with this is also .. hmm my look on it now that I'm actually 3 months ahead of it and living a very different life yea.

Yeah.. I think there was less drama this year for most of the year, but instead we were all just tired from the 2007.. I mean 07 , the last end of the year was kinda crazy yeah.. and I guess going into 2008... we all slowly retreated and went back to our own cliques after the fun afterglow of all the OGL stuff...

But there were really awesome moments too , lot of fun moments... like how they all made time to actually go to the zoo cause I never went and hmm... just lot of shopping around though haha that it was usually just walking around for the whole day at Orchard but only getting maybe one or two things and then a movie ( Hahah I really miss that ) .. Chalets : ) Hobo's chalet was kinda of slow on the 1st few days, but it was the last day that was really awesome yea.. Hmm ..Then Ivan's 21st chalet.. It sucked I couldn't complete the flaming drink for the bday boy tho hahah... And definitely one of the best chalets not just the year but through the 3 years was Cong Zheng's one.. That was really the epitome of a good chalet experience, for like a few days it really seemed like we were friends living together : ) The chalet was after hmm the new OGLs camp yea, and so when we all just let our hair down with the water balloons and pillow fight it was really awesome. I think it was really one of those fleeting moments of happiness.. in which.. you catch yourself in for a brief moment in the midst of the chaos of real life and realize just how beautiful the moment is. It was great because for a moment it seemed like we rewound the clock one year and were all just close again without all the useless drama...bodysurfing at Baybeats thanks to Hobo: >... Home Club was damn fun too :)... Owh and hahah Hazel over at Battle of the Bands was awesome too yea... plus getting to know Jon and the rest more : )..Going to Kbox and trying to sing more hahah.. It was definitely cool getting to rock out to Dani California with Zhi Feng hahah : D and yeah no, we didn't get to do Creep but hmm ... at Timbre, there were so lot of songs we knew yea... I'll never forgot how EIC(who are great and you guys should catch them at Holland V at Wala Wala Cafe Bar : ))closed the last set that night with the theme song from Slam Dunk, that was really beyond awesome hahah : )Hmm and also going club/pubbing with Ivan, ZF and Bobo yea : ) See people?? The year was pretty kickass right? I think so yea : )

And now ... yea... hmm ... the offset too all this.. is unfortunately as great as the year was.. also the ugly truth... that this would also be the closest I would ever be with them. And now here I am 3 months later.. what is my insight on that truth? ... I think as of now... I'm not worried anymore.. yeah.. Granted... yeah sadly I'm realizing that distance really does change things ... I remember in Sg, how I would look for a movie or something to check out so we would be able to go out for the week to kill the boringness... Hmm all the sudden there was this huge void in my life when I got here... I didn't know whether to fill it or keep it because I knew that void was there because I wasn't living with them. This plus all the drama that did happen after I left. Yeah... I mean I can't imagine it over there the way it is now .. I know it's not my place to say since I will never know the full story.. But I am happy that there was one pretty great thing that happened for the last season yea : ) I would like to think that everyone deep down does miss the way things used to be but what do I know ... I wish he was close with him again... I don't know what it is that they have that they can't work out ... and also he with her too. Sorry if I'm overstepping on something that's very personal and I don't know much about... but I really wished things would get better. Life is really too short .. and yes, I know nothing is ever that simple and easy... but nobody is perfect ... So we need to compromise from time to time yea...

Hmm .. well ..I think as great as 2008 was.. 2009 should have its moments too yea... Sch will be starting for me which will lead on hmm my life to start to be busy again hopefully ... Hmm they'll be graduating...NS... and some will be working too yea : ) Hmm I used to worry bout where I fit in all that.. but yeah... there isn't any need to.. I mean yeah sure I'm not as close with some friends already.. but I do think not everything has to change.. Mostly.. I jsut have to learn to healthily move on I guess... And yeah I still feel things are pretty good between some of us yea ...My heart goes out to them : )

Right... 2009, hope it goes well for everyone... : ) Cheers everyone!

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Rant No.34567

2008-12-04T08:00:00.004+08:00

Shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
On a live wire right up off the street
You and I should meet
Junebug skipping like a stone
With the headlights pointed at the dawn
We were sure we'd never see an end to it all
And I dont even care to shake these zipper blues
And we dont know
Just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below

Double cross the vacant and the bored
Theyre not sure just what we have in the store
Morphine city slippin dues down to see
That we dont even care as restless as we are
We feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
And poured cement, lamented and assured
To the lights and towns below
Faster than the speed of sound
Faster than we thought wed go, beneath the sound of hope

Justine never knew the rules,
Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
No apologies ever need be made, I know you better than you fake it
To see that we dont care to shake these zipper blues
And we dont know just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
The street heats the urgency of sound
As you can see theres no one around

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I feel the pull of the world too. Its like all at once too right? .. Wish something could be done to ease the people's burdens .

We Three（ＭｙEcho, My Shadow and Me) :)

2008-11-25T07:01:00.000+08:00

Well hey hahah here's what I've been up to for the most part yea :)

Sorry been lagging yea hahah -__-

Well 1st off, went to celebrate Halloween here , since my sister wanted to for her 1st time yea :) Free candy, sweet :D
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my sister's 1st Halloween costume idea which didn't cut it

Well yeah.. Imagination was very dry this year heheh :D

Well anyway it was pretty much her doing all the work haha.. well I was really rather there to accompany her yea haha.. At the end of the night, it was a pretty decent haul yea haha.. But some of them gave expired candy XP

Also haha I got a job here too yea at a sandwich shop at Quiznos haha.. though the workload is pretty heavy... I mean my job doesn;t end at the counter... besides making the sandwiches .. its the .. preparations thats really alot hahah... like all the ingredients for the sandwiches have to be prepared freshly.. so have to cut meat, cheese, veggies( onions suck XP ) , owh yeah its basically the rockstar life yea hahah.. anyway yeah I plan on getting a 2nd job cause not enough shifts for me yea :)

Also, on a free day I decided to head out to get a better feel of the urban side of here.. I've been pretty much in the town side so yeah I used to say I could waste an hour at a supermarket.. but no longer hahah.. been too many here yea hahah... really.. maybe 7-9 times a week yea.. hahah.. anyway.. so
that Granville Island trip..

A nice view from a hospital :)

Well I made a pretty big mistake regarding my 1st time out by myself yea. Well you see, I began my trip in the afternoon.. like I would in Sg.. but... here.. in this season.. it is already dark at 6.. as in night.. and the stores closes around.. 7? haha yeap so I was 3/4 there and it was pitch black night already. But hahah owh well.. Anyway yeah , the train ride is pretty much like how it is Sg.. Though when you go into the train there isnt a place to tap in your card( well here this not MRT card or such, just plain old tickets) .. So you go in , and well you could actually go on a train ride and not have to pay for a ticket as long as the person checking the train for tikcet holders doesnt go by.

Well I left the train station and arrived at a place called Gastown. Well I wanted to go to Granville Island because it seemed like .. the Clarke Quay of here yea heheh.. So yeah, took a bus to there from Gastown, hmm along the way I saw EA studios too :)!

Well I arrived and was pretty happy cause usually I get lost easily. So yeah walked around a bit but sadly most of the stores were already retiring for the cold night hahah :)

Lottery Winning number, here I come!

I liked the framing :)

Nooooo! Its the Lobster Man!

A man of the sea

A fish of the land .. and a stupid car messing up the shot

After some wandering, I decided to head back home. Got on the bus and lost my ticket book( here there are no MRT or bus cards, just tickets yea) so I was pretty much screwed but the bus driver was enough to give me a free ticket yea hahah..

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Well after that trip, the next place I went over to was Richmond.

It is the "Chinatown" of Canada yea hahah :)

Hmm and here is a vid of the place? Well yeah this place isn't changing to a vlog but I thought once in awhile it would be good to have a video. Hmm pretty much said this to some friends already, but yeah.. eventually the human mind will begin to lose its grip on memories so it would be ncie to have my voice out there once in awhile yea :) ..
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*sorry, forgot to zoom out for the last bit yea hahah

In case you can't tell by now but yes when I take photos, I take sad ones .. Boo Hoo :D

Cicak Satay anyone? Wel btw, the Chinese food here is actually pretty awesome :) Very big portions and everyone here speaks Cantonese so hahah it all feels very Hong Kong-ish

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Well yeah... Anyway .. what has been on my mind lately? Hmm well... I'm still waiting for the uni admission results in the coming week.. I don't know.. How people know what they're supposed to do and pursue it... I mean for my future... I'm scared I'll screw up again or something.. I know for the DET course, it seemed like i just came in because it had something to do with games given my dropout.. But it wasn't like that... Before the course I looked up what it was to be a game programmer and all that... alot.. I mean I looked at the programs they were using, tried some of the coding too.. and that the thing that scares me the most is that .. I really did want to be a game programmer at one time... It's just .. what I didn't prepare was that... eventually I didn't want that kind of life.. I mean this has nothing to do with the diploma since I'm aware you can study whatever you want to afterwards.. but its just.. I guess I wasn't ready to be betrayed by myself. I know actually the majority doesn't know what they want to do as well after sch.. but... some people has everything set .. I wish I had that kind of awareness for what I really want to do... You could say, just think about what you really want to do .. but that kind of preparation doesn't guard against a shift of the heart in the matter... Yeah just past my 20s... at the point of my life .. where I still having trouble finding my niche in the world.. but I know alot of people go through this too.. We're all near the point where it's just going to be working and relationships for the rest of our lives.. It is scary.. since we all are still in the twilight of our teenage years... and now, the seemingly faraway future is nearing.

Hmm .. well that and... the idea that I won't be back "home" for half a year.. I was pretty certain that I could make it before the end of the year before I left.. But lack of funds mainly saw that to be a false prophecy.. And also the notion that.. it will be even longer time till I return to KK.. It'll always be there... I guess now, even more.. the dilemma of whether I go Sg or KK in the future when returning.. It would be easier if KK was next to JB or something... I do want to climb Mt. Kinabalu with AeA,Chan and Su as we dreamed a long time ago before we went our own ways after graduation... but I do feel a stonger pull to go to Sg sometimes , I mean the past 3 years were kind right? Going both would be a bit of a stretch for my wallet...

But at least some things are looking up, I can finally go online soon enough and probably should get a laptop yea :) ... Hahah .. yeah splurging on new things is always long-favoured creature comfort of mankind right? Hmm ... well whatever the case.. I do hope we all end the year well :)

Spare Change For Carson, anyone?

2008-11-18T10:17:00.004+08:00

Well hey hmm a rather useless rant post but ...

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MTV has killed TRL :( ... I was pretty shocked... 10 years running and all the sudden it is gone yea... TRL is basically a video countdown show right.. Yeah but.. that plus we've seen the rise of many musicians through the show...

I caught the show's finale... it was very surreal.. I mean.. all the sudden there Backstreet Boys preforming I Want It That Way for the last time on TRL.. and it has been almost ten years already since that song.. I mean ... there'll be the day when all the songs we grew up with will end up on the vintage channel... The scariest thing is that is sooner than we think it is... All things are finite right but yeah.. it was just weird... 10 years since all those songs ... You really wonder where all that lost time went too sometimes.. It was quick...

The show well is pretty much to the go-to place to check out pop culture news for some time, and actually also a place for artists to shamelessly promote their newest albums or whatnot :)

MTV for the past few years.. have been seemingly obsessed with finding reality TV stars.. It has been such a less music channel as the years when by.. Justin Timberlake pretty much summed it up when he said on one VMA; "MTV needs to start showing more music videos" Before the cancellation, most of the videos on the show were on for about.. 45 seconds.. yeah instead we got more and more about why Whitney is not on good terms with Lacey in the Hills, and just mainly all this reality tv show crap which we didn't want to see on TRL and on the channel... I mean yes they draw viewers but couldn't they have just moved all the reality shows onto another channel.. It had gotten so bad that 75% of the time I turned on to MTV , there was either a reality show or another rap video again...

Hmm what happened and led to TRL's somewhat timely demise? Some would say.. internet killed the video star.. And yeah I guess it's true as a huge stake of the youth are the Youtube generation.. there are lotsa free shows to catch online and plus yeah its definitely more convenient if you're always out right? I mean as for music now.. I think its all by word of mouth from friends or self interest in the culture.. I have to admit that well for me at least, nearing the end, TRL had long lost its way and no longer a reliable source for music.

But ... yes all this ranting.. but that's not to say that TRL will be missed.. I mean ... yeah sure there were loads of problems with the show.. but it didn't mean we wanted it axed .. we just wanted the show fixed... Where we will go now to see P.Diddy/Puff Daddy promote something whether his album or "Vote or Die?' And most importantly, what will happen to Carson Daly? Well haha actually yeah he left the show earlier on and already got his own show yea lol. Well there is .. FNMTV which is hosted by Pete Wentz of Fallout Boy , which is sorta being pushed as this generation's TRL.. but unfortunately I hate Pete Wentz ( but I do like Fallout Boy , just not the frontman)... It's just sucky to see that TRL will be canceled and crap like Paris' New BFF will still be airing..which if you ever had the misfortune to catch an episode , you will realize that whoever wins the show , loses ... I just hope that MTV starts to be all about the music again.. I imagine that 20 years from now , MTV may have to shutdown yea...

Well... Anyway end this rather bleak point for MTV with my favourite moment on TRL... It was on the week when 9/11 happened.. And basically the vibe for New York (where TRL is at) was just devastated... I mean for us, really .. who heard of terrorists until 9/11? I mean well it was all so foreign until it hit the heart of the country, NY... Well .. yeah the story goes is that TRL isn't sure whether they would go on with the show or ... well ... could they even do it given the state of things... But they did.. It was back to business :) and yes they did not go on without giving respect but yeah they went on.. And usually on the show, you get people calling requesting videos or giving shout outs.. but this episode, it was the artists that called in to check in on NY... It was pretty much a awesome moment because.. everyone was united.. I mean whether you were a teacher, or stormed the beaches in Normandy or a music artist.. everyone felt the same feelings.. no man was bigger than the other as well everyone pulled together yea. For me it was great cause... well the terrorists attacks and you could decide to not go on with the show.. But that would be bending the will to terrorism... it would have been living fear of the next strike but instead they decided to go on air and really , a whole nation was really in need of heart at the time.... So yeah... well it was a great run :)

The End of an Anchor

2008-11-13T06:16:00.015+08:00

Hey there...

Well hmm this pretty much.. a "lost" post so to speak.. I got here so fast that I didn't really get a chance to talk something.. Well yeah.. after I left Sg.. I did go to Canada but before I was on that horrid 18 hour flight... I spent a week back home in KK ..

Well.. I arrived at KK and my mood was kinda up and down.. On one side.. I was still basking in the afterglow of that farewell which was really touching for me and I was glad it went so well .. and was just happy so many had come and also everyone was there happy, there was no drama yea :) ..But I also felt horrible about the whole issue of being gone yea? Well yeah this is before I made my peace right hahah...

Anyway well 1st thing was I met up with AeA or Eboy.. which is his real name.. its a Kadazan name so yeah it sounds very weird if you look at in English right.. Went to his place to stay hahah.. anyway.. here's a vid with him and me just on the road and the fate of some raspberry cookies hahah :)

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I also got to meet up with Su yea.. I would say.. I really just have two very close friends left in KK.. Everyone else left town or just well .. "disappeared".. Su being the 2nd one.. who well ... is the friend that Han Ming and Clarence reminded me of actually.. well if AeA was the friend who I knew I could always joke around and have fun with.. then Su would have been.. the friend I knew I could always depend and talk to yea? The steady friend I would say hahah... yeah.. he was still the same hahah.. And yeah it was great to see that :) He and AeA are graduates as of now? I'm still playing catch up but anyway yea on my last night .. he took me out and we went to a place one of our old classmate was working.. and wow he just kept ordering for me.. At the end of the night.. it was we had downed 6 stouts and 2 jugs of Stella. It was very nice of him considering we hadn't seen each other for so long yea.. Suffice to say, yeah it was great being able to catch up with him before leaving yea :)

a very old pic ;) 1st KK homecoming

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btw.. if you cant tell... we were driving straight all the way and that black car in the end was really parking !

I also met up with some old Primary sch friends... and well.. it was kind of .. sad? You see... here is irony for you.. I left this small "humble" town to go into Singapore right? I had thought Sg would be sleazy and stuff.. but here's the thing.. when I came back to KK... it was the other way around.. KK... well to my friends.. had become sleaze central... I had a friend who ran away from a shotgun marriage.. friends just sleeping with other friends loved ones... I guess the saddest story to me .. was the account of what had happened to one of my early best friends... My 1st real friend is Asia actually.. he was this huge guy.. who .. well always protected me and stuff.. I guess during the Secondary years we went to different schools and slowly drifted apart.. All the sudden I hear his name and he's on E ... and dying from addiction? I dont know.. it was sad to hear what happened to some of us after high school yea...

And hahah I met up with Karen too :) When I went in her car she was speaking with a very different accent or voice.. I seriously couldn't recognize the voice if she was on the phone. Maybe it was KL? I dont know hahah .. it was very.. luan? hahah.. yeah anyway.. we went to eat some KK food mwahah:) Yeah she was pretty much the same wild friend from the secondary school days.. though ... more world-weary... It was kind of sad to hear how her best friend from the days we were all still in the same circle of friends treated her now... It's one of those kind of things you hear and think that can't really happen? It was very ridiculous and just evil... It was nice talking about the days when AeA still had a crush on her hahah.. Went to a get a drink after that before she sent me home.. and yeah haha... she had a test the nxt morning but yeah haha.. that was so her :)

Well I went to 1 Borneo in KK.. the new mall? Well went in and it was a bit of a rude awakening for me.. haha.. well saw alot of Sg shops there .. there was Fish and Co.. IP Zone!?! .. Mini Toons which hahah my friends asked why I would want to head there.. and haha I showed them the candy section and yeah explained it was .. a frequent haunt at Sg :) For moment it seemed like.. my KK friends had finally coem to Sg ;) That's the one thing I regret.. that we never got a chance to hang out there... I know they would have loved it :)
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the rematch has ended.. for now!

I realize now.. that alot of how I am.. I learn from my friends.. I'm a very shy person actually ... the painfully shy type .. during secondary school.. I could never speak more than two sentences to girls I didn't know.. Even when say I was alone with a classmate but because we never spoke in class.. I would just .. zone out and yeah.. I think you get the point... Maybe it was because I couldn't speak Hakka but well I realize now .. becoming friends with AeA . I started to talk .. Yeah I started to talk smack and crap with him too.. learned from him maybe?

I'll always think two words whenever I see this pic... poor dog :D

With Ivan.. haha.. the 1st 20 pool games.. it was all very polite and cordial.. like..wow.. that was a nice shot and than followed by that tap on the pool table.. then after awhile haha I remembered I started talking smack about his game and then well haha pool became more than a game about sticks and balls after that hahah :) Yeah Sg with everyone.. it was when I really was starting to bother to talk.. since everyone was pretty nice right?

I have to say thanks to AeA too.. yeah.. beside being able to stay at his place and stuff.. It was really nice to come back and find things were just as we had left off.. and that kind of feeling knowing that whatever happened we would still be friends was great.. It gave me hope for what would happen after Canada , for Kk and Sg too yea... that distance and time would just be.. two words.. when I return yea :) ... 5 years later and here we are hahah :)

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Well I was at the airport.. and had my last meal in Asia for awhile.. which was haha prata :) And it was pretty good haha.. After that, I messaged some of them that I was finally heading out of KK ... Also at Hong Kong... I met a familar face... Ms Gail! hahah ... I can't begin to tell you how glad I felt to see a familar face in the otherside of the world there with me.. It really made me felt the world was a smaller place yea.. Talked with her for a long bit.. she is very longwinded hahaha.. and finally after that went off on the plane to Vancouver ...

"Welcome to the real world"
She said to me kind of condescendingly
Take a seat, take your life
Plot it out in black and white

Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding up my sleeve

They love to tell you stay inside the lines
But somethings better on the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out theres no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

So the good boys and girls
take the so-called right track
Faded white hats grabbing the credits
and making transfers
They read all the books
but they cant find the answers

And all of our parents, they're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories, tiny tragedies

They love to tell you stay inside the lines
But somethings better on the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out theres no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

I am invincible
I am invincible
I am invincible
As long as I'm alive

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out theres no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

I just cant wait till my ten year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for

C H A N G E

2008-11-06T07:02:00.003+08:00

Hey hey :)

And well, not much to say but Cheers! We have a new presidency! Barrack Obama wins! :)

Well yeah I'm not staying in the US at the moment but Canada has pretty close ties with them as do Sg and M'sia. And well I'm just glad finally there is a man in the oval office making decisions that will really bring change.

Of course its not to say that .. as much hope and excitement we have for him .. there also be a silent acknowledgment that it probably won't be a year until we really start to see results. I mean... we have to understand.. when 8 years ago.. George W. Bush was the new administration , the country was in good spirits with a great economy and pretty much at peace with the world... 8 years later, terrorism, war on terrorism and also the new economic slump has made America seem like Rome, as in the next falling burning empire... So we have to keep that in mind with Obama as he takes over, the country's economy, not since 20 years ago, seen such a downturn, plus the damaged international relationships between countries will mean there will be a huge task for him as enters.

But yes, it is great to see that he won. And I think most of us when we were growing up would have never really thought we would see an African American US president, at least so soon. I think it shows just what kind of change of mind and heart the country is in. He said that it was really up to every single person to be a leader and just step up to solve this crisis at hand. I think this election had alot of buzz not really so much that there was an African and woman running for presidency but really the people finally had a someone running that understood them and therefore they really went out to vote. Yes, I think there is excitement throughout the country to see him lead this battered country. I believe in my country, I know we dropped the ball and f***ed up but I also believe in the potential of it, that we can really be a great country if given the chance for the people to do so. And now with a new president I think the change is coming. 4 years ago, I think we all cried Bloody Murder when Bush was somehow re-elected but this year it is really awesome to see this champion of hope and change win. I think this victory is not just his alone but for the people as well :) 2008 ... amazing year eh? Below is the Hope for a Better Day speech when he won, yeah sorry if its overkill yea lol.. Anyway Cheers !

"What began twenty-one months ago in the depths of winter must not end on this autumn night. This victory alone is not the change we seek it is only the chance for us to make that change. And that cannot happen if we go back to the way things were. It cannot happen without you.

"So let us summon a new spirit of patriotism; of service and responsibility where each of us resolves to pitch in and work harder and look after not only ourselves, but each other. Let us remember that if this financial crisis taught us anything, its that we cannot have a thriving Wall Street while Main Street suffers in this country, we rise or fall as one nation; as one people.

"Let us resist the temptation to fall back on the same partisanship and pettiness and immaturity that has poisoned our politics for so long. Let us remember that it was a man from this state who first carried the banner of the Republican Party to the White House (note: referring to Civil War president Abe Lincoln) a party founded on the values of self-reliance, individual liberty, and national unity. Those are values we all share, and while the Democratic Party has won a great victory tonight, we do so with a measure of humility and determination to heal the divides that have held back our progress. As Lincoln said to a nation far more divided than ours, 'We are not enemies, but friends ... though passion may have strained it must not break our bonds of affection.'And to those Americans whose support I have yet to earn I may not have won your vote, but I hear your voices, I need your help, and I will be your President too.

"And to all those watching tonight from beyond our shores, from parliaments and palaces to those who are huddled around radios in the forgotten corners of our world our stories are singular, but our destiny is shared, and a new dawn of American leadership is at hand. To those who would tear this world down we will defeat you. To those who seek peace and security we support you. And to all those who have wondered if Americas beacon still burns as bright tonight we proved once more that the true strength of our nation comes not from the might of our arms or the scale of our wealth, but from the enduring power of our ideals: democracy, liberty, opportunity, and unyielding hope.

"For that is the true genius of America that America can change. Our union can be perfected. And what we have already achieved gives us hope for what we can and must achieve tomorrow.

"This election had many firsts and many stories that will be told for generations. But one thats on my mind tonight is about a woman who cast her ballot in Atlanta. Shes a lot like the millions of others who stood in line to make their voice heard in this election except for one thing Ann Nixon Cooper is 106 years old.

"She was born just a generation past slavery; a time when there were no cars on the road or planes in the sky; when someone like her couldnt vote for two reasons because she was a woman and because of the color of her skin.

"And tonight, I think about all that shes seen throughout her century in America the heartache and the hope; the struggle and the progress; the times we were told that we cant, and the people who pressed on with that American creed:Yes we can.

"At a time when womens voices were silenced and their hopes dismissed, she lived to see them stand up and speak out and reach for the ballot. Yes we can.

"When there was despair in the dust bowl and depression across the land, she saw a nation conquer fear itself with a New Deal, new jobs and a new sense of common purpose. Yes we can.

"When the bombs fell on our harbor and tyranny threatened the world, she was there to witness a generation rise to greatness and a democracy was saved. Yes we can.

"She was there for the buses in Montgomery, the hoses in Birmingham, a bridge in Selma, and a preacher from Atlanta who told a people that 'We Shall Overcome.'Yes we can.

A man touched down on the moon, a wall came down in Berlin, a world was connected by our own science and imagination. And this year, in this election, she touched her finger to a screen, and cast her vote, because after 106 years in America, through the best of times and the darkest of hours, she knows how America can change. Yes we can.

"America, we have come so far. We have seen so much. But there is so much more to do. So tonight, let us ask ourselves if our children should live to see the next century; if my daughters should be so lucky to live as long as Ann Nixon Cooper, what change will they see?What progress will we have made?

"This is our chance to answer that call. This is our moment. This is our time to put our people back to work and open doors of opportunity for our kids; to restore prosperity and promote the cause of peace; to reclaim the American dream and reaffirm that fundamental truth that out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we hope, and where we are met with cynicism, and doubt, and those who tell us that we cant, we will respond with that timeless creed that sums up the spirit of a people:

"Yes we Can. Thank you, God bless you, and may God Bless the United States of America."

The Sun Also Rises Here

2008-10-03T07:12:00.008+08:00

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Hey ppl .... Greetings from the land of maple leaves, hockey and beavers :)My exodus from here has spanned long enough. Sorry but the only access to a PC with running connection is at a library and it comes with time limits so yeah .. yeah wont be going msn for awhile. until maybe next month.. need to get a laptop and shit yea..

Anyway... haha hmm it is so gray here..very dull man hahah..

When I saw the fog rolling in I thought I was in Silent Hill hahah :D

Well at least the leaves are finally starting to change their colours yea :)

As for life here.. 1st off in case you cant tell.. It is damn COLD hahah.. I've always wore a jacket in Sg, well I guess its cause heat wasn't a problem to me.. But well yeah as you can guess, the freeze would be my kryptonite yea. I am decked out in at least 3 layers a day . And the 1st night, I let my breath out and it was like that foggy stuff. I had kinda forgotten that hahah so yeah for awhile I was just there on the street at night breathing out to see my breath in chilly night like some retard hahah :D

Hmm the malls here are kind of boring though.. I put up some pics but didnt have enough time for all the pics so yeah set a link to the pics on the album section yea :) Well its mostly shops, and ususally its owned by one person and I bet that person is also there everyday . The malls dont have arcades or cinemas too :X The arcade scene here is just GONE.. Hahah and the tickets for movies here cost a bomb.. like 12 bucks a ticket dude.. its crazy.. plus the food is waaay too much hahah.. its ex but they serve the portion for like 2-3 people?.. perfect for bobo hahah.. Damn i am missing the asian food.. no more ais kacang :( hahah well they have bubble tea yea for around 3,50-4.0 per cup.

Hallelujah!

Hmm well anyway I went to town.. like city side the other day to see some buildings cause I miss them hahah.. Well everywhere I see is usually is sky or trees so I just wanted some towering buildings yea.. Took my 1st train ride too to get there which is more or less like the MRT here.. Well how is downtown? It is like the wild wild west, its just crazy haha.. people were selling drugs right on the street yea hahah. Its pretty much the hmm hookers,druggies and durians from geylang shifted to Suntec yea . so going to town.. yeah.. still havent made a trip by myself yet as the idea of me being shot as zf said.. is oh so plausible there yea.

Hmm lots of different races here .. you know like if you are Japanese in Sg or M'sia.. you're automatically unique or at least interesting ? Well here its really passe and not a big deal. I mean there are people from all over here.. I always thought my unique identity was that I moved from somewhere else and spoke mainly English, I mean those two things are everyday life here. I look around and can tell that these Canadians or Canucks hear the "Owh I'm from the other side of the world" story ALOT..
There's Russians, Turkish, Jap,Koreans and Taiwanese and just about every one really.. But I kidna realized perhaps I had to come here.. In the sense that those two ideals that I had based my identity on for the last few years in Asia were challenged here and I would be forced to really find myself in a sense right?

My messy room :D

Well faster than I thought.. its almost a month and a half already since I left Asia.
I have to admit for the past few weeks... I went off the grid .. no I wasnt that busy.. just caught up in my own traps.. I was so angry and pissed at the situation.. I mean I remember when I left KK for Sg... and all I could wish for was that.. I wished my KK frends were there enjoying it with me.. but when I reached here.. I didnt want any of my friends here .. I rather just head back where everyone was instead..

Plus the longer I stayed here.. I had some pretty bitter pills to swallow.. I talked to Ivan about it and the rest.. I think since everyone would busy endyear.. and since I can probably either only have enough $ to go one trip : so it's either endyear or next year graduation.. I really fought with this but.. yeah... I knew it would be better to go next year in the end... The thing is.. I always had this fuzzy and warm idea of just spending the end of this year.. with the people I began it with yea.. I really wanted that... well..

Hmm also for the whole month, I just kept asking all the wrong questions.. I realize now.. I was indulging in my own pity.. its really pathetic.. and yeah.. I guess I thought I was going to handle this better.. my phone.. haha.. never sees any action .. no more messaging or calls... Its just an expensive accessory.. that's pretty much my life at the moment.. but yeah I know its just for now.. but I wish just for now would hurry up.. I need to look on the bright side... the problem is right now.. I'm really trying to hard to find one yea.

I'm scared I'll always feel like a haunted house... ghosts of things long past are the only thing I'll be with and scaring away the new tenants. I'm not worried that I'll forget the frends I made as I make new ones, I learned from sg.. that theres no betrayal in that.. but... I know that distance also changes things .

I keep running back to those times and all the good and bad feelings that go along with it.. its hard.. sometimes I know looking back has its kicks with nostalgia.. I kept hiding in my most sacred, deepest,happiest times that I had left behind... I just didn't really want to acknowledge my current predicament.. In the stages of griefing there are stages, I was pretty much in denial... Looking back does make you feel nice but it does make you realize the make the present seem even worse(well in my case hahah) I think sometimes its like the screaming blister on your lip that would heal if you only stopped poking at it with your tongue.

I dont really get to talk to anyone much cause of no internet....I know I'm being immature... but I want to be back at vivo's harbour area outside, I want to look around AMK for a place to eat. I want to hear the beeping of the mrt doors as I'm going in, actually buy something from the icecream man by the amk mrt station before I walk home... I miss those little things I guess... I want to laugh at everything again. and just do it again. Most of all of course, I just missed all my friends that used to be in my everyday life. It was just hard to try and come to terms with not having them on a weekly basis.
For the month, I tried building back my faith in life again.. tried to live and not just exist.

Well... yeah... I am better now... kind of had an epiphany the other day.. realized that well.. life is still ahead. I'm sure life is going to get better eventually. I think i got the job at a subway place, with that no more window shopping and i can work to go back, go online too. I slowly made my peace with the distance at last.

What a year though... I wonder... about the future now though... not just for me.. but for everyone.. how our lives might cross or how one road will lead unto the next... when I think about everyone now... its not really just the nostalgia or the pain of not heainrg them or seeing everyday basis.. Its the notion that we only really just begun.. our lives are going to go on from school and I just wonder about it... makes you wonder where they're all going.. but yeah hahah.. the great thing is that we all have a bit more time growing up before that yea :) Well yeah anyway hahah I still miss everyone a Hell lot and yeah I finally came to terms with the distance I guess , Cheers :) Owh yeah I'm 21 :( hahah thanks for the shout outs everyone hahah.. well yeah didnt mention anything bout turning 21 cause well haha.. nothing to talk about it.. Well yeah didnt do anything very special but.. the way I see it.. I had a gathering related to me already this year at the farewell. So yeah I would definitely choose to be happy with my friends before I left than happy here alone...I think if karma needed a trade like that, then I'd be happy to do it again . Well yeah haha alritghts my time on the pc is up hahah.

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I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
Half time goes by
Suddenly you're wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...
I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you're on your way
Every day's a new day...
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

The Sun Sets

2008-09-19T22:26:00.013+08:00

"Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been and look ahead to what would be. Other days, now days, days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves for growing up. "
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A Farewell

Well alotta nice things has happened in the past few weeks whether it was body surfing at Baybeats, looking around in Chinatown but yeah didn't manage to have the time to really sit down & blog about it. Had a house & life to pack away into boxes yea. It has been a hectic few weeks but yeah.. Anyway.. well my account of my last night in Singapore yea : )

Well in the afternoon went out to Canele again with Zhen Rhong, the ice cream/sorbet was really nice XD You can find them at Paragon basement yea : )

I met up with Ivan 1st then we went to Subway to wait for the rest of them to arrive. Wow, I have to say there was one moment when a whole lot of them like mass-teleported & yeah I was quite stunned at the night's turnout of people yea : )

Well we went to Brewerkz to grab some seats. The food for me, was well haha I couldn't actually even finish it yea. It was a much cooler place then I had envisioned. Plus we got the table by the pool table yea. Well the dinner was fast I have to say, but yeah my only regret for the dinner was that I couldn't be everywhere at once. I was actually with most of the people that would be going for Timbre after, I would have hung out more with the rest who wouldn't be joining later if I knew. But yeah hey it was nice : )

After the dinner, felt kinda void.. well yeah anyway went to the train to see some of them off. Tried to think of a meaningful & nice way to say goodbye but my mind just drew blanks though.
Left the redline... drained as I typed farewell to those on the train yea...
Thomas raised a good point on how it was fascinating that people like us met.. like I was from the other side of the world.. Maybe there is meaning to this..?

Well finally made my way to Timbre after sorta settling something to meet with the rest : )
We went there and they got me a Flaming Tower , some kind of variant of the Burning Waterfall yea lol. It wasn't strong per se.. but that was hot as in like almost boiling water hot plus it was uber sweet too. Yeah finished that & then Ivan, Zf, Bobo saluted me with two rounds of shots :) Kamikazes yea hahah! Cheers!
Plus they requested a nice song for me.. and the band playing that night made fun of Canada XD
A nice surprise was that they played Slam Dunk's theme song! : )
My fave moment? I guess it was during the set was when they played Dani California, and yeah it awesome.. even though the Kster outing became the unhappening for me.. But it was great seeing into the eyes of the friends that I had made throughout the stay in Singapore and have 1 last song to sing tgt. It was awesomeness :)

Yeah we took some pix, 1 last Abdul pose for now and went our way back home yea. Went to Han Ming's place to crash for awhile before the morning came with only one intention, take me away. Plus special thanks to : N178 & N233 for lovely scrapbook & the touching CD ;), Han Ming & e rest for the awesome watch, Theodora for the cute renditions of the SIDM family, Guitar for your card & showing up on a night where there were at least 25+ ppl that you did not know, Anna's rendition of me if I was not Chinese lol, Cynthia for the very bittersweet scrapbook that tracked the life I had here & Ivan for the digital photoframe(I love it:))..( I'm still waiting for Zhi Feng.. you owe me a time machine hahah XD))

I did not expect such a great turnout as so many came, I was very touched and it was the grandest farewell that I gotten. (my last farewell was at a KFC haha) But yeah it was nice seeing most of the friends I had made throughout my stay in Sg to come together tonight with absolutely no drama and everyone being nice with everyone. It felt great seeing every1 happy tgt. It made me didn't feel very sad which was good yea. Yeah and the truth is I know I may have treated the night like some other event.. The truth? I couldn't let the slightest move in my heart because I know I would have cracked there and then. I know I would probably would flooded Brewerkz :)During the moment before the sun came up, I wanted to fight it. But I just settled down. It was unevitable & I at least had to be happy that I had met everyone in Sg. And in case i didn't get to say to you all or show it, thank you for showing up. I won't surrender this night to time yea : )

There are places I'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends i still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life i've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When i think of love as something new
Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them
In my life i love you more

Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them
In my life i love you more
In my life i love you more

BIG BONUS?:
Next section.. well a cheesy & sorta unedited look into the farewell speech that didnt happen because well things aren't like the movies yea.Anyway here!(Pics? I put a link to the album to whoever want them at photo album section of my blog lol.

The Hard Goodbye Redux: Same Song on Infinite Replay
"The friends who grew up with you deserve a special respect. The ones who stuck by you shoulder to shoulder, in a time where nothing was certain, all life lay ahead, and every road led home.

Well hey ... the night I was pretty much dreading the whole year has finally come I guess.

I'll start with something a friend wrote to me that had such a profound effect on me

"I'm so scared of everything. I'm scared of how things will turn out when I'm gone. We may say our friendship will last forever. And I do believe our friendship is strong and will never fail because neither one of us will allow it to, but we have no control over the distance that stands between us. It scares me knowing that you are going to be laughing and smiling with someone else other than me. And what scares me the most is that someone is going to take my space as your best friend. I can't bare the thought that when I'm sad and crying, someone else is going to be here wiping my tears from my face. I know a time is going to come soon when we have to part, but I ask myself why can't it be later and not now. Our lives are going to change once we part, and I fear that so much."

He said farewell basically to our friendship, that it was the end of things.

This whole year, I was fighting with an absolute truth that was kind of sad,
this year would be the closest I would ever be every one in my life.
There would never come another time in my life where every week I can just look up Ivan to get my ass kicked in pool, see & chat through a movie with Hazel, sing emo songs with Zhi Feng, or just plain have nice chat at a small place with Cyn or Han Ming yea. That part of my life has come to pass, and I know with great regret that it will probably never return.
There's a saying between my high school friends who leave home:
"You can never return home"
Basically.. my hometown will always be there but my lifestyle here stays here.

You don't know how much of a loser I feel right now.. Not the kind that stays home & wish he knew Shawn but .. rather as in the life I know I part with tonight. All I really wanted was a hometown with close friends.. I had it and now here I am again. Han Ming said.. it isn't my problem if you guys started to drift apart... And it's true.. what can I do?

I know I'm not the 1st friend to leave you guys and I assure you that neither will I be the last. You know.. It's hard for me.. but I accept the fate that will be upon me. I mean what exactly do you do with a friend that isn't around for almost the whole year ? There really isn't much except leave him be in your memories(*cough, CheesY) I can accept that and can even let it past that maybe for some eventually I will be nothing more than a funny afterthought. Look, I'm saying all this not to make it all seem so glum and dark.

I have only one reason to let you guys know how this is a kind of end to things, but its a good one.

I really hope now that after all I said that you guys won't take any of what you guys have for granted. Maybe it takes someone to leave yea. I sorta envy you guys ;)
You guys are going to get to grow up together; some of you will shave your heads and go into NS tgt, others will meet the working world, and eventually watch each other get hitched. The thing is... I won't be part of most of that. And you won't know how good you guys have it until you really stand to lose it. It is that simple. I hope you guys will always be close :)

--Salutations to a town

to Guitar :), thanks for being one of the funnest friends I had. As I said, your life is so much more colorful than ours haha. We feel our lives are very boring haha whenever we get to talk.

Case in point, here's a dramatic scenario:
Us,
oh shit! he doesn't like him anymore because he... said blah-blah! oh shit oh shit! Cynthia help!!!

You,
F***, friend is back in jail after chasing the red dragon again.

That is just one example really, I mean we love to hear your horror stories from nursing( I hereby swear to make sure my nurse at TTSH is not Guitar) or how your knee had an intimate relationship with Ivan's nether regions. It is always fun being around you haha! And1 of my only friends in Sg that actually been to KK too. Cheers:)
When I left training, I was quite touched that you still contacted me & made time to see me off. Thanks and yeah hope everything goes well yea :)

to Cong Zheng, I know we dont get to talk much but yeah hey.. 1 of the consistently most funniest people in SIDM yea. Your brand of humor is the kind that might be banned or offensive to some, hahaha and we are very glad that we have a friend who plays the role of the Joker well yea. Forever poker face yea lol, alrites nice getting to know ya too dude:)

to Zhen Rhong, another old DET friend yea? Hey hope things go well for you. Hopefully IGN yea? 1 more of the more frank people in Sg to me. Yeah anyways, respect and hope you do well in Sg:)

to Ajay, wow haha we knew you as the parkour guy right? To Derek and Daryl, the guy who almost got them killed crossing the road hahaha :D Yeah thanks for having me at your place and it was good having a friend in the nearby vicinity yea:) Kick some ass Prashad!

to Jing Ru, heyy haha hmm not an OGL... but yeah hahah eventually a friend too yea :) Well sorry that most of our events usually on times that hmm not really good with ya cause of work. But yeah I know you would have wanted to go yea. Take care of yourself and Alvin too kay:D

to Ber, ah the wise one :D. Hmm yeah can always look to you if we want a serious and good look into things. Yes.. hey I know the class change must have been hard but yeah all of us miss having you around too:) So yeah you can always return yea? No worries and hope life goes well for ya yea :)

to Trudy , hey I know we always rag ya on the fact that air cond is not needed when you're around but yeah I know you're a nice person too. Sorry if I ever said the wrong things, anyway hey hope things go well hahah XD

to Vincent, yo hahah bro! haha one of the nicest person I met ever, really combined with your looks & easy to get along personality. The sky's the limit for you buddy, knowing you has been a funny n great time =)He's a nice down-to-Earth guy & yet he's also one of the most responsible person I know(4.0GPA?!?) He gets along with almost everyone and is usually on tho he stones alot too yea lols.He goes all-out for his friends, he went all the way to I forget where to help me with bills or else I would have ended up with huge fine lols.
Well there are quite a number of intresting stories involving him whether it's riding bikes painfully, or adventures on poles or sleep-rolling yea =) he's a great friend. Yeah well hey thanks for being a great friend, you have made coming into my own over here in Singapore so much easier & more fun as well, Godbless bro =)
Hey well we do miss you(SIDM).. Know you're busy and all, but hey hahaha once in awhile show up and hang out with them : )

to Guo Dong, dude =) I'll always remember you as the 1st DMD friend I had yea :)You're very level-headed person. Aside from me,Zhi Feng, Cyn, I have never seen anyone else in our SIDM clique like you in the way that you don't get angry at some1 no matter how bad we are at making fun of ya. We all do so because its harsh love haha, you're 1 of the most naturally funniest guy I know too yea haha, so hey after sch. Go to Vegas and play poker and start a career orites. All the best my man... I wish u the best ;)

to Cher Shen, hey hahah another natural funny man. Malaysia memang boleh kan? Hahah it's up to you know my friend to defend the M'sian honour there hahah:)

to Jake, retard. Life is more fun when we have you around even though you don't have a limit to that mouth haha. I remember how we met at K-Pool, I didn't know you but you just came over and played a game. And yeah hey I'll always remember that. I miss the times when it was :
Ber, Guo Dong, Vin, Cyn, Clarence,ZF, Jing Long, Ivan, you & me going out together. It was a nice time yea? Well whereever you end up, make sure you have enough wax. Take care my friend:)

to Clarence, you're one of the more complicated friends ... sometimes I don't understand how to deal with your change in mood , sorry I know that doesn't sound nice but yea i know you could be a better person than that... in a way you remind me of an old friend from home, yeah ... sometimes I know the worlds not fair sometimes... and yeah things may get u down but I really hope that there always be good friends to pick you right back up yea... I mean its not the matter of how many times we fall but how many times we choose to get back up again yea :)
to Jing Long, haha I'd say your name in F language.. But then again... I hate that language haha. Hey the steady guy of SIDM yea? All the best to ya and it was nice knowing you man : )

to Ian, hahah hey I'm sorry didn't get to meet you up before leaving but yeah.. Hey we miss you too so hmm just hope you guys will work things out yea? Take care RHCP fanatic :)

to Thomas, hahah arghh .. one of my interesting friends yea. Hey, when I think of you.. I think a nice guy 1st yea. Then a caring friend, the fact that you liked guys was just an interesting twist to a already good enough person yea. We don't have to live by labels, screw em. All the best dude:)

to PC, to all the nay-sayers who put you down before. To them _|_ . I remember inviting you once for a SIDM bbq and some of them were worried cause supposedly you had alotta negative drama around you. What I believed was that. If I had not met the person, I would only judge them after I had actually met them yea. And you know what, you're a friendly guy yea :) Glad to know you a bit better yea before leaving : )

to Zhi feng , only got to know u recently this year.. but found out your 1 of the funniest friends I met hahah.. Its fun going out with you yea because you're always coming up with the most off the wall humour hahah :D Hahah that time at KFC when I was a bit glum that I was leaving Sg the next week, you made the atmosphere more cheeried with that dig about the time machine :D So yeah you can cheer up people, yes.. Kster when I get back dude:)

to Daryl, those who knew us old school in NYP . 1 of the 1st cross-class cliques was Ivan, me, Bobo & Daryl. It's a bit different now but glad we still have the same circle of friends yea. It's nice to see we are still close in the end despite how many things change.

to Derek, Bobo, haha 1 of the most nicer people I met. I remember there was one time when we were pissed at some of the people we knew. But I remember you taking the higher road and you tried giving us their POV. You didn't like backstabbing people. I always respected that about you. I know we love to make fun of you but it's only cause we know haha you're too much a nice person to do really do anything to us(with you size, you need only sit on us yea haha:)) Anyway 1 of the older friends at Sg, cheers and hope life goes well for ya:)

to Theo, haha yeah i know we don't get to talk much but yeah you were always patient and nice with me. So thanks for being open & yeah I know you'll do well in the world:)

to Joe & Ming Fang, hmm 1 of the oldest couples haha. You guys rock. We miss both of you guys too, I hope you guys will go out more wit them too. All the best to you guys yea :)

to Hobo? Nah Bnrandon(:D) I know we don't know each other for very long. But yeah hey thanks for being such a nice guy.. Only regret is that didn't get to know you and the "Epic" people earlier on yea : ) I know you were trying to make my nights at BayBeats a night to remember :) Hey yeah like I said, even if in the future brings silence between us for years. Just drop me a message if you ever come to Canada & I will look you up alrite. Cheers!

to John , hahah whatever goes for Hobo goes for you. A funny guy, and what an interesting mind you have. Kind of remind of me of the maniacal mad scientist archetype yea lol. I know we don't get to talk serious much but hey going out with you guys were fun. Alex too, wish we all knew each other sooner haha :)

to Anna.. you are by far one of the strongest person that I know I guess? Yeah and talented too :) Well hey you do have a winning personality and like I said, Annabellah Goh is going to graduate next year, the world doesn't stand a chance :) You rock and glad I got to know you too :)

to Han Ming, I'm glad got to know you much better this year. Started with jogs and what not. But yeah you are one of the more easygoing guys that can also talk deep with. You remind me of 1 of my best friends from home in the sense I can tell you're a loyal friend. I know I told you this, but yeah hey I think you're one of the better people in SIDM because you really know the worth of a friend. Damn... going to miss ya dude but yeah thanks for being such a nice guy to me this year. To the future my friend:)

To Cyn, hey Squirtle ! Thanks too for being a good friend. They say a poly girl after graduation disappears as in uncontactable. I know you're not.. You're the one who will call up people, not because you don't have pride but you actually get it. You know the importance of friendship as well. I remember Cyn... even when I wasn't part of the SIDM family you tried telling the others to put me in too and sadly I ended up as Ming Fang's mom but I remember you caring:) Please, please eat some veggies =)! You need to look out for your health okay , and u must learn to swim too okay lols, ask them teach you yea hahas , how can a squirtle not swim?!Blasphemy!

Well I think of you as my double in terms of how we deal with our friends yea? You are the real peacemaker kay. I think we're usually the people in the middle of things, and also we're one of the 1st to notice that we're drifting away. And you try, you always try. Look at Ian, I mean when most of us thought he was unreachable, you could ask them out. The thing is if some else tried, he may not have gone. It's cause you're really a nice person yea:) And yeah it's up to you the maintain peace now heheh:)

I mean this in a platonic sense, you're very beautiful & even better you could talk with your bf or anyone actually for hours till morning. Like I said, the world needs girls like Cynthia Goh, it makes falling in love which sometimes is a huge gamble where you might crash and lose it all.. have a huge jackpot prize among all the hit & miss girls... Every girl deserves to be happy & esp somebody as nice as you=) You're always caring for other ppl n friends, make sure you take care of yourself too or at least have some1 who will lift ur spirits back up too alrite(hmmm... look up above heheh) =) I hope life goes well for ya =) I am really going to miss having you in my everyday life sincerely.

to Hazel, haha.. 1 of my best friends even though I'm too much of an ass to say it. Hmm yeah pretty much said this but yeah.. I remember the 1st time I got to know you.. It was at an SIDM bbq and I think Theo invited you. I remember I was cooking when I saw you there with those headphones that we all came to know so well. I remember stopping and wondering whether they silenced the rest of the fleeting world. And you had that long black jacket too. It was summer.. At Singapore... Plus a BBQ! XD.. I remember thinking that it would be cool if I was friends with girl. And then you came and told me things that I didn't expect to hear like the Cure.
Usually the very cool girls are very.. elitist? But yeah I think you're not, thank you for being one of the most down-to earth friend I have. You didn't know my friends very well when I started asking you to join us but you came anyways. I never really got to say thanks for that yea:)

Yeah I as told you, I have this theory about girls... that the more they talk with me.. they see the real me and get bored. I was always very careful not to talk too much(I know it is retarded) but the funny thing is that I never cared but that when I was talking about you. I always wanted to have something to say instead, and it was just fun talking with you about everything under the sky and above it too. We could have been talking about why JHTM is awesome, or how Robert Smith inspired a generation, why games just aren't good as the ps1 days, or even religion. I find we do have alot in common and yeah it really sucks that my next part of my life I won't get to see you and the rest there. I think watching movies won't be fun anymore because there's no one there to tell me who's the band playing the song during a scene, or how Gondry is a genius. There once very far back when you said you were lucky to get to know me since you said I introduced you to the SIDM people. The truth? You would have known those people all on your own because you're a very kind soul:) I was the by far the lucky one(got to meet the "epic" people :))

You had me interested as a friend since "do you know whos Mark Peireira ?" hahahs , don't ever shortchange yourself too =) you're going to go far in this world, beauty & grace goes a long way yea =) .I always considered myself a loner and a cold person but really with you, I was more.You're one of my best friends and by far the coolest person I know in the world( and hey I've been a few places right?), keep in touch alrite? I will always write okay, no worries. It's a small world:)

to Ivan.... Last and not least... 1 of my oldest friends here in SG(literally too hehe). You know you're no longer my best friend in Singapore, but if i moved you would still be a best friend , you become a best friend in the world for me too.

In your life you meet people, some you never think about again, some you wonder what happened to them, there are some that you wonder if they ever think about you and then there are some you wish you never had to think about again… but you do. Ivan is in the group of people that I will remember and for all the good reasons too. I came to Singapore & didn't know much people at the time when I met you, my view of most Singaporeans at the time were that they were all impossibly-hard-to-impress & sleazy too since I was working in a bar for a year. But after i met you i could tell that I was never more wrong, that Hell it was very possible that I could be friends with ppl here, not only that but even best friends. You're the 1st solid friend I had here & thanks for that =)

Our friendship... is not like the rest... I mean we have other best friends too but we always still have each other's back .You know I remember at freshmen year, that every1 around us.. that they had like cliques instantly but I never forgot how it was really just us two going out for everything. I guess .. in general.. I think .. I guess for Poly life.. some of us were lucky enough to come in with a friend.. both for both of us.. I guess we knew that in our previous schools that we were less than the people we wanted to be. So we hoped in DET that things would be better. And yes we didnt find any chicks(in DET but DMD girls are hot :)!) but well at least I was lucky to find a best friend.. it was very simple, we all came in wanting friends & wanted to have a good life at poly and I feel im so lucky now that I met you & the rest. Its been so great since I came here. Thanks.. for being some1 so easy to go out with.. and also a fun person with usually same flow.

2nd thing.. yeah told you already.. Yeah.. I guess I'm sorry.. I remember talking bout the future , like how was NS and all. that. I regret that I can't be there with you now. I really thought we were going to live in Singapore but yeah it wasn't meant to be right? I hate that now when I want to get trashed in pool, you're not there. When there's a new chick flick, I can't call you out. I can't believe I won't get to live like this from now on.

Of all the friends I'm leaving behind, I'm worried about you the most.. I know there will be a void in your life for awhile.. My advice is.. if there is.. go out with them Ivan, they are such nice & beautiful people. If there's any kind of lesson I wished to let you know is that you never realize the significant moments that happen in your life as they happen. Right now growing up with them.. that is the significant moment. I remember a time where you weren't sian and that you were happy to be with everyone. I know alot of shit went down but I hope you can feel happy for them again. I don't think looking cool or pride matters as much, the best you , that you can be is being happy buddy. This is your life now, make sure you don't take them for granted. I will see you again, that I am not worried about. The world is never that big okay. Thanks for being a best friend :)

"Still I won't say goodbye, won't ever say goodbye. And know that I'll always be your friend."

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One last thing, It's not another... its the end of things kinda talk... its the most important thing. I never got to say thank you guys that night for being my friends.. It means so much for a guy who came from small towns to make it here in Singapore where I knew no one, to leave now with such a nice circle of friends.It does make me happy on one side yea :) I feel very humbled when I saw you all came to see me off that night.

It does hurt... that I don't get to live with you guys anymore. You have to understand... you guys stand to lose a friend... can you imagine how I feel? A town? It's a very deep kind of burn but at the same time, an all too familiar feeling.
But yes, I know this is the end of a chapter in my life(oops). But it is not the end of us. If there's a kind of feeling now in you guys(wish I had said all this :P) that there really is something more important than the things you can work for. That feeling that friends really make your life? That feeling will be there tomorrow , it will be there after I leave. The sun still shines tomorrow even over in Canada too. Thank you guys for the life I always wanted. Farewell :)
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I'm right now at KK.. and well just in a weird funk ... I guess you can say I'm in a rather strange point in my life at the moment. I left one hometown to return to another, now after this I will be returning to the West which is where I originally came from. In a way, it's a full circle of sorts for my life.. I guess you can say KK & Sg.. it was really like this long endless summer ( and I don't just mean the oh so very interesting weather) .. It just really felt.. fun I guess.. I'm leaving at September? Yeah .. Autumn.. right kind of feelings.. Feeling quite melancholic now. When I think of Autumn... it's back to school, the end of a fun summer and you just basking in it's memories while coming to terms with the end of it as well. Someone around me once said " You can see the beauty of decay".. True.. . I realize now that I have no idea or grasp of the future as when I 1st came to Singapore, I would never guess I would be leaving. That thought kind of scares me haha. But yeah.. hey thanks to every1 in Singapore.No jokes, I will miss you guys, more than I ever write or say yea. I don't know what to say anymore... I hope to see you guys again soon, and I hope on that day that time & distance were just words. Thank you guys;)

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

whatever the future brings, I will be glad we had our time together . . . we had Singapore right? It happened , didn't it? Yeah... cheers to that ... Thanks and we shall keep in touch .I return to the West.. knowing Malaysia is no jungle.. Singapore isn't full of Phua Chu Kang wannabes. Asia rocks! Farewell Asia and my friends, well hey this is me, Captain America, Significant traitor( get the reason for my email namesake now? I move alot:P) , signing off for now~ Godspeed people!

Ashes of Dreams You Let Die

2008-08-06T14:47:00.007+08:00

A pink slip.

There was only one other time that a piece of paper had this much weight on my life; the NS recruitment letter I got before the course. I was just scared then, because I really wanted to study and I would be around 21 after NS when I start my schooling at NYP.

Today I went to withdraw from the course. As I walked down the hall to meet my teacher. I remembered visiting NYP for the 1st time and recalling it to be bigger than a mall in KK(Wawasan Plaza, you got owned by a school:P). I remember wondering if I could actually meet up some decent people in Singapore( at the time I was working in a bar, and everyone there was pretty well sleazy and I guess I thought my 1st assumptions of the people here were like that but yeah I'm glad to know that's not the case). I felt shame and the feeling of studying for 2 years and having nothing to show for it.

I guess the 1st time I really knew that the course wasn't right for me was at the end of year 1 in NYP. I was just walking home with a friend when I said I wanted to change course to Mass Communications. He understood as I was not doing too well and I think we both knew that we did not mean to spend our lives in the future in front of a pc coding; not because it was hard but rather it just wasn't what we wanted for our lives. That being said, respect to him and the rest of you guys for doing well in the course.

Odd things, I guess if I did go into NS before all this then I wouldn't have to worry about leaving Singapore as much because I knew I could legally return. But that would mean that I would have never met all the people I have since my time in NYP. Every choice in life has a semblance of greater meaning even if we don't see it at the time. Indeed, the whole is greater than the sum of the two parts. But the world of "if only" is really just regret. Where does that leave me?Well I'm on the route of burning down the bridge as I cross it. I'll be canceling my PR and they told me that it would be unlikely that I would ever stay in Singapore again...

I guess the questions will be inevitable in the future as to just what did I really achieve here in my time in Singapore. I guess if anything, it's that I realized there was a huge world outside of Kolombong, Damai and Mt Kinabalu. That the sun really does rise outside your hometown. I'm sorry to I guess every1 in KK .. I left home for this course and I couldn't even finish it in the end.
Part of me feels I disappointed them and myself of course. And I'm leaving another hometown again for another course. Yeah and also feel I let down the people here too.I guess I thought I would have gone on to NS with the rest of them after the diploma and well I was ready to just grow old with the rest of them here. But it wasn't meant to be.

So I guess my biggest failure to me wasn't that I didn't manage to finish the course but.. I guess that I had to leave again after settling in. And to know that the next time I return it will be as a visitor. You don't think it's that bad.. but it is hard, you're now reduced to visitor status in your own hometown. Two places now... And I guess it's worse this time because I'm not moving an "island away" .. I was really moving to a different part of this world. I would be in a place where I'm 16 hours behind them. But I guess this is all part and parcel of growing up. Childhood , as blissful as it was, had to end... The same goes for the teenage years right?

There's not a day goes by I don't feel regret. Not because I'm here in my position or because you think I should be. I look back on the way I was then: a young, stupid kid who if he had done better wouldn't be in this mess. I want to talk to him. I want to try and talk some sense to him, tell him the way things are. But I can't. That kid's long gone and this is all that's left. I got to live with that.

So what was I here? A student? Friend? Waiter? Devout servant? Dropout? I'll always carry these questions but the answer is not in black and white. It's all grey.

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Hmm I like this vid down below.. It's pretty much about how he failed to get into the uni of his choice. I have similar feeling in what he says in this song because I feel what he experienced, that being failing big time in life..The experience is very sombre and cold...

PS I'll try to stop emo-posting :X

Currents

2008-08-04T02:27:00.000+08:00

Well.. July's done.. A quicky, some random pics of things here and there yea ..

Bye to a better reason..

Just beyond a city lays a gallery

Didn't work.

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Things I'll try to do:
-DuckTour Sg & try to go everywhere in Sg
-Finally catch the UnXpected at Holland V with Ivan & peeps ( been waiting for like a year!?)
-Sentosa beachbummin ( Weather this year made it near impossible to plan an outing)
-K? The un-happening :D
-Save up for Sutera Harbour/Karumbunai Trip with AeA & Su :)
-Eat all the good pratas,drink up all the milo dinosaurs, and whatever I wont get to taste soon ;|
-Go to KL to meet Chan before leavin for MooseLand?
-Continue to avoid durians
-Stop being a pu**y bout what I need to say & do.. Even tho Fuzzy Wuzzy likes them :P
-Get every1's adresses to try to write to when I freeze my ass at MooseLand :)

... Sidenote.. My great hope to introduce prata to the masses in Canada is gone as it seems they have it there already.. Damnn!

Same Song On Infinite Replay

2008-07-31T16:00:00.000+08:00

Well .. not much but I found me old journal. I wish I had kept it active through my stay in Singapore now. Sure I have a blog.. but there's just some things and thoughts that you know only you'll ever be able to decipher. And yeah sorry.. this a bit of mindless self indulgence here.. but I'll post a pretty important entry from it. It's pretty much for those who know Hokkien Mee as a dish that's best served black or know the smells of a long kang yea.

October 20th 2005
These last few days were just hard messaging all the friends about leaving. Nadia left a pretty sweet comment. Well it was kind of weird going out every day knowing full well that it would be some time till I was there again. I guess everywhere I went I took snapshots in my mind to try and keep those places that I grew up in my mind. Other than that, I felt excited:) I felt like I was finally doing something with my life by going over to Singapore. A new lifestyle,possibly new friends.

On the day itself, Oct 20th. I was awoken by my dad. It was time to go. And I remember when I was packing my bags into my uncle's car that suddenly everything changed. All the sudden I felt this deep and soulful kind of hurt that I had been trying to hide from myself. I realized how I been subconsciously trying to make myself excited to try and avoid feeling this hurt. I guess all my excitement just melted away. I realized I would be an island away from all my close friends that I loved. I missed KK so much right then.

I'll never forget how in the last day of Grade 4 in Boston, I walked over to the giant globe model and spun it around to find this exotic place called, Malaysia. I remember having no idea what kind of people stayed at Malaysia. All I knew were these stories my parents told me about like running from Fire Ants and starfruits. In my mind, I thought Malaysia was literally all jungle. So when I was landing there I saw there was actually a town I felt relieved that toilet time didn't mean digging holes or using leaves.

Fast forward a small lifetime, and now I was leaving KK already. Who would have thought that I would end up missing this small humble town. But I do, I love the place. I guess if you ask me now, sure I was born in America but I'd like to consider myself more as a Malaysian since I was brought up there. It's where I grew up along with my friends. Now I was leaving it all behind for a place where I knew no one. 8 years have come and gone so fast.

Well I had to take the flight from home to JB by myself. Not a good idea since I was uber clumsy.On the plane I took some pics as we left. I guess by the time I landed I felt okay again. Something weird though.. I noticed that my phone had dropped a newly added accessory. A gift from a friend that read KENNY SABAH. I thought it was kind of like the universe was trying to tell me that I was no longer home. I took it and tied it back on as I wouldn't let this new land break my spirit. Well reaching JB, I messaged family and friends that I managed to get there safely. Used up all my Digi credit since Digi wasn't used in Sg. Well finally the bus to Sg came and I got on.

Things were going alright until we reached a check point. I wanted to take my luggage but the bus captain said I didn't need to since after the check point would get back on the same bus again. Every1 else left their things too so I went with the crowd. Well since I had a different passport , mines took longer to process or something. When I went through the checkpoint, I saw my bus. Problem was that it was on the road and far ahead. So I was full of expletives and well yeah my phone had no battery too so couldn't call my dad. I was freaking out. Stupid bus took my luggage. Well called my dad who told me to wait for the bus to come back. This being JB I felt the chance of that was not possible.

So I finally decided to take another bus to catch the other one. And well hahah I did, caught up with it. Got my stuff and complained to the bus driver. But yeah I sucked at being angry anyway. Well got on the bus and made it to Woodlands. I had to fill up a form which read: WELCOME TO SINGAPORE & next to those words? WARNING! DEATH TO ALL DRUG TRAFFICKERS. Yeah it's been a pretty great welcome so far from this new hometown. Well met up with my uncle here and got to my new place. So yeah finally I had arrived in Singapore. I tried messaging my friends about everything that had transpired but... my sim card wasn't able to work here. So yeah couldn't contact them. I felt the barrier of a 1,000 miles right there and then. Well... yeah goodbye KK :)

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Fast forward 2 & 3/4 years.. Summer's coming to a slow close as it gives way to August. Hmm.. yeah... Well still got 7 weeks left. Trying to make the best of it yea. Story of my life-> Leaving my home for a place where I know no one. This is the 3rd time!In a sad way, things have come full circle too as I head back to Western lands... Still worried if I can get used to it there. Won't ever hear "bah" or "lah". Hahaha... Never forget how after my 1st day of school in Malaysia, I went to the dictionary to look up those words. God,I'm going to miss Singapore and KK... Just biding my time now yea...

Slippery when wet

2008-07-24T18:57:00.000+08:00

Sorry recent bad habit.. Posting make-up posts for the last few weeks.. Well yea yeah.. anyways here's what's been up since... July 24?? Damn.. I haha far, far away : |

--J U L Y 24 --
High & Dry Times

Well we celebrated Ivan's 21st yea in a chalet : ) So yeah it was a fun fun nite, some people drank like crazy... plus we saw the emergence of the GD...Well tried to do a flaming drink for Ivan but yeah fell through when it was too much Umeshu : |

One of my favorite quotes that I heard around btw;
"I talk like thunder,
Drink like lightning
Vomit like a landslide"

slack city

eureka! sister & brother lol

too much fire ...

Well most of them went to bed.. but the moment I hit the floor, Guo Dong woke up and I don't know haha .. reached that magical moment in the morning where if you don't sleep the whole night.. you suddenly feel refreshed and it seems like some kind of hack since it don't make sense.

Talked to Vin & GD about past crap .. Yeah I think we've come a long, far way since Grassroots bowling ;) Plus, we seemed quite old( Yeah, for some us . It's legally true , (Ivan?)) but yeah more than that... we just seemed much more tired for this Year 3. It has been a tiring year yea lol..

Well many of them awoke to a rather strange & bewildering sight of ravens.. What happened was that we were inside the room and there was this commando-esque raven that kept chasing us.. We were trapped inside... until ZF and Bobo went from the back to flank them.. Bobo was KIA but not all was lost as ZF hit the damn cocky raven 3 times with the aluminum grill before the stupid bird flew off.. wth hahah.. Anyway it was nice having another chalet again yea lol

Anyway yeah Happy 21st Bday Ivan! Respect to ye old dude!

--J U L Y 4th--
NYP BANDZOUT 08

bandz out 08

the crowd.. hahah amazingly most of us are in this pic with me right at the edge lol

Well a whole lot of us came to the finals to support our two friends play, Gui Sheng's Crash Kills Five and Hazel's Absence of the Presence! : ) Well all in all, I have to say .. SIT Club should not take hold of the next Bandz Out.. Hoping that duty passes to SIDM! Rawr!

Absence Of the Presence!

--M O R E OR L E S S N O W--

Saw the Batman the other day... what can i say that hasn't already been said about Heath Ledger's terrifying Joker. This isn't the Joker that cracks joke.. he'd rather crack skulls with a steel bat. Well someone said about his portrayal as the Clown Prince of Crime, that Heath doesn't become Joker.. Heath Ledger simply disappears. Brilliant sequel with every one bringing their A-game to the table, Aaran Eckhart is great too as the tragedy that surrounds his character's transformation in the last act is well done . Cheers! Best.Comic.Movie.Ever! XD

Last Sunday a few of us went to look around this ghost town around CCK. But yeah hmm it was nice that it was abandonned and all to us hehe : ) Looked around and they took loads pics lol. Coming back to spray some sh*t up : b

Today I went to Clarke Quay to look for a restaraunt to go for the interview. Didn't find it.. a good afternoon wasted rushing from shelter to shelter in the rain. On the hmm bright side, went to that Japanese-ish mall at the end of Clarke Quay. And they had a good bookstore... Found a pretty funny book, The Japanese Monster Survival Guide Cute:)

After that went to finally settle my stupid loan bills, tuition grants and also NS stuff that I have to take care of once I leave. Well now I need to meet with Mr Fritz to withdraw and then finish my stuff to send over to the Unis over in MooseLand yea. So much fun right? :}

Later on, went to the sch library to borrow some books.. but yeah couldn't since some of my books were overdue and I needed a POSB card to pay.. Well let's just say my bank account and me have a typical estranged relationship between son and his father who left home a long time ago. We both know in the back of our minds that we each were part of each other's life but we never actually acknowledge the existence of one another. That being said, looking for $ in my account was like looking for life inside the lava pit of a volcano. Yeah so didn't get to borrow anything Xo

Went to meet the rest and by then my energy was pretty spent lol. Well went to have dinner with some of them before meeting Han Ming with Cyn yea. Han Ming got a famous touch,blow and rub toy from FunZone : P

Finally we got to get the Anderson's ice cream from Cyn's place at Novena yea : ) Well yeah saw the hmm rather infamous microwave where ungodly experiments were held in lol :D Anyway haha yeah hmm we walked around Novena Square 2 , a 1st for me yea . After walking around we slacked in one place fer awhile before finally going back. Anyway haha yeah this lil trip put my spirits back up :D

Went back home a bit dazed as I found out that Su might be coming over to KL next month ! Awesome lol.. So yeah hmm need to save up for gas money since I definitely want to be in a car when I get there : )

Well right long day.. damn tired.. and I'm about 1/3 through my Rum & Raisin ice cream heheh ;)

A Slight Case of Overbombing

2008-06-12T05:15:00.000+08:00

Hmm well yeah its been ages since I last posted anything.. guess was somewhere in between lack of mood to blog & hmm just living yea..

Well suffice to say, a lot of things happened like.. hmm there was the most infinitely-delayed Zoo trip : ) That was a bunch of fun, no Ah Meng's graveyard unfortunately.. Well yeah I actually got to see Kenny the Terrible Lizard aka Komodo Dragon, cool yea :) Got to see some really cool giant tortoises:D Plus the amazing , harder than Iron Man's back , kangaroo balls. Well yeah I'm glad we got to finally go to the zoo yea haha :D

Plus also recently NYP had BandzOut yea:D Went down to check out Hazel's band, Absence of Presence to perform but yeah it turned out the performance would be in a studio room so yeah we couldn't fit in >.<.. Hmm a suprise, Gilbert was there too , and also Gui Sheng hahah :) Yeah small world yea lol.. But hmm yeah despite what I think is flat-out stupid organizing( the auditions are held outside of school while the finale is at school... lame...),it was definitely cool seeing friends doing their thing .. And heard from Gui Sheng that he got in and so as Absence of Presence, Cheers :D

Also after Spore Con, got a call from Chan.. Yeah it was out of the blue, it was definitely nice to hear from an old friend.. It's been ages since the last time I saw him.. So yeah hopefully at August, AeA will make enough $$$ so he can fly over and we can finally have some kinda small reunion... with that... I realized... that we were nearing that 5 year gap.. Whether we would haha still have time to talk crap.. or more importantly would we be talking.. and yeah... we're nearing that 5 year span from graduation.. that was quick yea? And though I guess not all of us are with us on the same page but yeah glad that some of us still maintain contact yea : )
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My fave Smallville scene : ) I like how it shows even with all his powers there are just somethings he is powerless,like preventing peple dying.. Hmm Superman's weakness is Kryptonite but I rather think his true weakness.. is that he is alone in respect that he's nearly invincible.. that all the people he cares about aren't.
Well my fave shot is the scene with Clark & the angel statue.. very symbolic :)
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Hmm well finally handed down the SIDM Crub yea :) Though I thought the voting was a bit hmm ... but I guess its their responsibilities from here on. And yeah that's the way it should be.. Well the state of things these days... Hmm... guess... it's not some big fight or argument that will end things.. I see its just takes silence yea... Okay maybe I'm being slightly over dramatic when I say "end" but yeah things just aren't the same .. its far more complicated because there's no fight that caused this ... and the worst thing is not knowing how to make it better anymore..

I guess I'm probably worried things will be like when I left KK... Probably 1 of the hardest experiences was coming back home last year to find out my two best friends were no longer on speaking terms with each other.. I remember actually having to sneak around with AeA & not let the other party know... There was so much tension between 2 former best friends... And yeah it was a weird thing because .. they were both still close to me but not each other so I had to plan separate events to make sure they weren't going to be in the same place.. yeah.. long story short, coming back home to find that your friends aren't close anymore is just horrible...

Hmm well talked briefly with Han Ming about this.. how I hoped things would be good when I came back next time.. but yeah it really won't be my place to do anything once I leave .. And I've come to terms with the hard truth that this year is the closest I'll ever be with them.. After I move, there won't ever come such a time again. I say that, with the utmost regret but... yeah it is the truth... "You can never come home again" .. I think that's true in the sense.. things will never be the same as when you left... I just hope that things get better yea... Alright 'Nuff said ..

Well its nearing July... I'm starting to pack up.. hmm just the other day my living room sofa was moved out of the house... hmm to buy a new sofa for the new residents of the place when we leave.. Starting to read up to on the lifestyles there.. Hmm you'd think I'd be pretty good at this by now.. I mean moving & restarting... but yeah in a way.. it has to be hard... if it ever gets easy to leave everything & everyone then that's the day I die inside yea. Hmm yeah... more on this later.. there's still much to be done here..

Lightning Crashes

2008-05-11T01:07:00.000+08:00

Hmm hey a pretty overdue post yea O_o

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Hmm 1st off Zhi Feng's b'day yea lol..

Well it was on a Friday so yea we all met at sch after around 6 before going down to PS. Well yeah I actually didnt join them until like around... hmm 10 yea lol.. Hmm after that met with them at Dhoby Ghoat before we headed over to Clarke Quay to look for a pub yea lol. Hmm well there was alot of wandering around as we just couldn't find a pub that wasn't already massing with people yea.. Plus we even walked past Hooters haha :D After awhile we went to Boat Quay and finally found a place to crash at some Dart Pub lol : )

Lights & Sounds

It was a nice nite at the k-pub..There were songs, drinks and forfeits with disgusting drinks lol.
Hmm.. it was129.80 for a cheap ass whiskey bottle but well we all shared yea so ten each.. we are so cheapos hahah..

Happy Bday to ZF wo0o0o!

Well after that we went over to the bridge at Clarke Quay & took some nice night pics while we decided where to go lol. Then went to Xing Wang cafe where most of them felt asleep hahah but at our table a tipsy guy made it entertaining lol

Well from this night, learned ZF wasnt the only 1 getting old.. Hmm sadly, we cant thon as easy as last time lol ... haiz hahahah.. but yeah it was nice having the old band together for a night.. Ber was there and hey Joe was there.. It was really nice having both of them with us again and yes it's just been too long since we just had an outing among ourselves. Well yeah missing Year 2 haiz hahah :) Hmm my proposal? Everyday shud be somebody's bday :D

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Well last Sunday, went over to Timbre again wooo : )
Hmm this time around with Hobo, Alex, Daryl and Hazel . We met up after work then went there for a drink.. haha this time I was broke so I had the most expensive glass of bland Iced Lemon Tea. We all shared and got a yummy pizza lol. Hmm probably the most craziest thing to happen that night tho was Hobo walking to the band and asking if he could play a song lol. We thought he was joking but yeah apparently he wasn't lol. But I have to say, he playing on stage was so impromptu that it just made the night lol .. Also I think it may have pissed off the Timbre staff lol . Anyway Hobo played quite well actually hahaha.. and we were like the only table applauding hahah. It was nice & we got to talk with the singer too( since Hobo took her seat on stage when he played lol) . Hmm this time, they actually spoke what we wrote on our requests lol
Fun night hahaha: )

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Hmm well stumbled on to Avenue Q due to some namedropping from frends. Its a live show with a twisted version of Sesame Street I guess haha. It's really funny : ).. wished they had a show here haha : )

Avenue Q! :D

Everyone's a little bit racist XD

If you were gay

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Well on the other side of the spectrum, yeah these past few weeks have been horrendous for the world I guess. Been saying all along that Mother Nature had PMS but yeah ... this month.. was just insane...

1st well.. Cyclone Nargis hits Myanmar and have already killed 22 000 ppl...

And before we even have a chance to let those very real numbers sink in.. China herself gets hit by a quake ...on a sch day...You know what really sucks right?.. China is actually only allowed 1 child per family.. So yeah it's just horrible...

Hmmff... damnit... I really wished we lived in a world where when something like this happens.. We dont have to work or study, we just go over & help them out until things are good again.. Instead we have to continue to live in our lives.. we cant afford to help others.. its a warped mindset.. I really think people should live for people.. Instead... look at us... the idea of dropping your job to go over to help out with the devastation of human lives is unfathomable and border lining on unrealistic.. That's what I can say really needs to change in this society... How can it be that we still have to work when on the other side of the world people could be saved if we took the time to do so? They could live if we went over yea so why do we have to waste time to file in reports and continue on as drones yea.. Civilization doesn't really make much sense sometimes.. Granted before these calamities ... I know at 3rd world countries, people are already dying everyday due to wars.. but yeah ask majority of the people today, their plight just doesn't fall in line with the goals set up by the way society wants us to live our lives...Just sickening...

Yeah the lyrics below are familiar but this is the full version ..This song with its lyrics & ideas really opened up my mind. It had such a profound effect on me growing up. It made me realize just how little we are compared to the whole world but we could if we tried, to live in peace yea.

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

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Well hmm well got some details of my flight. Its .. at JB at18 sept at 12pm yea.. JB... my dad... argh wished he checked with me before booking so I could have tried to manipulate the place and time of my departure haiz.. owh well...

Hmm still tie up some things before I leave.. Hmm yeah well I need to find out at least for myself even though I pretty sure what the resolve to this matter is going to be but yeah I still have to try at least yea : ) Well hmm May is almost done... damn damn...
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Cheers Beers :)

2008-05-04T01:11:00.000+08:00

Well not much cept well hey hmm yesterday was Su's 21st bday :)
dammit.. I really wished I could have been back home at least for that yea.. It's been sometime since I thought about KK yea... We've all been busy.. plus I'm leaving Sg soon... so trying to focus on here a bit... After I leave Sg, I'll be in KK for 2 weeks before going to Canada.. So yeah I know it will be full circle when I get back home yea..

Well from I guess I learned with all this long distance -post high school life that ... distance does change the status-quo for friendships a bit yea... And well your best friends.. there are different ways to deal with the distance with them...

You've got your best friend who exemplifies friendship-he messages you every week just to see how things are going. You feel like you never left home...he still knows everything about you, and even over the Internet can tell when something is wrong. He teaches you that distance doesn't have to change a friendship at all. I feel that this to AeA to some extent.. we do keep in touch yea.. I'm glad we try to even though sometimes now it will be harder to find topic to chat since the distance yea but I'm glad he tries yea :)

Then of course, there is your other best friend. He rarely calls or writes and he doesn't do the email thing. At times you think he has forgotten about you...until you hear from him. You hear from him for the first time in almost six months-and nothing has changed. You are still you and he is still him --even though you never talk you are as close as ever, you are still the best of friends. You find yourself expressing just how much you're going to miss him -- because you realize it now more than ever. He teaches you that true friends are friends in the soul...separation can never tear them apart. And yeah this applies to Su to me... I don't hear from him much.. maybe once in a few months? But I always never find it a problem to close the gaps of time & distance apart between us.

Thanks for being such a great friend.. all the way since I was making fun of you when you were in"F4" hahaha... I would have never knew back then I would find one of my best friends yea...Alot of stuff since those days ;) but I'm glad we never doubted our friendship even after the move lol. It's not easy to find a friend like you haha so yea Thanks & cheers dude!
Happy 21st birthday Su:)

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Well for last night.. I was let go early from work around 8 since nobody was eating there much... so yeah I worked 5 to 8.. so damn lame hahah. I guess CA's business is going to crap now hahah.

Well I slacked ard fer a bit until around 930-ish went to meet Hazel & Xuan Hong ( both were working at Suntec: ) , for some dinner at Pastamania yea lol.

Well after we sent XH off, then we met Ivan and went to Pennisula to take a bus on the way back lol.. but yeah Hazel said it was a bit early to go back.. so me & Ivan were joking around to go the pub nearby lol.. And yeah hahah cool that she wanted to go too hahaha. Well yeah toold her how it hmm was.. during 1st year of NYP.. at New Year's eve when it was just me & Ivan... because that time we were the only two that always went out yea.. so after the fireworks we waking home.. Halfway I heard some guitar strumming and a familar voice singing... I knew it was definitely the Unxpected so yeah we went in and had a few drinks lol... Long time ago lol..

Anyway we found the place, Timbre the same way like last time lol.. by the sound of guitar strumming and singing lol. Well yeah haha just as nice as we remembered.. We sat in front of the band & well looked through the menu to see what drinks to get... Well I ordered a S'pore Sling, Ivan went with Tequila Sunrise.. Hazel got Paradise: )
The Singapore Sling..

4.0 cl (8 parts) Gin
2.0 cl (4 parts) Heering Cherry Liqueur (cherry brandy)
0.5 cl (1 part) Cointreau
0.5 cl (1 part) DOM Bénédictine
1.0 cl (2 parts) Grenadine
8.0 cl (16 parts) Pineapple juice
3.0 cl (6 parts) Fresh lemon juice
1 dash Angostura bitters

Well tasted like Kool-Aid and really sweet.. not very powerful yea lol : ) Ivan's 1 tasted a bit like Orange Juice and Hazel's 1 wasnt that good.. and was also served in a smaller glass lol.. our logic being that Paradise cant last forever lol :)

Anyway yeah well we were just enjoying the ambiance of Timbre yea .. It was dimly let, quiet silent but yeah that sounds like a closed library but yeah it was different.. felt really easy to lay back and talk with your friends kinda place.. So yeah hahah hope someday they will go to here or Wala Wala at Holland V yea :)

Well I liked the band singer's voice.. tho it wasnt Shiryln but yeah she was really good too : ) Plus they had Rene from Unxpected on the accoustic guitar :)
I requested for Bic runga's Sway :) & they played it .. It's a beautiful song bout hmm crushes and stuff.. really nice lyrics too... Well it was awesome hahah : ) I really love the live versions better... plus they played Worn me down by Racheal Yamagata after that which was definitely a bonus yea.. Here's a cover that does it justice :D
After that song we went back yea lol :)

On the way back we passed by Geylang.. which well was full of durian stalls.. and then it kinda struck me as thats why there were so many prostitutes at Geylang.. Dirty can be smelly's best friend so yeah they both quite... gam lol..

Hmm yeah we were supposed to switch bus at Hazel's stop but then we were too late so in the end took a cab yea.. Well hmm hahah we thought it was nice, since we were all working same area.. could do this again sometime hahah.. maybe next time at Clarke Quay since Ivan worked there yea lol : )Cheers!

After that had a nice hmm.. "trash talk" until the wee hours of the morning lol :) Well yeah hmm good chat & hope things get better for all of us yea lol :)

Ice Cream & the movies

2008-04-30T00:24:00.000+08:00

Hmm this week's almost up lol... well hmm so yeah here's whats been going on yea :)

Well trying to move up to Green Belt in KickBoxing... the crazy training had me spaz out so many times lol... and I have to master the skip rope.. which well yeah is not going to be easy considering I about the same balance of a three-legged cow when trying to do jump rope. X.x

Hmm well Ivan, ZF,Bobo started work at Giordano lol. Hmm though for the next 3 months.. they only get 1 or 2 days off...So haha have to make do with their days off then yea nevertheless hope they have fun with the aunties:)

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The other day

Well early in the afternoon went over Ajay's house to play PS3. Woots! Hmm played Tom Clancy's Las Vegas and played terrorist hunt... We went to 5 places but in the end we couldn't find Osama Bin Laden... Well its up to this guy then XD

After that I went over to Cathay to meet up with Cyn, Cong Zheng, Han Ming & Trudy for some free Ben & Jerry's! It was really two levels high the queue lol XD. Well some of them were going their 2nd or 3rd time yea hahah. They had a friend who went 5 times hahah. Well was talking to them outside the queue but while going down sneaked into line... Owh well hahah at least every1 had a free cone yea :)

The flavours were : Chocolate Therapy(with choc pudding*o*), New York Fudge(made from real New York people), Chunky Monkey(Poor monkeys...), Cookie Dough(Poor Amos...), and Strawberry(meh so boring:P)

Well I got me Cookie Dough flavour which well as Cong Zheng said wasn't that good.. It tasted like brown sugar a bit... >.< I should have gotten Chunky Monkey ;{ ...

Hmm after getting our cones we settled down at Ben & Jerry's & met with Jing Ru and Javien who were doing work there yea:) Hmm wow I sure wished I was working at Ben & Jerry's... The staff performs:)And yeah the girls quite cute:) Owh well lol..

After that Han Ming & Jing Ru had to leave for work, the rest went to go somewhere to nua lol, I had to go to Marina Square to get my pay. Well thought I could join them to nua but then boss told me to get the pay around 630.. Lame.. so I went to do what I do best, which is waste time yea.. I don't mind waiting because I can usually waste time lol.. Even better if the place has a supermarket or bookstore lol :)

After getting the bloody pay went to Cineleisure to meet up with Hazel & her friends, PC, Hobo, and Robert lol:) Part of her clique which I only heard about till then yea lol. We me up with Daryl then went to watch Doomsday yea:) which was full of over-the-top violence( a bunny gets shot to pieces literally ) but I liked the movie hahah. It was like Mad Max yea :)

After the visceral overload we went to meet Bobo and Ivan for dinner lol.. Hahaha it was like... Hobo meet Bobo lol:D Together they became HoboBobo hahah XD After that we were just talking about Harold and Kumar 2 which is definitely the best movie I saw this week and season lol:) We ended up spoiling nearly every facet of the movie to those who didnt see it lol

--From the movie--
The Square Root of 3 by Dave Feinberg
I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

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The next day after class met up at McDs to meet up before Iron Man:) Hmm but yeah finally got to see some of them who went to dye hair yea. Clarence had ash-brownish colour going on yea, Cyn had hmm dark blue and light blue hi-lights? Well after in the sunlight could see it which was quite good:).. Zhi Feng was the main event tho cause I wanted to see that Purple streak hahah.. but yeah no dice, even in sunlight the purple remained quite hidden lol..

Well after dinner at S11 we went to see Iron Man yea:) Well it was always nice watching movies with Hazel,Ivan or Daryl... cause I kinda tend to talk during movies lol, it was nice that could talk & crap during the movie with her without annoying her..And plus it was good too cause yeah she is easily the best Pop-Culture friend I have so haha its good to guess what song is playing in the bg or what references to other stuff in the movies lol... And since this course... all of us play games and watch movies and analyze them and say lame things like "nice compositing or AI" and stuff like that lol

After that went home, but went back to Amk for some supper with Ivan lol. We ate at this place that he said had alotta cockroaches lol.. Both of us weren't keen on the dirty lil buggers lol.. Well ate some Roti John which I realized was the 1st time eating since i got here lol... I realise now I better eat all the pratas and nasi ayam , lemak and whatever before I leave because I forgot that I won't be eating them for years after this ... In US last time, nasi lemak was for $US 10 bucks .. why? because nobody there had an idea how much nasi lemak would cost anyway yea... I'm so going to miss the Asian food;(
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Well hmm Su's 21st is in a few days yea. Cheers:) Hmm Nadia's going to Germany today:) Damn.. its already May already... ...

Some Kind Of Resolve

2008-04-10T00:41:00.000+08:00

Hmm well hey finally decided to clear the cobwebs here.. this is a pretty huge long and windy post as it has to do with 1 long huge week yea :D
There was quite alot going on , definitely the most eventful week yea :)

Reflections: Days Gone By

Hmm 1st day was after well ... Anyway I was still pretty down but yeah had to go for the orientation camp , and glad I finally got to go for 1 yea :D Well I was teamed up with Reswan & Hazel:D , anyway our OGLs were almost named Bimbo Bombastica, but changed to Momo nono . Great team yea :D Fun being with them too :)

Really?

There was a moment at the end of the 1st day when we were all having a briefing with mr.calvin .. and I spotted the new batch of OGLs playing the 5x5 square jumping game by themselves... hahah.. For me to see a new group of people who just met & were together so fast...It really felt like a torch was passed, and at last there was new batch of SIDM family yea :)

The last day was the most hectic since we were helping out with their banner and yet we were also rushing for the chalet that we still had on that night.. Well on the bus to there the mood was really tense for awhile for some of us... We discussing about the new batch of OGLs but the truth was there was still quite a bit of problems with ours... Plus I was worried cause it was near 12,the BBQ was turning into a private gathering.. We made them wait very long yea.

Well something happened a bit before that.. at McDs... a happenstance... Danke?...

Dancin' where the stars go blue
Dancin' where the evening fell
Dancin' in my wooden shoes
In a wedding gown

Dancin' out on 7th street
Dancin' through the underground
Dancin' little marionette
Are you happy now?

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue
When the stars go blue

Laughing with your pretty mouth
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lover's tongue
In a lullaby

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue
The stars go blue, stars go blue
Follow you
Follow you
When the stars go blue
When the stars go blue
When the stars go blue
When the stars go blue

Where do you go when you're lonely?
Where do you go when the stars go blue?

Happenstance: Crash Into You

Well on the bus there we were pretty tired out yea but yeah soon frustration gave way to laughter and by the time we reached there, things were alright again yea:D It was around 11 by the time we saw Alvin at the bus stop yea: )

Hmm wow it was an awesome place...A bungalow yea :) There was the Weeeeeeeeee :) upstairs
yea. Hmm well yeah it was nice just chilling with friends yea & talking crap hahah..
1st night was drinking but only had a few glasses yea since I didn't want to start WW III ... Though there was some very high friends.. lets just keep the names to those who were there yea :) wo0oo0o! :)

Well 1st night I was coughing badly so I slept downstairs yea ;P
The next day.. we went to get Bobo's b'day prezzie and then over to "O" school to dance it up. Then back to Downtown East with Ivan to get Bobo's Cake.. hmm DownTown East changed a bit and it was kinda weird ... casue most chalets we would walk past here alot but it was the only on the 2nd night that went over here yea. Well after getting the cake, Ivan had to leave for JB and I walked to the chalet..Hmm I was lost for an hour through the park looking for the chalet.. Well I was kinda lost geographically and also in my thoughts too since I was still down yea lol..

When I reached every1 was pretty much upstairs with the PS3 with Rock Band :) Which was the event of the night yea.. It was loads of fun singing along to the songs yea lol :)
Three Alarm Pants!

After awhile we crashed the MG's BBQ yea :) hahah tho I think we kinda took over their chalet for a bit yea lol since we outnumbered them hahah. After some food went back to the chalet to meet Han Ming to bring him to the BBQ.. Hahah we ended up never returning to the BBQ since we were all enjoying Rock Band hahah :D

And well we also celebrated Bobo's 20th bday! Big Bobo .. glad he came and haha he lost some weight too lol.. Yeah there was some cream smearing but no cakesmashing hahah:D
After that we watched 200 pound beauty lol.. And well I think only 2-4 people actually stayed up to see it. I almost slept 3/4 in but I wanted to watch the hmm movie I had missed last time yea and well yeah I've said it before.. but I think perhaps the Golden Age Of the SIDM family was when well.. actually I wasn't a part of it but they were all very close around the time this movie came out. I remembered every1 playing that "Ave Maria" song & it kind of annoyed me but there and then I could sense the real bond between them.. I mean almost every lunch break they would eat tgt at South Canteen yea :D Hmm it was a glorious time I think..

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The next morning, after returning from church. Some of us; Cong Zheng, Hazel, Jake, and Zhi Feng went for a beach run :) It was a beautiful day yea..

CZ and man's best friend who swam very well :)

Hmm wished I brought my swimming clothes.. The beach and sea was very inviting... It was pretty simple but it was just nice goofing around with them and drawing up crap on the sand hahah. Kind of reminded me of Karumbunai yea :)

Mat Selamat's BBQ!

Hmm after that we went back to the chalet and we watched Imagination Land and waited until the rest came back yea :D It was the last chalet night for most of us yea.. well anyway Zhi Feng was buried under stack of pillows and a mattress. He was a pretty heavy sleeper I guess lol.

Wooooo!:D

Well hmm well when most of us got back we were in the room and I'm not sure what happened but things ended up with a huge pillow fight and many gay tau poks hahah. It was uber stupid fun hahah :)

Well after that, we decided to live a bit and have a water balloon fight.. Perhaps it was the OGL camp but some of us just wanted to have some dumb fun tgt hahah. And well hahah it was like 20 mins of filling balloons and 4 minutes of water balloon tossing hahah. Using the super soaker and also running around stupidly was fun.

In between these two events.. there was a moment of pure fun.. Yeah I spammed the word fun but it really was because... we all didnt felt like this for a long long time :) it was just good for us ;)

The chalet overall.. the last official FU event I guess was awesome :D
It didn't feel so much like a chalet with every1 going back home and coming back.. I mean.. who goes home & come back to a chalet?.. what it felt .. was like we were a SIDM family living together for a few days yea :D It was sweet :D The funnest chalet ever yea!

We get it on most every night
when that moon is big and bright
its a supernatural delight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

we get
everybody here is out of sight
they dont bark and they dont bite
they keep things loose they keep it tight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

dancing in the moonlight
everybodys feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

We like our fun and we never fight
you cant dance and stay uptight
its a supernatural delight
everybody was dancing in the moonlight

Dancing in the moonlight
everybodys feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

We get in on most every night
and when that moon is big and bright
its a supernatural delight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

Dancing in the moonlight
everybodys feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

Resolutions: Between Order and Randomness

Well from the chalet we had to rush back via cab to school for the AV duty... I have to admit I felt like it was pretty dumb yea since well some of us like Ivan did this last year & had to do it again this year ya.. 1st day was so tiring.. was wishing I was back at the chalet hahah :)

Later on heard about the chalet people, they were evicted from the place.. felt bad for CZ and have to give it him for being such a nice guy about the whole thing.. 1st off for being so late.. I was scared since he was there with just a few ppl, and was waiting for the lot of us which arrived waaaay late.. but he was still having a poker face with that and being a great host.. Yeah, the chalet would not have been possible without him and Cyn. Kudos and props to them when we stayed up planning it up late yea: ) thnx to both of them :D

Well AV duty was pretty boring, staying in the AV room the almost the whole afternoon lol. 1st night watched , ZF,Clarence,Ivan and me watched the 3 Kingdoms which was boring hahah. Ivan and Clarence fell asleep through the movie hahah.. The movie had a baby that got saved, that grew up to be a retard and a prince which caused the fall of that dynasty and also we respected Guan Yu after the movie hahah XD

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The next day.. was still tired despite having good sleep lol. Hmm in the morning went to trade some music with Hazel & Han Ming yea :)

After AV duty, we were still in a buzz about some lame ghost thing that we thought we saw. Gathered alotta of them and we went to check it out lol. Though it turned out to be a stupid glitch in the light system lol hahah.

After that we played some games with Hazel and Cyn playing the Rock,Paper,Scissors and Slap game:) which caught on with a few of them lol.. ... plus .. some of us tried to infiltrate the ranks of the freshies and fool the ogls in which they succeeded.. especially in the case of 1 Han Ming hahah. They even included him in their performance hahah XD

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The next day, hmm it was their last day yea. Well it was pretty much standard AV Duty but cept for Hazel came over hahah and helped out yea lol:) We had a pretty nice chat while I screwed up some of the lights lol. Hmm never really had a nice deep convo other than other our interests with her so yeah it was nice talking about SIDM friends and also how all of us met and stuff:)

After the event we went down to the stage and all of us were still on a natural high I guess :D Took loads of pics and goofed around hahah. We were all at the stage with the new ogls and of old.. A few of us Han Ming, Daryl, Hazel and me sang alotta songs together yea.. it was nice having this kinda bond hahah :D Took loads of pics with every1 ... the mood and atmosphere was very high and positive overall lol:D

Team F U! RAWR!!! ZF was elected honorary president after this pic

After that went out and most of them headed to AMK while Han Ming and I met up with Ber..Well majority of them were at Suki Sushi yea. I went to go get my pay while they went to play pool lol. I joined them later and then we all went back after that...

Well at the end of the night, Ber said something that I felt was very true . She said this group change very fast.. And when I look at this week as of a whole... friends changing around, circumstances changing with new people coming into our lives.. What a week...

I guess seeing the new batch of OGLs versus us really put things in perspective... I saw them... and I had to admit I was a bit jealous.. they had a long year ahead to have fun & get to know each other.. When I look at us now.. sometimes I wonder where we went wrong... How did we ever fall through the cracks to become like this... Now's it's kinda lame to keep track of who's not on good terms with who now.. and who's okay with who before calling every1 out..

I kinda wished every1 could just not take for granted that we're not always going to be together.. I mean after NS I'm sure circumstances will change again.. Haiz... it kinda made me a bit hmm tired of the state of things with the SIDM family...I just wished we weren't so petty yea.. that we would just come together and be the group of friends we used to be.. And no I don't think I'm being too naive or foolish here... I think it is possible.. Its just ego and pride that will prevent this yea.. I mean if we all could just accept each other's problems it would be easy..

Nobody's perfect but I really believe we're all innately good people so if we not overlook but accept each others faults than we could be the family we used to be yea :D Its when I saw them , the new batch.. that I remembered that not so long ago, every1 was so glad to be friends with each other yea. I wonder when we'll be able to go back to that time yea...

There was a game we used to play
We would hit the town on Friday night
And stay in bed until Sunday
We used to be so free
We were living for the love we had and
Living not for reality

It was just my imagination
It was just my imagination
It was just my imagination

There was a time I used to pray
I have always kept my faith in love
It�s the greatest thing from the man above
The game I used to play
I've always put my cards upon the table
Let it never be said that I�d be unstable

It was just my imagination
It was just my imagination
It was just my imagination

There is a game I like to play
I like to hit the town on friday night
And stay in bed until sunday
We'll always be this free
We will be living for the love we have
Living not for reality

It's not my imagination
It's not my imagination
Not my
Not my
It's not my imagination --(imaginaAaAation Imagination land:D)
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Resolve: There It Was...

The next day well.. OGL Camp was over.. but we were still meeting up for some KBox singing yea :D Went Kbox with Cong Zheng,Han Ming,Cyn,Zhi Feng,Hazel, Jeff, Clar,Yong Yi :)
After some happy-slapping at the MRT we went to McD's for some breakfast.. But haiz we were too late for the breakfast menu and thus no McGriddles for us lol

We had loads of fun ...Hmm this venture actually was a bit different since I felt majority of the songs were English and well I think err we kinda hogged the mic >.<... Anyway it was fun singing around with friends & yeah we even sang the squirting queen song XD Hmm plus english songs were damn loud .. all of us were singing/shouting i think lol.. Hmm Jeff was really imba but hmm it didn't feel like it was a friend that sang well with us, it felt so hmm haha imba till the point it was like hmm that's professional standard yea lol

After that some of us split up, a few of us stayed at Chinatown & slacked around looking for a watch yea lol :) Hmm well after seeing CZ off to work we went back to school yea. Well it was the seniors vs the juniors in shooting hoops but I think we lost yea :P After that we had dinner at MOS burger yea :)

Hmm there was one part while walking to McDs after dinner(*yeah... we had nothing to do hahah) that I thought was quite nice.. Well there was these two new OGLs that were with us, and throughout the whole night we thought they were together yea.

And well we were walking behind them and we started wondering if there was anything going on between them. So I said perhaps they were together, lovers maybe? She said it was possible that they were best friends too yea.. I then added.. 1of the was in DET & the other was in DMD.. After that comment... I stopped and I think both of us just realized the pure irony of the situation. There it was, it was just very much an allusion to well yea :).. and actually well hahaha we made note of it too.. we were both glad we were good friends :) I think it was great and ironic in the end, it was her that cleared up my head from the darkness yea when she told me I was 1 of her best friends, it just made understood. And yeah suddenly things weren't so complicated anymore yea :D I thought this scene was a very beautiful moment for me and also a nice ending to this little episode... It was very full circle to the things that went on during the holidays.

So yeah what a holiday yea? ;) Cheers:D

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

EPILOUGUE: Life As It Is

Well it's now 3 weeks later after that... Yes holiday is over.. And well these days we are into the Final Year yea... Back to school yea. Hmm sch life is pretty slack for now yea:) Hmm we still keep in touch with the new batch of OGLs too:)

Hmm and well like karma is... actually suddenly my well New Year's Resolution suddenly seems to well.. have a chance .. Things weren't like before but I think we both are working on it yea.. Glad to at least be able to chat with her again.. I didn't expect her to make an initiative to patch up the gap and time lost between us, so yeah that surprised me. Right now my well heart still hasn't 100% let down my guard around her. I just don't know how to feel in those kinda situations where you get over this person but suddenly they come back in to your lives.. Granted, both of us knew that things weren't like before as it was a long time since we were close.. But yeah I'm still shell shocked about the sudden effort but yeah, honestly it would be nice to have that escape from the world's infinite failing and stupidity. It's still a bitter pill to swallow but .. there's hope and one day we'll might just make it back yea..

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Hmm anyway today we had fun, it was Theo's 19th b'day yea :D.. 1st most of us met up at Blk M yea.. Dragged retard along since yeah it's been awhile since he had a life right? Well we had dinner at some Chinese restaurant at AMK HUB and well after that?... why... we went to .. HIPPOS!

WooHo0o0o0o!

5-1, 5-1, 5-1 !!! Cheers !!!! Yeah hahah finally got to go to ....
H- I - P - P - O - S!!!! wOOOsh!!! *Cue Final Fantasy Victory Theme Song!

Well our table we were playing Jungle Speed in which hahah Cyn was owning lol: ) The other table had Dirty Minds going on yea which well the underdog tag team of Trudy & Theodora saw them as the victorious team to emerge against the dirtiest minds yea :)

And so at last, it came to pass that I finally made it to Hippos :) And at there, were many wonderful unique games to behold and to be played there. And so unto 3 separate tables we split to, as we had our bountiful fun. Twas tis very night the very elusive Hippo was conquered.Yes, Hippos... :) Yes:)!!!

Anyway glad that Theo enjoyed herself yea:D Well yeah a nice night out :) And honestly I think well yeah we are making some headway & progress, everything seems to be at peace in the SIDM clique so yeah I think we have a good chance of making it back yea :D
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And also well... another unexpected happenstance occurred.......

The Runaway Found

2008-03-30T01:19:00.000+08:00

Hmm well hmm 1st off, I finally finished PS I love you :) Hmm the ending was a bit surprising... Gerry comes back from the grave & becomes a Spartan , then Spartan kick Daniel into a well.. I guess it speaks volumes about love yea : ) Cool ending.. and yeah seriously, hahah nice book.. but yeah it's definitely a chick's book but the book is still nice yea :D

Well finally went for my 1st class at O sch:) It was pretty fast paced I have to say yea... Fun too yea hahah :)

Well something pretty creepy happened to me too.. Hmm well I was changing into my uniform in 1 of CityLink's toilets .. And well honestly I could see the shadow of the guy next to me on the floor... I mean I didn't mean to stare.. But WTH .. it was obvious he was making love with his hands .. that too and he just wouldnt shut up... I was thinking only a nutjob would try this in public toilet rite? Hmm well I guess the term druggie would have been better... Cause here's the really creepy part...

Suddenly something from his cubicle came underneath to my cubicle . It was some red plastic tube with drugs inside(could have been viagra or maybe he was offering me laxatives?) with toilet paper.. It wasn't some accident cause he was offering me the drug lol.. Then he took it back and took off the tissue and it was just the red tube like it would change my mind.. I was about to take a photo of it.. I mean I'm pretty sure this doesn't happen to every1 yea.. He kept showing me the red tube and taking it back, covering with tissue and putting it back.. Either he thought he was David Blaine and doing magic or he must have been really high...

By this point I was pretty disgusted and I left the stall.. But you know it doesn't quite end yet.. I washed my hands and waited to see what kinda sick mofo was that in the cubicle next to me.. I waited for awhile but I guess he was probably using the drug and overdosed inside yea.. Hmm well while waiting... there was a guy who kept looking at me.. I broke off his stare, I thought it was 1 of those awkward staring instances.. but no... he kept looking at me... I washed my hands.. I stared at the cubicle next to mines, and he just kept looking at me.. So I left the toilet right.. picked up my phone... to listen to MP3 & well.. guess what that guy was stalking me lol..

He didn't look creepy , he was a clean sorta guy who looked like he worked in an office... but it was obvious he was following me.. I slowed down to hmm let him catch up... and well he sped up ;walked right next to me.. the moment he did, he looked right at me and then walked in front of me... after that he turned around walking back towards me but hmm didn't say anything.. well I realized he was going back to the toilet.. You know what I think? Hmm that was the probably druggie's partner... and he probably thought I was calling the cops.. Well that kinda shit doesn't happen everyday lol.. Hmm what a freaky experience lol :D

Well moving on,
Hmm hahah I found this obscure video of a drive through KK...

This was 2 years ago.. hmm around the time when before I went to NYP & went back to KK... Hmm I see it now and well .. hahah Gavin DeGraw's Chariot is playing the background.. I think it really fits.. back then we wouldn't have thoughts things would turn out the way it did yea.. There was still a huge bright future ahead I guess.. so yeah haha guess it's kinda sad to see it now I guess.. Knowing some of us will never be like that again ..

Hmm here's another drive with just the pimp this time around... Hmm well I went Cloverfield with the camera and pardon muah if I act a bit retarded lol...

Hmm well nid to save up for June's trip to KL lols :)

Alright last hmm event of the day was well... I was nerding it up at Harris bookstore when I saw something...I was definitely shocked .. And well maybe a cruel joke or something but as if on cue,Daniel Bedingfield's 1 hit wonder plays... That & everything before that plus the timing of the song was so well ... hahah I just felt like was in One Tree Hill here... Hmm usually it's 1 of those .. well up to then...I kinda saw what I wanted to see instead of what was really going on.. but hmm then, there I saw the truth .. And yeah.. I should have seen it coming and realized it earlier... I was crestfallen ... Well at least I know.. it's just .. really ironic how the whole thing ended I guess.. Especially with the role switching ...I guess it confirmed something I realized about ..Hmm too much is apparently too much.. They'll start to get bored yea... Hmm well .. I know this doesn't make the most sense since everything is so vague..It should be like that yea... Where do you go... when the stars go blue..

這感覺
已經不對
心不在
也許妳已經放棄我
我知道是自己錯過
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份
靜的沒這麼快

Hahah haiz sorry to end the post is rather bleak tone...
hmm anyway Su, guess you'll have to go on 1st..
Hope you're having better luck than me here ;)...

Strawberry Fields Forever

2008-03-26T12:32:00.000+08:00

Hmm well 1st off.. I have to admit that for this week, my timing was all messed up I guess lol:D I really didn't think there was another week after Easter left in March so yeah well still got 1 more extra week yea lol.. Though hahah we were kinda waiting to go for the OGL Camp thingy.. haiz hahah...

Well anyway 1st event of the week, met up with Cong Zheng, Jing Ru, Cyn & their friend Damien I think at Koufu for some makan yea.. We met up with Trudy, Vincent & Han Ming along the way yea :) 1st time going to Kallang Leisure Park yea:) 1st we bought 1/2 dozen of donuts then.. Yeah I got to play Tekken 6 hahah :) Damn they nerfed Steve tho... Well after that went for the ice skating yea .. Hmm been while since we went on ice yea... Quite awhile lols.. There wasn't much group skating this time around cause the stupid instructor didn't let us.. Every time we tried, we kena whistle lol ..

Yeah, SIDM on ice lols :)

Me,Cyn,Trudy,Vin,CZ,HM : )

Turdy & SQ:)

Pretty simple & fun day yea :)

Fell hard on my ass near the end lol.. Hmm most of us had a blister on the left foot except for Vin & Cong Zheng I thinks.. Well after the skating hmm had to leave :( around 6 & it was raining pretty hard yea.. Went to Marina Square to go pick up me pay yea lol.. Then joined GD & Hazewl for dinner at Koyabashi yea :) Hmm tho I thought they should have started 1st since they both eat like Ivan(S----l----o----w:D) But hmm hahah GD said he trained from IAP & yeah he was faster than me lols.. What is the world coming to hahah...Well we watched Be Kind Rewind.. Hmm a nice Gondry flick.. I do recommend Eternal Sunshine Of the Spotless Mind to any1 who loves movies yea hahah.. We went to slack around HMV before heading back yea lols:) We all went back to Kovan & GD & me took bus back from near Hazel's place which is a bit of a walk from the MRT lols :)

Hmm the next day did the polar opposite as it was super hot when Han Ming, Vincent, Jing Long & me went for a swim over at Yishun yea.. Hmm well Vincent actually got a nice tan in lol.. As for me.. well I'm 1 of those kinda people who just dont tan.. I just jadi red like lobster yea..Or hmm like Elmo... But that just wouldn't work since I cant be tickled.. Haiz sad case lol...

Hmm went to Bugis... to do nothing? Hmm well while waiting for Cyn, we wasted away at Kino yea lol.. I guess we ate apple strudel & Ivan got his dad a prezzie but other than that nothing much else so we all went back to... AMK lols.. After that went to meet Jing Ru & Alvin & then went looking for the food that CZ was going to go Chef Boyardee on yea ... Hmm well we planned up the chalet details yea lol...Had dinner at CZ house, he cooked us good carbonara yea lol.. After that we slacked around watching drama shows until around 11 to the last bus :)

Well hmm OGL camp next week.. And plus a chalet around next next week.. the last days of holidays... Hmm holiday's finally coming to an end.. Every1 going to be busy.. Plus haiz just realized the SIDM club .. well our duty would be over.. haiz sad ... Hmm but yeah what a great run it's been yea:)

Hmm well oso got to talk to AeA as well.. AeA's graduating at June.. planning to go KL with him to visit the rest after he graduates.. so haha thus, we could have at least 1 trip before leaving yea.. Hmm busy year for every1 lols..

I guess it's luck but it's the same
Hard luck you've been trying to tame
Maybe it's love but it's like you said
"Love is like a role that we play"

But I believe in you so much
I could die for the words that you say
But i believe in you so much
I could die from the words that you say

But you're chasing the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself as the real thing
Is getting away from you again
While you're chasing ghosts

I guess it's luck but it's the same
Hard luck you've been trying to tame
Maybe it's love but it's like you said
"Love is like a role that we play"

But I believe in you so much
I could die for the words that you say
But i believe in you so much
I could die from the words that you say

But you're chasing the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself as the real thing
Is getting away from you again
While you're chasing ghosts

Just bend the pieces till they fit
Like they were made for it
But they weren't meant for this
No they weren't meant for this

Just bend the pieces till they fit
Like they were made for it
But they weren't meant for this

Chasin' the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself as the real thing
Is getting away, away, away, away from you again

Chasin' the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself as the real thing
Is getting away from you again
While you're chasing ghosts

Fake Plastic Trees

2008-03-19T17:37:00.000+08:00

Hmm well slow week yeah lol..

Well hmm on Monday went Kbox with Ivan, Ber, ZF & Trudy who joined us after awhile.. Hmm we sang from like 4 - around 10 .. Was pretty fun yea, but the air cond was just crazy .. Was so cold hahah :D well the bill was far from the $1 for the whole day, 17 each.. plus we had to leave at happy hour time yea .. Well we had dinner afterwards yea before heading back : D

Later on , walking back, was talking crap with Ivan & ZF.. well talking crap really turned to talking crap, about it yea ;p Hahah well we were saying how you die, your body will actually ... well crap ... since we no longer have control of our body lol...

the south park scene that pretty much started the whole talk lols

Long story short .. its actually true..
Bah haha and we were saying it would be sad/gross if well... just imagine this...
A loved one passing away and his/her last dying words to the loved one... saying like " I... will.... always.. love you..." ... some mourning then... BrrrAkKKK crap! That stinks... yeah sorry for taking the beauty of death from ya yea lols...

From Wiki
Most people will die in bed, but of the group that don't, the majority will die sitting on the lavatory. This is because there are some terminal events, such as an enormous heart attack or clot on the lung, where the bodily sensation is as if you want to defecate

Here's some obscure random video from Japan...

The mind shudders at the people who could think up such & pass on such a screwed up concept..

Well haha sorry for the gross post, anyway reading PS I love you, borrowed from Ivan.. damn gud so far lols : ) Well its about hmm this husband that dies young.. and well he & his wife were very close... so well before he died..he wrote her a list of letters on what to do since he knows exactly what she would be doing... wel how to move on from him lol... Very touching hahah : ) Bah alrite Happy Bday to Joe today anyway : )

Echoes, Patience, Silence, and Grace

2008-03-13T18:45:00.000+08:00

Hmm decided to finally decided to cast a Phoenix Down on this rotting blog yea
Well some updates on some updates on some recent events yea :)

Well awhile ago SIDM had this event , Fusion yea :D Hmm it was pretty fun yea :D Hmm well 1st day I was traffic usher yea. After that we tried heading over to Hippos.. but damnit it was closed. So far its Hippos - 4 Kenny - 0 and alot of time wasted >.>

Put some pics up once I get them yea :D

Well during the holidays, we started playing Cabal.. Hmm this game is probably chief reason why most blogs have gone rotting yea lols ..

Well after Fusion went for a Zone overnight cycling yea : )
Never did anything like this so yeah it sounded like fun.. It was hmm Bedok to Changi Village yea hahah...
Hmm haiz.. they didn't have a lorry or we didn't see 1 this time, I had to carry my sling bag which was damn, damn heavy all the way.. And yeah I'm pretty clumsy too lols.. But yeah the cycling was hmm alright actually.. Maybe I got a good bike but my butt pain wasnt that bad lol.. Yeah that sounded uber gay especially since we were at Changi after all hahah XD But yeah hmm it was a pretty fun Amazing Race-esque event yea..

Our motto went from " We can win this" to " we can finish this " :) -- > : }

Hmm hahah 1 event had to jump a jump rope, never mind the fact that I absolutely should never be placed near a jumping rope due to danger I may bring to me or those around, but trying to jump 8 jumps after 6 hours of cycling was really insane lol :D Hmm plus there was that legendary butt pain road that I heard from Vincent & Jing Long lol.. That was really long & almost never ending.. But yeah there was a sense of accomplishment after finishing it yea :) Hmm my fave moment was when we were cycling near the night sea... Hearing the waves crash along the shore.. really made me feel peaceful.. so yeah hahah hopefully the next chalet really will be at Sentosa yea : )

Well reached home around 9am and slept for 3 hours;} Hmm well we were celebrating Clarence & Vincent at Kbox so yeah hahah dragged myself outta bed and headed out lol :) Hmm those who were there on time, we had lunch yea :)

At kbox it was Vincent, Clarence, Alvin,Ber,Ivan,Jake,Cynthia,Guo Dong,Jing Ru,Zhi Feng, Theo and Jing Long yea :D Hmm it was a fun afternoon.. we sang from 4-7pm yea hahah.. It was definitely loads of fun friends singing yea :) Hmm the last song was almost the The Last Song from A1 hahah :) Not sure who was the perfect genius who picked that song hahaha :)
We had a blast :D

Afterwards, met up with MF, Joe and Han Ming yea :) We went to have dinner before slacking around at PS yea : ) Hmm aferward went for pool at Amk with Ber & Ivan lol.. By the end of the night it was pretty much the opposite of the early morning when I came back home.. Instead the pain from my butt travelled to the opposite end of the body and my head was on the fritz yea:)

Hmm I really liked the day I thought , it was nice.It was nice seeing most of us gathering and having fun. This plus the fusion yea :D

For the longest while... SIDM ... I felt there was some kinda dry season ... like everything just felt stale , I mean everything seemed done already or we just seemed tired from something yea... but Im glad that vibe was gone.. and well to me at least , I thought today we were having lotsa fun tgt yea :D I really missed that.. Things seemed kinda complicated last time, missed when things were easy and simple.. but yeah felt alot better after today yea :)
Well our next event is the OGL camp yeah :) Cant wait hahah :)

News on some friends for friends :)
Hmm well heard that Ang is going to work on at an oil derrick in the sea near Labuan later this year... He's probably the 1st close friend to really start working of everyone around me I guess... Nadia seems to be doing fine over with dentistry at Lithuania hahah... that place sounds like a made place like Narnia or Terabithia : )

Hmm well I had nice chat with Su ...and hahah... my luck is shit I guess... When two of my best friends might be coming to work at Singapore... I move away.. I mean.. probably the thing I wanted most when I moved here, was just to have a friend from home to be with here.. I mean I know they would have loved it here yea. My timing is terrible I guess ...

In a year's time, most of us is going to graduate ... Life is going to begin... I mean .. school's out.. We're going to have to think about working for the long stretch of our lives from then on... I'm not that worried about that as I am about my friends though.. I really hope everyone keeps in touch after work, going far off to find their place in their world whether that's Ozzy or some bar at Bangkok.. Yeah same goes for here, hope even after the guys go NS and the girls start working .. hope we still keep in touch yea lol...

爬过的那棵树又何时变得渺小
趁时间没发觉让我带着你离开

As for my NY resolution? Hmm it's 3 months in... and ... maybe I should know when to stop... Hmm I wished belief would become reality but yeah ... I haven't been that lucky... and maybe now..

你已經遠遠離開
我也會慢慢走開
我真的沒有天份

Haiz... and well yeah ... guess I'd be lame to quit my NY resolution so early... but yeah... I can tell we are no longer going to be like that ever again.. I understand that life is busy but in my heart logic is not king and it will never add up yea.. I will never understand how easy it was for you... Just wished things would always be like that day at Karumbunai beach... time or distance didn't seem to matter back then...

Someone once wrote "Blessed are the hearts that can bend for they can never be broken"

But I wonder... if there's no breaking then there's no healing.
And if there's no healing then there's no learning.
If there's no learning then there's no struggle.
But the struggle is a part of life you see...
So then must all hearts be broken?

CNY~!

2008-02-15T14:01:00.000+08:00

Hmm well another sausage fest for Valentine's Day yea lols. Anyway saw Jumper which I really didn't like all that much. The story was weak & main actor's acting was just boring. Hmm Ah Long Pte was a 1000 times funner & well-paced movie yea. I definitely think it trumps Jumper, which is pretty suprising yea lols. Nxt, want to see Juno heheh :D

Hmm well on the media side of things, it looks like life is imitating art as a person calling himself "Kira" like Deathnote is defying the police by posting pics of Edison yea. I guess you could say he's on the "Freedom of Speech" yea, I mean nothing should taboo to talk about. I really support that, if the goverment is going down. We should be able to say something, they own the rights & laws of the place we stay, not our lives yea.

On the other hand, he could also be some jealous, bored loser who wants to make a name for himself by wiping out Edison's yea. Hmm the fallout from this is pretty bad... Heard he got pulled from Dark Knight yea lols.

Well I think this quote from Bono sums up how the media & the world treats celebrities:

Why is it that we want our idols to die on a cross of their own making, and if they don't, we want our money back?

I really like that line... I mean it seems majority of the time, we love to see people, especially famous ones, fall yea.

Anyway here's Bono's full take on Elvis & his legacy yea :)

Out of Tupelo, Mississippi, out of Memphis, Tennessee, came this green, sharkskin-suited girl chaser, wearing eye shadow -- a trucker-dandy white boy who must have risked his hide to act so black and dress so gay. This wasn't New York or even New Orleans; this was Memphis in the Fifties. This was punk rock. This was revolt. Elvis changed everything -- musically, sexually, politically. In Elvis, you had the whole lot; it's all there in that elastic voice and body. As he changed shape, so did the world: He was a Fifties-style icon who was what the Sixties were capable of, and then suddenly not. In the Seventies, he turned celebrity into a blood sport, but interestingly, the more he fell to Earth, the more godlike he became to his fans. His last performances showcase a voice even bigger than his gut, where you cry real tears as the music messiah sings his tired heart out, turning casino into temple.

In Elvis, you have the blueprint for rock & roll: The highness -- the gospel highs. The mud -- the Delta mud, the blues. Sexual liberation. Controversy. Changing the way people feel about the world. It's all there with Elvis.

I was barely conscious when I saw the '68 comeback special, at eight years old -- which was probably an advantage. I hadn't the critical faculties to divide the different Elvises into different categories or sort through the contradictions. Pretty much everything I want from guitar, bass and drums was present: a performer annoyed by the distance from his audience; a persona that made a prism of fame's wide-angle lens; a sexuality matched only by a thirst for God's instruction.

But it's that elastic spastic dance that is the most difficult to explain -- hips that swivel from Europe to Africa, which is the whole point of America, I guess. For an Irish boy, the voice might have explained the sexiness of the U.S.A., but the dance explained the energy of this new world about to boil over and scald the rest of us with new ideas on race, religion, fashion, love and peace. These were ideas bigger than the man who would break the ice for them, ideas that would later confound the man who took the Anglo-Saxon stiff upper lip and curled it forever. He was "Elvis the Pelvis," with one hand on the blues terminal and the other on the gospel, which is the essence of rock & roll, a lightning flash running along his spine, electroshock therapy for a generation about to refuse numbness, both male and female, black and white.

I recently met with Coretta Scott King, John Lewis and some of the other leaders of the American civil-rights movement, and they reminded me of the cultural apartheid rock & roll was up against. I think the hill they climbed would have been much steeper were it not for the racial inroads black music was making on white pop culture. The Beatles, the Rolling Stones, Creedence Clearwater Revival were all introduced to the blues through Elvis. He was already doing what the civil-rights movement was demanding: breaking down barriers. You don't think of Elvis as political, but that is politics: changing the way people see the world.

In the Eighties, U2 went to Memphis, to Sun Studio -- the scene of rock & roll's big bang. We were working with Elvis' engineer and music diviner, Cowboy Jack Clement. He reopened the studio so we could cut some tracks within the same four walls where Elvis recorded "Mystery Train." He found the old valve microphone the King had howled through; the reverb was the same reverb: "Train I ride, sixteen coaches long." It was a small tunnel of a place, but there was a certain clarity to the sound. You can hear it in those Sun records, and they are the ones for me -- leanness but not meanness. The King didn't know he was the King yet. It's haunted, hunted, spooky music. Elvis doesn't know where the train will take him, and that's why we want to be passengers.

Jerry Schilling, the only one of the Memphis Mafia not to sell him out, told me a story about when he used to live at Graceland, down by the squash courts. He had a little room there, and he said that when Elvis was upset and feeling out of kilter, he would leave the big house and go down to his little gym, where there was a piano. With no one else around, his choice would always be gospel, losing and finding himself in the old spirituals. He was happiest when he was singing his way back to spiritual safety. But he didn't stay long enough. Self-loathing was waiting back up at the house, where Elvis was seen shooting at his TV screens, the Bible open beside him at St. Paul's great ode to love, Corinthians 13. Elvis clearly didn't believe God's grace was amazing enough.

Some commentators say it was the Army, others say it was Hollywood or Las Vegas that broke his spirit. The rock & roll world certainly didn't like to see their King doing what he was told. I think it was probably much more likely his marriage or his mother -- or a finer fracture from earlier on, like losing his twin brother, Jesse, at birth. Maybe it was just the big arse of fame sitting on him.

I think the Vegas period is underrated. I find it the most emotional. By that point Elvis was clearly not in control of his own life, and there is this incredible pathos. The big opera voice of the later years -- that's the one that really hurts me.

Why is it that we want our idols to die on a cross of their own making, and if they don't, we want our money back? But you know, Elvis ate America before America ate him.

--Bono, of U2

Well anyway CNY is almost over yea. Anyway planning to head back home nxt month yea :D So time to start saving up I guess :D

Fight or Flight

2008-02-06T10:24:00.000+08:00

Damn been fickkin busy past few days yea :D

Well last Saturday we had ourselves SIDM Sports day:D Well was supposed to be 1 of the organizers but hmm ended up playing soccer instead ...Well how was the only Year 2 & DET team in the soccer games?Err less said the better lols.. but yeah it was interesting ya : ) Hmm Yong Yi was ref while Cyn & Guo Dong were both hmm.. commentators?

After our amazing play we closed down the Sports Day event lols. Hmm after that, we went to slack whole day at hub. Joe , Ivan, Cyn, Ber, Huajin, Wesley, Reswan, Derek, Zf, Jake , we went to look around in the hub where Ber was on top form today & caught like alotta cute fuzzy thingies yea hahah :D After that finally killed a craving & ate sum gud waffles at Nebo :D

Then we played Uno stack. Pretty fun hahah, very kanchong game lols. Cyn was owning in this game tho lols. Hmm they almost hit a record of a stack at 3 pencils height lols :D

Well yesterday, we all(Ming Fang(Hmm I wonder how a b'day with out the b'day boy/girl would be like), Joe, JingLong,Clarence,Bogard,Cyn,Ber,Trudy,Ivan,ZhiFeng & Derek) went for Ming Fang's 21st bday at Seoul Garden yea :D Food was pretty nice yea :D
Talked alot about Edison's recent overexposure lols XD That too & alotta funny stupid stuff heheh :)

Joe & MF :)

Spicy Soup :P

Der & Trudy just cut their hair recently & Cyn hair looks short here too Cool cool :D

The crazy table where you must uber hi-lvl to understand lols

Hello Tim Sum :D(Choc Muffins were awesome!)

Hello Desert :D

21.. MF decides to get into a career of boxing... Boxing world, watch out!

After that we wanted to slack around but it was a bit too late so we went back. Well hmm Zf, Ber, Derek,Clarence, Ivan & me went to play pool at AMK yea :) Bah haha nice & fun night:D

-:::English:::-
Bobo told me something that sounded so crazy I looked it up at Wiki & found it, where the word "ghoti" is pronounced as fish.
Ghoti is a constructed example used to illustrate irregularities in English spelling. It is a respelling of the word fish , and like it is pronounced /ˈfɪʃ/. It has,

gh, pronounced /f/ as in laugh /læf/;
o, pronounced /ɪ/ as in women /ˈwɪmɪn/; and
ti, pronounced /ʃ/ as in nation /ˈneɪʃən/.
-:::WtF?:::-

Detour
4 years ago...

I remember 2004.. Hmm AeA said five years later wondered if we'd still have time to talk crap..

Sometimes it feels like yesterday.. Graduating high school, saying our goodbyes. Those feelings you only get at 17 or 18 that nobody in the history of the world has been this close or have loved this fiercely or laughed as hard...At graduation, the plan was so simple : In 4 years , we'll be done with our studies and we can come back home..

Back then KK was my whole life... I wanted to live there with the people I grew up with.. I'm sure for most, high school will always be the "Golden Era Of Friends" in your youth yea. But here,now... northing's ever that black & white... At the moment, I'm nowhere near the end of my studies.. AeA's graduating this year & hmm most of them too.. They're going to start their working lives this year... By 2010, I know more than 1 of us would have walked down the aisle... It's been 4 long & estranged years... I remember a friend saying.. It is the end... the end of something simple... but its the beginning of something complicated but beautiful... Well you were 2/3 right...

Being with the friends you grew up..

Sometimes it feels just like yesterday....And sometimes.. sometimes it feels like someone else's memories...

Life saddest truth... is that you only get to remember the past.. you'll never get another chance to relive it ever again. Yeah.. I've said before... the truth is definitely absolute.. Especially true when its even more cruel than any lie ever could be.

We need to do see this through..

I know it's a bit late but I have 1 solid New Year's resolution... Well of 1 them is that I'm going to try .. I miss the smiles & laughs. I hope by the year's end things will be somewhere there... I just wished you'd meet me halfway at least.. Pride means nothing when it comes to matters of the heart.. I'm going to try for this year...It's hard yea... I mean I can't believe how fast we fallen afoul of the distance already.

Hmm back then having that "exit" from all the world's problems was more than nice.
It made me believe the world wasn't such a screwed up place than I know it is. The thing was I know you felt the same way when things were good...

And now to see how things have changed since you moved away... When I see you online and don't even considering saying hello-- that's when I really miss you the most. Sure.. I thought it was a matter of letting it just fade, letting the pain just wash over me... I thought I was getting over you too by saying nothing but all I did was just remind myself how far apart we've grown ... you don't even have time for small talk now & I guess the worst thing is that... I'll always remember you as some1 I could have my heart on my sleeve & just talk ... but yeah I mean sometimes I think you really are busy since it is hectic there because most of us from home hasn't chatted much with you either... But it doesn't make it easier...to know how things are now versus the memory of how close we were... it does hurt... It does make you want to trade all your tomorrows for a single yesterday...

And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

but yeah this year I'll try & close the gaps yea... I do miss you Lynn, simple as that... If I don't try, no1 else's going to bother to salvage yea..

N233:Journey's End

2008-01-28T12:01:00.000+08:00

Hmm well haha yeap post about leaving n233 yea.. hmm well I was sort of told last minute that I was changing cg & it was definitely an unexpected & unwelcomed suprise.. I mean .. N233 ... It just seemed go hand in hand with church. Plus I had already planned on goodbye to them year end.. So yeah this would have to be my 1st real goodbye of this year.

Well I was leaving with Weng Lok, Zhen Yang, Belinda & Vincent yea..I remember talking with them that it wont sink in that we're not in n233 until cg when its not Joseph there. Yeap I have to say that N233 after all this time... we definitely built bonds that were real yea... And I will miss them as I'm every1 feels the same way yea. But ... yeah as I've said once, a goodbye aint sad unless you're never going to say hello again right?

1st prize mwahaha! Swensens $100 voucher mwahah :D

The guys who were leaving

Probably my favourite era of n233 yea :D The "Legend Era" lols

Last official n233 outing tgt wud be at steamboat at bugis ;)

XD

BANKAI!!! The Legend eater XD

Last pic... n233... All the best to all of us yea ;)

Hmm but yeah hahah we're still going to meet up I'm sure lols. So yeah it doesn't feel like such a solid goodbye, just a change of lifestyle I guess yea :D

I guess the last thing to post about this .. is well hahah 1st new CG N178 meeting lols. It's only full circle right? Yeah hahah well went with Vincent to Bradell... I mean we both had our respective cg to go to(Weng Lok, ZY & me went to a new cg tgt but he went into a new 1 alone,Godspeed bro) And he actually met with the new cg with me yea. I have there was really a genuine nice moment when Weng Lok & ZY came & saw Vincent there with the new cg & they thought he joined in. For a moment it was like we were all in the same cg again ;) Hmm anyway about N178... wow lols, it felt like the Band of Brothers ya :) Petra & the rest, its a bit insane & definitely testerone heavy cg much like N233 before the shuffle. Well yeah the new cg is fun yea :D Hahah there was a huge abundance of food... Me, Weng Lok & ZY were shocked to see how much food they had : 1 catering size of mee, two huge bowls of fried rice, 15 pratas & the list goes on lols :D And this was considered usual standard.. hahahs. Well there was also this cute dog named Toto that was very active lols. Well yeah 1st cg was definitely great & every1 seemed easy to get along with yea :D

Well yeah alright 1st goodbye : N233... Right hope every1 does well this year yea :D

Shop, Shop Work, Work

2008-01-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

Hmm well been going out to shop around for new clothes this week yea :D Hmm went to Far East on Wednesday with Ivan & Ber , I only got a shirt & dyed my hair yea :D
Afterwards we went over to Bugis to continue looking for more stuff but yeah in the end hahah not much well at least got to go eat at a nice desert place yea :D

Lovely Mango & Herbal Jelly --> Tian Tian De ... heheh yeah I know very cheesy lols XD

Yin & Yang :D Sesame Paste with hmm ... I forgot, I think Almond lols

Well going back we saw a girl crying & begging her bf.. The only way she's wrong is she cheated on him with everyone, guys like that with ego really piss me off :P Anyway went home but yeah nice & funny day shopping with them hahas, tho yeah will continue nxt week since Ber pay out then :D

Well on Friday the trip to Queensway was killed lols. So we, Zhi Feng & Ivan went to Vivo to go shopping yea lols.

Well was talking about SuperDog on the way since we never been there , so yeah finally got to eat there heheh :D Though the rumors that well nice looking girls working there were false as we were greeted by old men & women until we were leaving, the girls started coming in X.x...

Anyway... well for me , at least a childhood craving has finally been answered! Hmm you see... I watched Sonic the Hedgehog the cartoon last time... and if there's 1 thing that I learned from watching that show was that... I wanted some damn Chili Dogs lols! Every episode had him telling you how good it was, or using it in some joke... And well from there, a hunger & craving for the Chili Dog began to grow. Well I'm glad I finally got to have 1, so take that you steroid-abusing rodent!

Chili Dog with Chili Beef Fries

Sorry it's blurry.. but lotsa funny rules like... Finishing a hot dog in 5 bites( which none of us could XD) and also no putting ketchup on a hotdog after you turn 18 lols.

Nice place, heck we even saw the guy with hahah "boobs" from DET lols XD.

At Vivo didnt get anything lols, so yeah we went back to hmm Heeren lols :D Hmm at Heeren, we saw another couple fighting with a girl arguing with the guy... Dunno why these days keep running into couple fights lols. Anyway after awhile didnt see anything to get so we went back to .. Far East lols, well yeah they got some new shirts(from two overly brotherly hardsellers) & Ivan got a pair of new shoes too yea :D Bah after that quite late but well we went to Wism Atria to try & look around, but yeah alas it was too late & well it was closed. No midnight shopping as we heard lols, well yeah hmm continue on next week yea :D

Crazy & Outrageuos #2

2008-01-23T10:34:00.000+08:00

Crazy & Outrageous No.2

Heres some random gong-gong pics from theonion.com, enjoy :D

So Long Astoria

2008-01-14T12:25:00.000+08:00

Hi Hi well quite an uber long week yea lols...

Hmm start with Sunday yea lols :D
Well after service went over to Toa Payoh to try & find a gif for Ber house warming but yea in the end there wasn't anything nice yea lols. Well after that went for Gui Sheng's 21st bday mwahaha. Hmm yeah the 1st thing on his door was a black & white photo of him as a kid. Hahah 1 of was said it felt like at his wake or something XD Anyway we played l0ads of funny games to keep us entertained with food forfeits yea lols :) Hmm anyway well heres some funny pics yea :)

The List hahah

Here comes the B'day Boy : Gui Sheng

Cake :D

The song :)

The attack!

Cool Pic hahahs! Should have got him Head & Shoulders lols XD

The Gayness

Poor GS, realizes he's finally really old

Just before we left

Well anyway after saying our goodbyes it was time to make it over to Ber house warming, we were damn late yea.. leaving around hmm 840 yea... well we tried flagging a cab to go over.. hmm well in the end... we were suay enough to get caught in a huge ass traffic jam that took 40 mins.. it was nuts yea . Anyway well when we finally arrived, it was nice seeing things were still happening there yea :D Bah yeah it was nice gathering thr, plus Ivan & Jake had the genius idea to get Ber a steamboat set :D So yeah we could come over next time & enjoy too mwahahs :D

Hmm well way over on Friday, did a pretty impromptu celebration for Keith & Hazel's bdays yea :D Well we(Keith,Hazel,Sean,Ber,Clarence,Cyn,Ivan,Daryl,GuoDong & JingLong) met up at school & left for the Cathay . We went to see Cloverfield which hmm I guess Daryl summed up pretty well with the word : experimental. But there were a few scenes like the 1st attack from the monster that just felt really real .. well made you feel like part of the scene, sometimes it felt really close to reality but then yeah the trade-off is that we get stuck with a cameraman that films the floor while running... Yeap the camera was a bi*tch & 1 row just left the movie halfway. Though honestly I cant imagine watching the movie on tv.. it just would flat-out suck without the sound system yea lols. We also waited through the credits for some dumb dialog which none of us caught yea.

Kay well after the movie, went to Secret Recipe & got some cakes for them yea :D Wow, cakes were really big hahahas :D Well after that we had our impromptu cake singing & cream-smearing time yea XD Well yeap they went back after that & then we went to eat chicken rice at Selegie yea :D Then we all really rushed back to get the last train, and really lucky we went faster if not we would have missed the train hahahs :D Well yeah fun night yea :D

Hmm well Cyn says DMD side no holiday X.X ..They getting attachments & FYP already ... Wonder if the same goes for DET yea.. Wow.. Year 3 already... its really fast yeah... Hmm well at least Year 2 kicked ass ya :D

Owh yeah One Tree Hill is back , Yeah :D Last season they graduated & for this season they did something pretty cool, they jumped 4 years into the future so we can see where they all are now yea :D Yeah OTH :D

Yeah fave Nathan & Haley moments

i know the acting sucks in some scenes but yeah love the drama yea :D . For the record loved season 2 the most yea :D Hmm and yeah heres my fave eppy lols :D
The last talk scene is really sweet ya :D

Kay hahah no more about the emo show yea :D

1st week of 08

2008-01-09T13:44:00.000+08:00

Hmm well finally got my pc back yea lols :D
Anyway hmmm 1st week of the year was pretty sweet yea. Went shopping with Ber,Trudy,Cyn,Ivan & Jake around Bugis yea. Hmm hahah shopping wth girls takes damnnn long yea hahahs. Well after that went fer dinner at Pastamania before heading back home yea.

Then on Friday went to catch this obscure movie called Across the Universe ya. Hmm its this musical(nothing like Hairspray or High School Musical, more on the lines of Moulin Rouge) about the 60s which I consider to be 1 of the last few eras were free speech was so important. You had the war going on and people rallying together against it all across America. Can't imagine people dropping their jobs & defending their ideals like that in modern times yea. Anyway this movie was about that plus it was wrapped & inspired by music from The Beatles so yeah it was pretty sweet.

Well anyway yeah it was Friday after school but hmm most of them were going over to eat sushi or watch Vexille so yeah in the end only Hazel wanted to check the movie out yea. Well at least got kaki to watch hahas :D Well after school went over to Cineleisure & luckily we made it in time to get some good seats too ya. Hmm bah haha it was fun movie & even better since I was watching with a bonafide pop culture expert so yeah haha we could spot most of the stuff the movie was referencing yea. Hmm haha even Bono from U2 made a cameo too plus Joe Crocker. Hmm hahah fave character was this wacky lesbian named Prudence that really popped out of anywhere. One scene she's marching with the rebels & the next time you see her she's on a donkey /zebra in a zoo.

Hmm hahah well heres my fave song in the movie, Hey Jude yea~ It looks gay for a guy to serenade to another guy but yeah hahah its a nice scene yea :) The peak of the song near the middle & its really great :)

Well any1 who wants a different kinda movie , I definitely recommend yea :)

Well anyway it was a nice night so far & yeah it was fun watching the trippy movie with her since talking & making fun of things during the movie wasnt taboo to her too ya lols, well after the movie we went back went. It was getting bit late so she went back & hmm looked for the rest over at Hougang ya. Hmm while waiting my head was on the fritz & needed to take some Panadol but I hadnt ate so haha bought a donut before getting some quick help for my head. Well just after that met them yea hahas. Owh and hahah we even met up with Han Ming, Theo, & Cong Zheng yea who was watching Vexille & came to Hougang on the way home lols.Well hahah alot were wondering what to do with the night, it was Friday & most of us didnt want to go back so early so... after crossing the same road between the interchange & Hougang Central 6times lols!, we decided to go KBox yea hahahs. Hmm yeah it was Ber,Zhi Feng, Jake, Clarence & Ivan going ya. Hmm hahah even met Rave who was working there yea lols.

Hmm well hahah it was a fun night with hmm ....there was Ivan & Ber looking for songs from yesteryear as in songs from dad's time lols. Hmm ZF also chose a song called Hotel California.. The song held much of talk with its just plain creepy lyrics.

Last thing I remember, I was running for the door,
I had to find the passage back to the place I was before,
"Relax," said the night man, "We are programmed to receive,
You can check out anytime you like... but you can never leave"

Hmm well after that was insipred to dig up the hmm deep,intricate background of the song yea.
Of course the most famous urban legend of the song is that if you rewind you can hear some kind of devil chanting or sumthing. Hmm never heard it but ZF vouches for it yea.

Anyway I just copied & pasted the rest from Wiki yea lols.
On the surface, the song is a tale of a weary traveler who becomes trapped in a nightmarish hotel that at first appeared tempting. There are many urban legends about the meaning of this metaphor.

The song is generally thought to be about the hedonism and self-destruction in the Hollywood music industry. The idea is that the song compares the culture of fame and excess to a luxury hotel. Though initially welcoming its guests with unlimited pleasure, it is merely a guise and ends up trapping its residents through their own self-destructive actions. Hence, the line, "we are all just prisoners here, of our own device."

It has been speculated that the song is also about drug rehab and the reference to stabbing the "beast" with "steely knives" refers to the cutting of cocaine prior to ingestion by nasal inhalation.
Additionally, there has been some speculation that the song refers to cancer and that the "hotel" is a hospital. The "stabbing" refers to surgery and the "beast" is a cancer or tumor

Yes the song still gives me the creeps. The 1 thing ZF & I agreed on was that all the English songs in Kbox had videos that were freaking creepy. I mean it's always nothing to do with the song & instead always focusing on girls from the 70s. And it's like 3 minutes of some sicko shooting a video about some girl laughing and smiling. Basic human response to seeing people happy is well feeling happy too but seeing them laughing at the screen , it wasnt so much like they were laughing happily & you wanting to join in but rather... they knew something that we didnt know.Perhaps the scariest thing is that who would make videos like this? I mean it's alright if its just 1 but just what kinda dumbass thought it would be a good idea to make videos like this & mass produce them too since all the MVs were just the same yea. Anther theory was that it was probably porn & well 1 song I choose really had 1 such sick MV video hahahs.Either way its damn eerie and not hot whatsoever lols.

To wrap up both theories on Hotel California & English mvs , here's Kbox like version of the video. View with extreme caution.

Right anyway haha hmm after the fun night of singing we went over to McDs to crash & talk bout the usual stuff hahah well until 1st bus yea. Hmm yeah long & fun day yea lols.

On Saturday, went to meet up Nigel who yeah like Ian, I hadn't seen in elephant years too haha. Hmm the 1st thing that caught me completely offguard was his Ozzy accent haha. Cool lols. Hmm but yeah then I remember he was there fer quite some time too lols. We found a quiet place & he ordered Hoegarden & me? 7up, I was broke hahas. Yeah... hahha it was nice catching up with him too & just talking about some names that hadnt been in my conversations since very long ago. I mean hmm it predates Sg & even All Saints yea, it was nice hearing where & how most of the Srs gang was doing yea. Hmm yeah ... there was 1 part he said we were all over leading different lives & he said me as 1 of the guys... You know hadnt put myself in the same group of them since I hmm betrayed MN hence the email name, but it was nice hearing that yeah to have a friend from childhood remind me that I was. Yeah nice night looking back on especially at the begining of the year yea lols. Ryte after the drink we went back since it was late & he had to catch the flight back in the morning. Yeah nice seeing him after hmm since Form 4 I guess yea lols. Well yeah haha it was pretty gud start for the year yea :D

2008 is here! : D

2007-12-30T08:57:00.000+08:00

Hmm well been away from the pc for quite some time since yeah I'm waiting on my dad to fix it up when he gets back yea. Holidays went by pretty quick... hmm there was painting at Ber hse, hmm for X'mas we went to Orchard & thon yea :D And alotta furniture shopping this past few days lols XD

For the last day of the year, started out with going over to Ikea with Ber,Cyn,Jake,Han Ming & Cong Zheng yea. Hmm Jake & his retardeness was well overwhelming yea hahah . After that went to Bedok to have dinner with hmm ... Ivan,Vin,Zf,Clarence, Cher Shen.JL, Joe,MF,Theo & Linus yea. Well yeah after that went to Tampines to get a movie ticket before heading over to hmm Boat Quay to watch the fireworks in the sky yea :D.. But hmm it was being blocked 1/3 by the damn Fullerton Hotel. Hahah 1st fireworks display in my life that got blocked yea lols.

Stupid Hotel ..

But yeah it was nice yea, hmm and yeah things have come a long, long waaaay since last year's .. hmm.. a power walk from Raffles to Amk with Ivan yea lols. Last year it was only us & it was nice seeing most of our frends with us the time around yea :D Hmm 2007... I remember didnt get to finish up a year's resolution yea... Hmm well yeah it's been one Hell of a year yea?...

Hmm there was joining Parade Of Schools yea :D POS was great too! Got to meet alotta new ppl in sch & church this year yea. CG was much closer yea too :D Emerge, though it was 1st & sadly now last one, definitely an amazing event yea :D

Hmm well there was ... owh the 2nd return yea... Hmm it was before sum of them were leaving for KL & doing their stuff around the world. Yeah hmm a part of me wanted more on the 1st few days since it was KK. Hmm I remember King Park's Hotel .. getting teary talking with AeA about how hard it was around that time for me to be away from home yea... Hmm rememeber that sense of absolute freedom that night driving around with him & Mandy, Su & Sandra at town looking for the night safari hahas.

Hmm yeah & sadly this year realised a rift this year between some1 ... The friendship I had cherished so much wasnt really all gone but it just wasnt the same anymore.. Time & distance, well fcuk u two. I can blame it all on that but the truth was hmm I guess you were too busy right.. Yeah maybe thats the way it should be with the new life over there... but hey at least I know I tried to hang on yea... Always and Forever?...that's what sucks...I always will... It sucks now, cause I know you went & moved on yea... But yeah anyway I'm sure any1 who's been burnt knows this... One day you realise that if you stop contacting that person, that person aint ever gonna talk to you & yeah I mean your pride says I dont need that person in my life anymore... but the the real truth is that if you stop looking for the peson, than you might lose whatever you had & everything that happened is void .And when you think about it... It's all too important to just let go, you can't bear to lose this relationship..Even though things will never be the same again, despite the numbness & separation anxiety, against all sound logic, you're too stupid to move on because you somehow think that eventually it'll work out someway. But it hasnt yet & yeah I know things arent the same anymore now.. Hmm I guess a quote from a friend sums this up... " The farthest distance is not between life & death.. It's the distance between my heart & yours, and you not knowing how much I care"

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn
Don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude
And it's tearing me apart
It's ruining every day
I swore,
I swore I would be true
And honey, so did you
So why were you holding her hand?
Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time?
Was it just a game to you?
But I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger...
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to...do you have to...do have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong, I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just want to be with you
And I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger
Do have to let it linger?
Do you have to...do you have to...do have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger
Do have to let it linger?
Do you have to...do you have to...do have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger
Do have to let it linger?
Do you have to...do you have to...do have to let it linger?

Hmm well the last event I can recall I guess of 2007 is pretty much the biggest one.. The news I was moving away to Canada.. I mean just when I was settling in nicely & seeing how I could grow up here .. I gotta leave everything for well.. nothing... and in a place where its so different... I dont know whether I'll adapt so well... But yeah... I wasnt worried about that as much as hmm the fact i was leaving this place yea.. Rite .. I already went through this on some other emo post hahas, yeah hmm the only absoulute truth is that I'm going to miss every1 here yea ;)

Well yeah I know it sounds like I had a crummy year rite lols... Well haha you would be wrong lols, 2007 was my fave year in Sg lols . There was of course OGLs & all the new friends coming in our lives because of that. Yeah, Cheers to that at least, it's been such a huger life since then yea.. I mean it just would be too sad to imagine this year if we all hadn't clicked yea. I'm glad for that & I know that goes for every1 too yea. DET & DMD, SIDM. Yeah haha who knew? we ended up fine as friends yea ... hahah I remember on that power walk last year saying to Ivan that hopefully for 2007... maybe we would meet some new friends from DMD and then we would have more ppl that were "on" And things would be funner :D so yeah that was true right?Cheers! No names need here yea :D Hmm it was nice getting to meet up every now & then & yeah this year rawked :D It was very fun yea :D Thnks for the great year hahas~

Hmm well by now its 2008!!! 2007 is gone, so yeah unless ur a calendar maker with tons of backstock of 2007 calenders, it's time to celebrate. Cheers to 2008 & hope it goes well :D!

SIDM Xmas 07

2007-12-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

Well super delayed this post since my pc is dead.. sobs... neway hmm well 1st off...

Well the other , other day... hey we had ourselves a SIDM Xmas dinner yea.. Well on the night before the event, worked until 430 at carrefour yea. Hmm with the jobs coming from Julius, I've sure worked alotta odd jobs but life needs cash so haha yeah its all good lols.

Well left the house around 230(late >.<) met up with Ivan,Vin,Ber,Cyn & Alvin over at Yishun to grab the dinner food yeas :D. Got the giant turkey heheh! Well we split up after that with us going to AMK to meet JL with Vin & Ivan to get the rest of the food at Ivan's place .. Well we didnt forsee a problem... we had to preheat the turkey, and the size of the bird was gigantic but suprisingly it fitted into the microwave lols! Ever tired microwaved a turkey? Not an easy task I assure you lols~ After that we went there by taxi & in the 1st few minutes, well sumthing strange happened just as every1 came ... We were lead away by the police lols XD Well the police showed up n took 6 of us( me, ivan,clarence, guo dong, vincent & jing long) well what was the commotion? they told us that we were identified us as the 6 that were starting fires around the place O.o Well it turned out to be a huge coincidence & yeah the cop was a nice enough guy. When they were asking me alone bout it he told me all the rest were looking at him like they were going to kill him or something haha. Well cops interrogating at party gotta count fer sumthing rite? Yeah the party was looking fun already hahahs So yeah after that it was time to have our dinner & our turkey, Hell Yeah! Luckily we had a Xmas dinner veteran among us...Ber : D! So yeah finally to serve some karma to the giant bird for all the fun of microwaving it just now.Yeah she really carved up the turkey lols, I wouldn't even know where to begin with the size of it lols XD Then some of us went to go get some mixers for the the drinks later ya. Hmm well thanks to Hazel , we had Bailey's,Hell Yeah! but since there was 25+/- thristy ppl , it was all gone very fast lols. I think she only had a cup even in the end :X But yeah every1 seemed to like it I think :D Me loves , loves the Irish Cream, Bailey's .. Yeah... I know its a girls drink :P Well after that we cut the Christmas Log Cake & also took load of pics around yea :D Yeah they had to head back after that.. Hmm overall it was a pretty solid event among us since every1 seemed to have fun yea :D. So yeah hahah really glad that all the dinner came thru & yeah haha it was nice seeing every1 tgt before holiday ended yea. Yeap all the planning & supermarket searchin was well worth it yea :D

Yeah SIDM RawR!!

Well hmm in the end for the thon, it was Jake,Cher Shen, Ber, JL, Ivan, Cyn, Clarence, Cong Zheng , Han Ming, Theodora.. Hmm hahah wow Han Ming brought his imba PS3 , Hell Yeah!

Later on the night turned to Indian Poker & drinks...In a strange & very unlikelyl event, I guess the American couldnt fend off the rowdy S'poreans & well got his drunk ass handed to him by Absolute Vodka (or Vinegar if you happen to be Cher Shen : D ) Well the lot of us who had a drink got wasted lols...Hmm maybe we should have had more turkey lols.

Well suprisingly no hangover from the drinks yea :D The nxt morning it was pretty slow & oso waiting 4 sum sleepyhead to wake up hahahs. Well thnks to JL,Clarence,JL,HanMing, and Theo for helping us out yea :D U guys rock hahah . Well pretty fun day yeah :D

Sometimes You Go To Go There To Come Back~*

2007-12-11T14:25:00.000+08:00

"Don't you worry.
Sometimes you've just got to
let it ride.
The world is changin'
right before our eyes.
Now I've found you
there're no more emptiness inside...
if we're hungry,
love will keep us alive."
-Eagles

Hmm where to start... well lets see 1st off this return trip was really last minute yea & I had thought that I wouldnt get another chance to head back home this year already. Well yeah I'm glad I got to go even if it was on buisness yea lols.

Well yeah hmm my last trip back I felt alright & wasnt too excited.. Hmm this trip it was pouring as I got into the plane & we were in the plane for around 40 minutes delayed for take-off because the bad weather. I always seem to head back to KK with bad weather... Anyways feelings going there was well, I was still pretty much trying to wrap things up at S'pore since I had some stuff to take care yea. The flight I wasn't worried like last time, I would have to say things overall for this trip felt a sense of easiness & calmness yea :D

1st Day: Away/Back Home

So yeah once again the flight was around 2 hours20 minutes++ Weather was raining heavily when I landed yea, 1st thing was to go get a Digi num to contact every1... Tho the fact was that I landed on a Saturday at 6pm. I mean this was KK, if you didnt have a car you were screwed alright lols, and well the buses were still unreliable as the weather was so bad, maybe the bus drivers wouldnt feel like working yea. Hmm so yeah AeA couldnt get out since no car... Well I unpacked my stuff at my uncle's place & got to eat at Kim Fah's :)

Where It All Began :D

After dinner I went back home while waiting for Su & Kenneth yea... It was really good seeing them again. Good timing since I was in need of a good friend at that time, and yeah glad they came out & picked my ass up yea. They were nice hahah, took me around town to see the new sights of KK that night.

1st place I went to was City Mall which was actually near the place I used to live X.X . Well hmm not much going on there, there was alot of cafes to say the least lols. After that went over to Tanjung Aru to look around, hmm hahaha yeah it's been awhile since being in a friends' car driving around lols. There's always a sense of freedom driving around at night with friends yea :D A nice break from the daily grind of catching trains yea :)

Well for dinner went over McDonald's... Well something that I too missed since I left KK...

An Old Tasty Friend, El Quarter Pounderero!~

1 thing that all my friends who leave KK , across the board will agree upon is that we all miss KK food dearly lols XD

After that it was pretty late so we decided to over to a C.Cafe to chill for few hours yea. Hmm the last time I played in a C.Cafe was with them when I came back yea lols. Well after that, it was time to head back since it was late. I went over to Kenneth's place since his was nearer yea.
He & his sister, Pauline was up the whole night yea. They were going to thon a series show, by the 4th eppy I was KO'd so went to bed lols.

Hmm well yeah the 1st night of this 4 day return had end but yeah I'm glad I got to catch up with Su & Kenneth too.As I always said, Su... I dont get to talk to him as much as the others, considering he's one of my best friends.. but yeah everytime I see him again , there's not even a need to try to close the gaps of distance & time lost yea :). Hmm after having to tell him that I was going to be leaving again... it was really hard to hear from him that eventually all his childhood friends were leaving town next year. It wasn't talk "like 1 day in the future ..." , it was really true , alot of us were really leaving town... and yeah it sucks that when I think I left him behind... I mean KK honestly now, would be boring without your friends around despite whatever rosy picture you want to paint of it..I miss KK not because of places but yeah the friends rite, I'm sure every1 who left & came back to realise that too. Hmm yeah I wish I could do something to help out but yeah... I guess all I can do is just continue to keep in touch & never take it for granted yea.

2ndday: A Simple Kind Of Life

Woke up around 1130am & yeah had breakfast. Got to chat with Pauline since I was too zombie the night before yea lols, before heading out :)Well learned that the Asia City new mall has ... a skating rink !!!! Finally a new thing to do there, but wait... 1st off it's using roller blades... and it's on wax! Lame lols XD

Let The Punishment Fit The Crime:What Happens When You Overindulge In Durians

After waking Kenneth up, went to Damai where I took a bus back to KK. Hmm yeah the bus system was just as wonderful as last time :P When I got to Cps it felt really unsafe for me, maybe it was being away too long, but it just feels pretty scary. In KK in general, going around alone was a really dumb & unsafe thing to do yea. I know anyone from KK will just roll their eyes since it sounds like common sense but yeah without a group of buddies, you were putting a warrant to get mugged. Yeah that's 1 thing that I don't see changing in awhile unfortunately since the fuzz in KK are really corrupted yea.

Neway enough rants, hmm saw the rm2.80 chicken rice stall... after all the KK changes with the buildings going up, prices going up, and nearly everyone in home has already left it... It felt so good to see that stall still doing well... Hmm yeah, it was the hmm pre-plan place to eat before we figured what we were going to do with the rest of the day last time...I'm really glad a piece of my youth is still there with all the changes going around KK.Yeah, I probably don't need any proof of the times spent at KK but still, it's kickass to have a place of nostalgia there :D

After CPS went for a family dinner. It was a Chinese restaraunt at Promenade. It had Chinese music all over, the weirdest part was when they actually did a Chinese instrumental version of Last Christmas, complete with all the flutes & chimes hahahs. Will wonders ever cease lols?

Meet The X'Mas Family :)

Santa Aquatica : D

After that got to meet Alex & AeA over at YoYo which was still very much a hot spot at KK : )Well Alex had alotta peeps from Poly with him. It was good to see that hahah, yeah well AeA DQ'd since he couldn't make it for our match hahahas. Yeah maybe nxt time . Anyway yeah it awesome getting to see him & Alex again. Well caught up with them... They were going to be graduates next year ya lols :D.And well hahah actually AeA discussed moving over to Sg after graduation yea lols. Well , haha hmm that's at least I guess 1 thing I kind of always wanted since I moved here... to have 1 of my best friends from home to come here in Sg & just kick back in this place yea ... but it sucks that I'm actually going to be moving yea Zzz.. But anyway yeah hahaha glad to get to meet them up at last.

Around now, I realised that being away from home did change my perception of home.. I mean KK... it's just yeah well... I like the simple life but now I don't think it would be easy for me to fall back into it & love it whole-heartedly... So yeah maybe my view of KK changed... But hmm it's great that it didn't apply to my friends yea. Well yeah it was nice being back in home with the people I grew up, welll least until they move out.. But yeah until then, we'll always have KK yea :D

3rd Day: X-Rays,Reunions & Goodbyes

Well haha woke up early to do waht I essentially came back in such a rush for : the X-rays & medical check up for the Canada application yea lols.

Well since getting back I noticed by the end of this night that well my appetite was increased like 300% lols =)! Yeah, it must be the good food lols. Hmm speaking of which, suddenly there was this new Teh Special at the coffee shops hahah, its some new concotion that wasn't around the last time I was here which is pretty good :D

Well anyway after the X-Ray went to CPS to celebrate my sis b'day yea lols :D

The Round One lols :D

Well while over at CPS, I went & got a mini X'mas tree for the SIDM X'mas party coming up lols. I was thinking the day was pretty much it since it was a monday & my friends had work & school yea.

So yeah went on to Damai; well at least was going to meet up with Sandra for lunch yea :D
Well yeah met her after her tution work hahah, yea we found this nice quiet place to grab lunch,well me anyways , she had a drink lols. Anyway was nice getting to catch up with her too lols after such a big year for her & the rest of the Form 6 gang yea with all the moving around. We talked about well hahah those around us & yeah it was great that I got to hear how some of them were doing this year yea.

I have to say 1 of the most liberating things this year was well just talking about all the drama & whatnot of my Sg life to her yea. I mean I can tell you that the biggest peeve of a long distance friendship was a lack of common ground to talk about. What I felt last time was that my friends at Sg would never get to meet my KK friends & vice versa so I never told either side about each. I just felt it was pointless last time , I know that sounds mean but I dont know, it just didn't seem to really matter if they weren't going to meet. But yeah it felt so good to confide with a friend from home about the things going on in my life there :D,showed her pics of my friends & explained about some of my best friends here at Sg. It wasnt a "Here's proof I'm doing so well at Sg", more like " I met some really nice people at Sg , and friendships that I will cherish, so yeah here's a chance for me to share with you about them yea" OKay yeah, I know that sounded uber cheesy right haha but yeah... it is what it is, I'm really glad got to talk with my KK friends this time around about my Sg friends yea :D

Anyway yea it was nice hearing she was doing better in KL now.. I mean from KK to KL is a big change, I don't think I could make it there, even though I'm staying in a metropolis city but there's something about KL that just intimidates me... It's like it got all hecticness of a citylife & all the danger of getting robbed from KK together, not exactly an ideal place to stay. But yeah hahah it's good to hear she was doing better since moving yea. Anyway well she paid for dinner since I didn't bring enough cash X.X I'm such a dumbass lols, nxt time will definitely be on me lols. After that her mom picked me up & sent me over to near my uncle's place for a 2nd dinner.

Well overall I have to say, it was really great talking with some1 who left home like me & was on a homecoming too. It was nice cause yeah those who move know not to take things for granted but yeah even coming back theres more things to be learnt too like how a return home was. Bah yeah it was cool seeing her before year ended & back to our lives back in our new places yea:)

Anyway well at Dama before lunch I checked out my blog & saw a comment from an old friend, Nigel, who was also returning to home as well. In the end yea, couldn't meet up with Nigel but hahah suprisingly things lead to me meeting Ian hahah.Well hahah yeah it's definitely super suprising & well yeah he was a good friend that I hadn't seen litterally in elephant years yea :D It's been 5++ odd & eventful years since I last saw him hahaha. Thought initially I had a problem on my hands as hmm I had called Su out & Ian at the same time but yeah Su was nice enough to wait for me to meet up with Ian, who was 1 of my closest friends in Primary school. Anyway haha yeah he looked around the same & had a different accent. Other than that, yeah Ian was pretty much the same easy to talk to guy, and yeah haha he too had to leave everything for a place no1 else from our year went too yea. But yeah it was really cool getting to see him after all things happened since SRS & hearing how he as doing since last saw him ya :)Well hey might be meeting him & Nigel at Sg around January actually lols

Well was sending Ian off with Su.. It was pretty surreal, haha 1 of my best friends during primary school with 1 of my best friends from secondary school were in the same place yea lols. Well yeah after Ian left went with Su, Kenneth & David to go yam cha :D.Well I owe them coming out on a limb to go & see me on my last night here upon their exams & work 2mr yea.

Well hmm 1 thing I realised with talking with AeA, Sandra & Su ... We were all veering into adulthood yea...Indeed we were getting old lols... I remember a time when topics were about how much the cyber cafe rates were, what movie we were seeing this week & school drama... Now we were talking about working overseas, finishing diplomas, friends overseas, prices of food & car fuel going up XD Adulthood seemed so daunting last time, but yeah when you're upon there, I guess you realise that you grow into adulthood gradually & it doesn't mean you lose everything you grow up with. It just means adapting to the changes going on yea. The years go by. The time, it does fly. Every single second is a moment in time that passes oh so quick and it seems like nothing. But when you’re looking back …well every second, it amounts to everything.
Hmm yea going miss Su & the rest... Su came through as he always did in the past again, & yeah it was good to know we still had each other's back. I mean .. at this moment, I just felt those familar feelings wash over yea. Well it felt like I had never left KK & still living over at Kolombong. And I can tell you, those are the kinda moments you live for. The feeling of knowing full well at the same time that you no longer stay in that place but you will always have a place in the town you grew up in among your friends is incomparable yea :)

4th Day: Finding Some Kind Of Resolve
The next morning my 4 day trip came to a close as I left on the morning flight yea. Hmm note to self, the cheapest place to get drinks? IN the airport lols, I saw Bailey's 1litre for just SGD32! Can't even find that size in stores, normal price for a 750ml bottle is SGD 60++ So yeah word to wise to any1 travelling to stock up eh lols?

Heck the plane had free wine, and I never had White so yeah got the chance and yeah there was good reason to celebrate to too yea lols. When I landed in KK there on this trip, there was something the attendant said on the plane that was simple & nice , "Selamat Pulang" : )

The Land Below The Winds~

Well hmm the feelings when I landed in Changi was waaay different than the last trip... I'll never forget how cold & felt like some part of me was really dead on arrival... I was torn last time because I well had to switch lifestyles again yea.

Coming back from this trip? Feelings were in high spirits : ) I felt cheery & even left my Digi number in my handphone for awhile after arriving back yea :D I guess I really learned in these 4 days to come to terms with coming back home & how it should be. I guess last time I was so desperately trying to relive all my KK life last trips, this time I realised I was comfortable with flying from Sg to KK & oso back. When I was on the plane, I realised there was no turning off either side actually. There was no need yea.

Most importantly... I guess I no longer felt like a traitor to every1 in KK... Yeah I know I said last time ... somehow when I was enjoying myself this year with friends in Sg... It just didn't sit well with my memories of my friends of KK.. I felt like I was betraying them by having fun here... I know that's twisted logic..

Sometimes I wonder if anything's absolute anymore. Is there still right and wrong? Good and bad? Truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable,left to interpretation, grey. Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth, transform it, cause we're faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes things simply catch up to us. Truth is still absolute. Believe that. Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful than you've ever imagined. And even when truth is more cruel than any lie.

In this case I guess the truth is more simpler; I thought that I would somehow forget my friends in KK eventually with enjoying myslef here. I feared that by having new friends coming in, it would just make the rift between us more real than in terms of distance. Basically, thse 4 days I learned how to deal with the time & distance lost between friends & how in the end, if we still had each other's back; than all the distance was jackshit & wouldn't be an issue :D

Nearing the end year & getting to find closure... I'd say, 4 days well spent :)

Till The Next Trip :) Cheers!

Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Lean on me...

Running To Stand Still

2007-12-05T00:22:00.000+08:00

Owh well the 1st 2 weeks of the last month of the year is done yeas =)

Well last week saw Enchanted,which was SO AWSEOME! :) I need to catch it again ya lols ,then saw this weird Hero movie which had alotta awkard camera work & felt like watching a series yea lols.

Well this week on Monday went for an outing at NeBo Cafe at Hub yea. It was pretty fun, 1st met them at Mac before heading over to Hub. Meanwhile after not finding a place for dinner we went over to NeBo Cafe yea. Well Ber,Hazel,Clarence,Ivan,Cyn,Jing Long & Joseph started to lay the ground work for the X'mas event for SIDM event yeas =) Didnt get to play any board games but got to finally eat... Waffles & Maple Syrup =)! My cravings for waffles is always on yea =)... Hmm I guess I'll always associate waffles with prosperity ... Back then when I came to Singapore & working Full-Time at Bala, I was making around 2k, and well I always stocked the fridge with waffles =)... Well hmm now eat them out lols. Also had a Milo Dino, which was sickly uber uber sweeeet . I had to get back early tho yea. Overall I say it was really nice & fun bonding between all of us yea, as we talked around ya, it was easy bonding & yeah Im sure we all enjoyed outrseves lol =)

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The next day morning went over to Yishun while it was raining quite heavily yeas.While waiting for the rest I went & got most of the brochures for the X'mas catering, yeap it was a slooow morning lols. Met Ber 1st & slacked around North Point looking for paint and X'mas catering places lols while Cyn & Ian both didnt wake up yet lols... Haiz , I gave both of them a morning call & they actually woke up & got the call suprisingly, I told them to meet up at Yishun as I hung up. Argh they went back to slp after the call lols, wth hahahas :D

Well when we all arrived , we went to eat & then went to a pet store.And well hahah we saw a cute dog by the name of... Bobo! Though this Bobo had more discipline & sat when told so yea =D It was pretty much raining heavy the whole day, we couldnt make it for the Kster on this day so we pulled the plug on the idea yea. We got the Purple paint for Ber house & headed over there. We were the 1st frends to step in her house, yeah! =D Well looked around her house, relaxed for a bit ya. Next week going to come back & paint up her house hehehe

Yeah finally we left Yishun after the long morning & afternoon to go meet the rest of the peeps at AMK Hub. The rest were doing the SIDM movie event at school yeas while we were getting the paint lols. Well we met them & saw the movie Golden Compass which well I didnt know would be part of a trilogy... which well I hate To Be Continued yea... Hmm but cool bear tho =)
After that well hmm we ate again at ... s11! Hahah so routine every week now yeas. After some coffee talk, we went back home. It was a long, long day lols.
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On the next day, it was another rainy day . Well hmm Ivan had free tickets for Magorium Emporium movie, plus needed to meet Ber & discuss about the painting & x'mas stuff nxt week yeas. Met Ivan 1st before meeting Cyn & Ber ya. We then headed to town to catch the movie. The movie was a bit late so we went to grab some dinner at Subway yea. Then went in after awhile ....
We sat at the cinema with Free Seating, everything was pretty cheery until well... Alvin & the chipmunks started singing a set of songs... Hell they actually did a cover of that "I had bad day - song !" Usually when I hear or see old cartoons that I used to love when I was a kid, it always evokes those nostalagic & fuzzy feelings about childhood.. but I have to say, hearing them going up & down in high pitch was a very haha unwelcome experience lols. And when they replayed one song again, it was like getting shot in the leg then having someone dig out that bullet with a fork & then having it hammered back in lols. Anyway I bought a milk for the Subway cookies to finally have the combo but haiz ... when I drank it, I realised in a rush, I had gotten Bannana Milk which sucks ass lols. :P

Well the movie was a bit like Charlie & the Chocolate Factory, and quite a cute movie yea. The kid in the movie was pretty funny & the toys were funny. Kermit the Frog was in it too lols :D I thought the movie was okay ya hmm but wont be watching it again lols. After the movie it was late so had to rush back yea lols.
Well hmm hahah well yeah even though it was a slow day , it was nice... And hey I could see that some stuff was starting to change and well, for the better today too =) Im glad lols :D
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Well hmm a pretty big suprise for me is that this Saturday... I'll be going back to KK! I cant believe I get to to have a chance to see them again after having to tell them that I couldnt make it this year, its such a great & wonderful surprise! It's only for 4 days, but yeah definitely going to try & meet them all out before heading back. Hahah yeah, havent been back since March... This is a very unexpected homecoming yea lols. Cheers! AeA , your ass is grass & I'm going smoke it this weekend, you have been warned mwahaha!

All That You Can't Leave Behind

2007-11-21T12:50:00.000+08:00

Hmm well nearing the end of November already yea !

1st off, cheers to A-Lvls & STPM peeps! Hahah freedom reigns yea! Hope you guys get all the R & R that u guys deserve yea :)

Well on Friday, went to go see Enchaned but just 3 of us wanted to see, every1 else couldnt make it . We, Guo Dong,Hazel,Ian,Cynthia,MingFang & Joe, took the train to town after school. Yeah we tried catching it but in the end, it was fated that we cannot see it that day Zzz Not only Cineleisure was sold out but Cynthia was over at PS & the tickets were selling out fast too yea Zzz... Was damn damn disappointed, well at least can go catch the movie nxt week with the rest then yea :) Well after failing to get tickets we went to walk around Orchard a bit to see of this year's lights on the road which rock this year btw:) before heading over to PS's Pastamania for dinner& haha GD was damn funny, 2nd retard oredi Hahaha XD 1 part after we were all bombing him, he looked down & talked to the parsley "Can you guys please give me some respect? Im not retarded" He was too damn funny hahahs! After dinner, walked around fer awhile before heading back home yea :)

Hmm well 1 thing came up recently thats well pretty big to me at least yea...My family well, we got the results for going over to Canada... And well yeah it would be a short post if the answer was that I wasnt going but yeah no such luck. Yeah hmm I found out I'll be leaving nxt year yea...

Well for the past few days, my head's been battling with my heart. My logic has been torn apart. Its pretty complicated but suffice to say I have to move. I tried saying I could live alone but I know, I cant... Its dumb , sad but well honestly true at the same time... I sleep on a bed my father bought, in a house my father owns... Nothing was really mines except my heart & fears... and the growing knowledge that not every road was going to lead back home anymore.... You know I would never know that in 3 years ... that I would be going through the same crap so fast again... Haiz Canada is damn damn far.. I checked... Hmm Its really a 12 hour difference, even chatting would be a problem too now. The last time I left a hometown, I took my heart with me cause I wanted to move here... but now my heart is here, and its not going to be so simple this time... Its leave with possibility of no return yea Zzz

My dad said I would be moving depending on when the University there starts... I saw the website & clicked the admission... I can tell you that clicking around the website was the most was scariest moment for me this year, bar none... I mean I felt like I was reading my own tombstone... like I didnt want to know the exact time when it was going to end yea... Hmm the dealine is... well January 18 2008... Haiz.... well at least the term starts at September 2008 :) Hmm I can still punk out some peeps for their 21st before I leave eh ;P

I'll always remember what a good friend from home told me after coming here for a year & struggling to keep in touch, "I know that our friendship is strong. Its too important to us that neither one of us will alow it to die but the truth is we really have no control over the time & distance that stands betwen us" I feel its true.. I mean.. Im still friends with them at home, but its not the same anymore... I mean I want to be with them but relying on MSN & visits once a year... Its not so fun... I left them & moved away yea.. And now well its the same guilt trip again ..

Haiz Im not even going to begin on what I already know, I am going to miss this place... Especially now after settling in so nicely.. Right now Im pretty content with my life & things are looking promising... And just when things were going along so nicely too... I cant say this enough, I'm really glad to have to made it here, from KK ... I always thought Singapore was impossible & the people were out of my league but Im really happy that I got to meet such nice people here. Im glad to meet people that well I know I will care for after I move yea.Cheers to that at least yea ;) Hmm after finding such a solid & close circle of friends,Im going have to drop it all & leave for a place all the way on other side of the globe where I know no one, its basically 2005 redux. Restarting from nothing...Story of my life Zzz

And I havent even relayed it back to KK... Havent mustered up the courage to tell them yet, only AeA... Dont know how I can tell the rest, I mean untop of the fact I'm breaking promises to not go back home for NYE.. The sucky thing is that I know Im doing the right thing by staying here for endyear cause I know I may not be able to return here once I leave due to escaping from NS but I still feel horrible about not going back ....

I'll guess I better just worry about it when the time comes, no use wasting the time left eh?

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted,
Could it be I'm haunted?

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Crazy And Outrageuos #1

2007-11-16T05:01:00.000+08:00

Here's my 1st post of Crazy & Outrageous on blogspot :)

Facts of Life
~Elephants are the only animals that can't jump.
~A crocodile cannot stick its tongue out.
~A snail can sleep for three years.
~Butterflies taste with their feet.
~The ant always falls over on its right side when intoxicated.
~Cats have over one hundred vocal sounds, but dogs only have about ten.
~An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
~All polar bears are left handed.
~On average, people fear spiders more than they do death.
~You are more likely to be killed by a Champagne cork than by a poisonous spider.
~Mint is actually a small form of poison which is why your stomach will have a tingling sensation which is the poison's effect but it is not strong enough to kill, it can however kill your pets. (Yes!!! This is for those who love mint choc , mwahaha! )

A Greek LoveStory
Hmm found out something intresting about love yea.The Greek War God Ares had a son, Eros the God of Love. Well he had two brothers, Deimos & Phobos... Deimos , God of Dread & Phobos, God of Fear & Horror. So yeah hmm perhaps that's why love is so hard & messy right? =) Love & Pain go hand in hand I guess yea =X

Stupid Celebrity Quotes

"I can do anything you want me to do as long as I don't have to speak." Linda Evangelista "

Where's Austria?" David Hasselhoff, Baywatch star, when told he has five gold albums as a singer in Austria.

"Whenever I watch TV and see those poor starving kids all over the world, I can't help but cry. I mean I'd love to be skinny like that but not with all those flies and death and stuff." Mariah Carey

"I would not live forever, because we should not live forever, because if we were supposed to live forever, then we would live forever, but we cannot live forever, which is why I would not live forever." Miss Alabama at the 1994 Miss Universe pageant, when asked "If you could live forever, would you and why?"

"I haven't committed a crime. What I did was fail to comply with the law." David Dinkins, New York City Mayor, answering accusations that he failed to pay his taxes.

"Smoking kills. If you're killed, you've lost a very important part of your life." Brooke Shields, during an interview to become spokesperson for a federal anti-smoking campaign

"I've never had major knee surgery on any other part of my body." Winston Bennett, University of Kentucky basketball forward

"Outside of the killings, Washington has one of the lowest crime rates in the country." Mayor Marion Barry, Washington, D.C.

"The streets are safe in Philadelphia. It's only the people who make them unsafe." Frank Rizzo, ex-police chief and ex-mayor of Philadelphia

"I've always thought that under-populated countries in Africa are vastly under-polluted." Lawrence Summers, chief economist of the World Bank, explaining why we should export toxic wastes to Third World countries

"After finding no qualified candidates for the position of principal, the school board is extremely pleased to announce the appointment of David Steele to the post." Philip Streifer, Superintendent of Schools, Barrington, Rhode Island

"The doctors X-rayed my head and found nothing." Dizzy Dean explaining how he felt after being hit on the head by a ball in the 1934 World Series

"We're going to turn this team around 360 degrees." Jason Kidd, Dallas Mavericks

"China is a big country, inhabited by many Chinese." Charles De Gaulle, former French President

"It isn't pollution that's harming the environment. It's the impurities in our air and water that are doing it." Dan Quayle, U.S. Vice President

Batman Cape with warning, "WARNING CAPE DOES NOT ENABLE USER TO FLY"
Batman cant even fly to begin with.

Weird Stories~

Indian man 'gets high' on lizards
A man in northern India has told reporters that he eats lizards for the "ultimate high". Girdhari Lal searches the remote corners of his house for them every day.

The 50-year-old rickshaw puller, from the Punjab city of Amritsar, claims to be on a constant high. A drug addict since the age of 14, he says he took to eating lizards when opium and hashish failed to give him the kick he needed. Mr Lal told Asian News International:

"I tried all possible drugs but nothing satiated me. Then I tried different types of snakes. "However I found only the neck and tail portions worth eating. But I started yawning with that. That made me switch to lizards."

This is guy one sick piece of work lols

Police too sexy in thailand
Policemen in Thailand are being sexually harassed by women and gay men because of their tight uniforms.

Websites have been set up featuring pictures and advice on how to seduce officers.
An average of 400 complaints a month are being filed by policemen subjected to lewd calls from admirers. One high-ranking officer said the worst time for the calls is from midnight to 2am and he said about 60% are from men, reports The Nation.

He added: "If we talk to them for too long they ask us out, and the gay men always talk lewdly. We cut the line and call them back later to warn them not to disturb police on duty." Police chiefs say the uniforms might be contributing to the problem but officers just have to deal with it.

Weird bt somehow not surprising from the country that invented a new sex.

Stupid Robber
It wasn't hard for police to spot this would-be robber.
Upper Darby police said a man in a Tigger costume entered an A-Plus Sunoco on West Chester Pike at St. Laurence Road yesterday, and threw two coupons and a flashlight on the counter. One of the coupons had instructions written on it telling the clerk to hand over "$25,000 please," and stating "I have a bomb." The clerk ignored the robber, who eventually turned tail and left. Other people also reported the "Tigger" strolling the neighborhood and police later arrested a man identified only as Allen Hansell.

Funny Real Job Application Answers

QUALIFICATIONS: "Here are my qualifications for you to overlook." "Wholly responsible for two (2) failed financial institutions." "Lets meet, so you can ooh and aah over my experience." "I have an excellent track record, although I am not a horse." "I am loyal to my employer at all costs... Please feel free to respond to my resumé on my office voice mail."

EXPERIENCE: "Note: Please don't misconstrue my 14 jobs as job-hopping. I have never quit a job."

EDUCATION: "Failed bar exam with relatively high grades." "Finished eighth in my class of ten."

SPECIAL SKILLS: "I have lurnt Word Perfect 6.0 computor and spreadsheet progroms." "Am a perfectionist and rarely if if ever forget details."

REASONS FOR LEAVING THE LAST JOB: "Reason for leaving last job: maturity leave." "Responsibility makes me nervous." "They insisted that all employees get to work by 8:45 every morning. I couldn't work under those demanding conditions." "Was met with a string of broken promises and lies, as well as cockroaches." "I was working for my mom until she decided to move." "They made me a scapegoat - just like my three previous jobs." "I have become completely paranoid, trusting completely no one and absolutely nothing."

JOB RESPONSIBILITIES: "While I am open to the initial nature of an assignment, I am disposed that it be so oriented as to partially incorporate the experience enjoyed heretofore and that it be configured to lead to the application of more rarefied facets of financial management as the major sphere of responsibility." "I was proud to win the Gregg Typting Award."

SPECIAL REQUESTS & JOB OBJECTIVES: "Please call me after 5:30. I am self-employed and my employer does not know I am looking for another job." "My goal is to be a meteorologist. Since I have no training in meteorology, I suppose I should try stock brokerage." "I procrastinate - especially when the task is unpleasant." "It's best for employers that I not work with people." "You will want me to be Head Honcho in no time."

PHYSICAL DISABILITIES: "Minor allergies to house cats and Mongolian sheep."

PERSONAL INTERESTS: "Donating blood. 14 gallons so far." "Marital status: often. Children: various." "Marital status: single. Unmarried. Unengaged. Uninvolved. No commitments."

SMALL TYPOS THAT CAN CHANGE THE MEANING: "As indicted, I have over five years of analyzing investments." "I demand a salary commiserate with my extensive experience." "Received a plague for Salesperson of the Year." "Education: College, August 1880-May 1984." "Experience: Dealing with customers' conflicts that arouse." "Develop and recommend an annual operating expense fudget." "I'm a rabid typist." "Instrumental in ruining an entire Midwest chain operation."

REFERENCES: "References: None. I've left a path of destruction behind me."

Here are some real dumb advertisements in the newspaper ads

USED TOILET PPER FOR SALE

Turkey FOR SALE ; Partially eaten, Only 8 days old.

Used Tombstone ; perfect for someone named HendelBergenHeinzel. One only plz call me

FULL SIZE MATRESS Royal Tonic, like new . Slight urine smell $40

WANTED : Someone to go back in time with me. .This is not a joke POBOX Oakview CA93222. You'll get paid after we get back. Must bring your own weapons. Safety not guranteed. I have done this only once

Hahahahah the last one is the dumbest lols!

I Am not Beowulf!

2007-11-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

Hmm well today was a free day so yeah some of us went to catch Beowulf ya =D

1st off went to school & met up with JingLong & stayed in Mac lab for few hours then went on to AMK Hub with Ivan,JingLong,Cyn & Ber ya =D We went to the cinema & booked the tickets for the show yea. After that Ivan was tired with the regular life & became a NeBoian? Well hmm sign-up was fast & its $SGD29 for 3 years & you get heaps of discounts. Tho we would have only a year left since membership lasts until 21 ;p... Then Belinda finally succeded in catching a banana-flasher toy from Zhi Feng hehehe =) Hmm didnt know he had banana-phobia =D

Well after lunch & some weird talk about bolsters Hazel,Jake,Derek & Zhi Feng came over ya while JL & Ivan went on to do their driving(1 of them almost hit a pedestrian, hmm take a guess Hint : He's the oldest guy we know :) hahahs) Well we went to grab some food at Subway, but haiz they made a big hu-hah over the sitting arrangements, dumbass Jake lols. We moved to Pepper Lunch cause Jake was scared of getting food poisoning again from Subway lols. Well only two ppl from us were eating, Derek & Hazel, who btw sure takes her time to eat. GD you must be happy,finally met some1 who actually eats slower than ya lols. Bogard & Theo also came & joined us(both of them 1st time eating Pepper Lunch too ^.^

Well our chauffeurs-in-training came back while ZF & Bobo had to head back lols. We went to see the movie after getting some chips & drinks ya. Guo Dong was there just in time yea lols. The movie was like a 2 hour game FMV yea hahahs =) Hmm I guess I wont be sneaking anymore chips in the cinema since it was really noisy yea & I think I annoyed the guy at the back with the chatting & chips passing yea lols. It was fun poking fun at some of the parts. There was the crazy funny & screaming monster, Grendel the ancient emo. And 1st time since Terminator that the lead hero fights in the nude hahahs, wtf lols?! Also needed translations since some parts they're werent speaking in English & they didnt provide English subs yea >.<... so yeah luckily was sitting by Ivan & Hazel who could read the Chinese subs lol =) Well the movie was pretty good but pretty predicatable tho yea.

Well we went back home after that, headed back with Ivan & Hazel on the same bus until Ivan wanted to walk back, yeah funny ar lols... Anyway it was a simple day of meeting up but yeah it was also pretty funny too yeas =)

Owh yeah got to talk with AeA after what seemed like ages, it was great to catch up with the guy yea. Hmm sad to hear things arent the same with him & her ... Yeah distance gets to a be big barrier yea esp when the life you lead where are you are no longer cross paths with you long-distance friends... Hmm yeah it was nice , nice hearing from the pimp again yea lols!

Speaking of KK.... hmm this month I might be going bak for just awhile, but yeah that would really rock if I could get to see them once more this year again yeas =)!

Hmm next trip? Hopefully can go zoo or Macritchie or mebe karoake yea lols =)

We must love Swensens

2007-11-10T03:33:00.000+08:00

Well hey celebrated a few b'days this week too hahahs :)

Friday after a long day of class lols, met up with XinYi,Ivan & Vin at Mac's before heading over to Suntec. Well on the way to the buy sum disgusting black licourice for the b'day girl we met Cheow Fern & Max surprisingly there too and they joined us from there on lols.

Then we headed over the arcade,Vin played DDR & well we had sumthing more to talk about hahahs. Well I had to leave & meet Guitar to grab the cake yea lols. Well we got it from Taka Cold Storage then went over to 7-11 to find candy. Well we wanted to give her a Anna Sui coin pouch, with some candies in it cause she's a sweet tooth and well we also put some condoms with the instructions in too hahahs(which btw the poor person buying kena IC check again... tsk, tsk lols XD) Well once we got the candy we were outside 7-11 & there wasnt much time cause the rest were coming, so she was tearing open the bag of sweets while I was ripping open the box of Durex, I'm guessing it looked like we were a couple that were uber hungry & also horny at the the same time hahahas!

Anyway went over to Swensens & had a nice dinner. Hmm we shared alotta dishes, up to $96 among 7 ppl yea lols .

Vincent up to his usual ways again yea =D

CF looks funny in this pic =D

Guitar,Ivan,Me,Max,Cheow Fern,Xinyi, Vincent,Vincent's Fave menu =)

Tho yeah I dont think any of us were full lols but yeah we had fun tho & had a sabo game where you had to eat the horrible licourice! =P Well we sang the Happy B'day & every1 at Swensens chipped in hahas, when CF wwanted to sing the Chinese version, it was just her & Vin lols!
Argh well the lady at swensens gave us her cake right in front of her which killed the suprise haiz... hahahahs . Well it was near last train so we were looking ard & quickly finding a place to cut the cake lols. Cheow Fern had us sang the Happy Bday song outside again too hahahs =)

Props to Guitar for getting the cake done yeas =D

B'day Girl =)

BQD! Cheers!!!

After that well we went back yea =D Well glad she enjoyed herself & yeah we all had fun too heheh!

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Well hey the nxt day, we went to Haagen Das to sorta celebrate a belated Cynthia's B'day yea :)
Hmm by now celebrate probably 4 times, so 4 years older oredi yea lols. Anyway I got to Somerset & I started contacting every1 with Cyn being the last cause this was sorta our hmm inpromptu celebration for her bday lols . But yeah hahah she just woke up when I got there lols :) The belated bday girl was really beLATEd yea hahahs.

Anyway then Ber, Daryl, Jake,Zf,Ivan,Steve,JL came soon & we moved over to Swensens, the same outlet as yesterday hahahs. Vin, & Cyn joined us inside yea =) I have to say the Choc Fondue was pretty damn good, since it was 18.90 and 1 for 1 so yea only had to pay around 4.50 hehehe. Yeah! Should go again, the marshamallow thingies were really sweet=)

Well all of us tried being a gud kisser by tying up the cherry's stud knots lols. All failed except well Jing Long came close but it was bit so yeah turned out he would have been a violent kisser lols. Love bite to the nxt level hahahas :)

Well since yesterday we got a Firehouse for free, we tot we try again & yeah we got 1 yea lols. Hahaha Vincent got the hmm salty , peppery vanilla ice cream lols :) And yeah ketchup with ice cream tastes exactly as you would imagine it, not gross just hmm a bit sour yea lols.

[ L: Jake,Ivan,JingLong, Daryl & Cyn R:Vincent,his fave menu:),Steve,me,ZhiFeng & Belinda Back :Ghost!]

Then after our uber long time there, we walked to Far East to look around & eat yea:) After that we walked ard for v . long looking for a place to sit, just like last Friday haiz hahahs:) Well hey the lights at Orchard were were really beautiful this year yea =)

Metropolis Christmas :)

After that we went over to PS & arcade for while before going to eat yea :)

Hahha Belinda brought in a Mos Burger Clam Chowder lols

Well we bided our time to the last train & talked crap till it was time to go lols. It was a long & fun day yea hahas =) From 4 people confirmed to well most of the gang, yeah haha fun day lols :)

Just Watch the Fireworks

2007-11-09T11:32:00.000+08:00

Well hmm quite a bit 2day going on yea =)

1st off there was the SIDM movie event yea! :)
Well met some of them 1st at KF for lunch before the event ya.
The movie was Freedom Writers & it rocked =) Hmm the event had well mostly a few of us there, not alotta people but I think its a good solid start hahahs =) Well during the movie all of us got to eat sum nice chocolate made by Hazel who had couldnt eat it cause had a sore throat lols. Well and speaking of chocolate we were all planning for the choc fondue event yeas:)
Heres some pics of hmm the last time I had some of that to hmm well build up appetite & hunger for it yea hahahas...

I was at Pariss, and the buffet was damn nice! Hmm through this, I found a new revelation. I know my stamina had gone down this year as in now I cant not sleep anymore for a night, but now my appetite is damn smaller.. And I fear it may be even lesser than ... Ivan's! Gasp! Hmm hahah I remember Year 1 laughing at him for not finishing a McDonald's meal at school everytime... Now its come to the point where I fear he has even bigger appetite than me, Hell even my 9 year old sis ate more than me at the buffet & I didnt eat a bite that day hahahs. Well when I went back to KK this year every1 wanted to know how did I lose so much weight, I just chuckle, cause my way was that I was a stern follower of the "too-broke-to-eat-diet"Its pretty damn effective, I must say lols. But yeah things are better off now & Im starting to eat more hahahas. Well neway the Pariss buffet rocked yea!

My show of appreciation after the great lunch at Pariss!

Well moved on to the choc fondue that day afterwards. Cheers!

Grapes +Marshmallows + Cherries? Nope .... some wiseass thought mini-tomatoes would be a better idea than cherries to dip in choc lols

The chocolate watefall & lake... Yummy :)

Well I was supposed to put an after pic but then I ate most of it before I remembered lols

HELL YEAH! :)

After dessert it was so damn good , it actually got another star hahahas.... Hmm the stars go waaay back yea ... Hmm since around KK I used to go around restaurants & leaving my hmm calling card or trademark that I ate there with the toothpicks... Yes hahah yeah that sounds kinda sad.... like some lameass villain who loves to eat eh hahahs?

Anyway sidetracked far enough,back to Eugene's house warming =)
After putting off the suplies at the club room we went over to Yio Chu Kang, where Bobo was there too lols. Hmm he had something on so he couldnt join us, perhaps more F&P training hahahs.Tho along the way to Eugene hse , Joe & Hazel left lols. And well that left Ber,Jing Long, Ivan, Vincent, Zf, Cyn, Jake & me yea

We tooka detour & stopped by a mall nearby so Zhi Feng could get the new Jay Chou album hahahs . Such a fanboy lols, but yeah hmm the album was well a departure from his usual bag of tricks yea. tho I would have to give it a hmm... 3/5 ... I felt it just wasnt as solid as the previous albums yea but props to him for trying something new & not resting on his laurels, but I thought the cover with him on the pink pony with a cowboy hat felt like Brokeback Mountain II : The Eastern Tales yea lols

Well we arrived (1.5 hours uber late) and got to the eating hahas =) And also Gui Sheng finally met Jake! I've been saying they looked the same & sound the same for a few months so yeah it was great they finally met up hahahs.

We then went on a tour to Eugene's place, it felt like an episode of MTV Cribs =) His place was nice... Man I loved the living room's spinning globe of lights. It was like a sea of cascading lights dancing on the ceiling lols.
Well they after his house warming, it was time for a house cooling as Jake said it as we grabbed Eugene & tossed him into the pool hahahs.
Later on GuiSheng gathered us to taupok him lols. I was the 2nd guy on top & after the 4th, I felt like my lungs were gonna burst so I tried pushing myslef off the ground cause I know Eugene was waaay worse off than me hahahs.

The elusive & part-time international agent of espionage, B'day Bash Cat =)

Her scandalous lover!?!

Owh yeah the cheesecake was absoutley great!Carissa had Valerie sign my b'day card when I like right next to her hahahs, it was funny hahahs:)Well of course, we celebrated Eugene's bday which was on that day too hahahs. And hey they even celebrated for Cynthia & me.That was of nice of them lols
& gave us this cool b'day bash gift where we had to litterally bash the gift to get it & a photo frame heheh =)Well it was cool coming & it was nice seeing the POS people too since the camp yea lols. Well we went to a place to eat & played 3 words crapping game hahahs. It's always get more fun wen ur frends get in hahahs. Well after that we all managed to catch the bus & went back home yea =)
Long day.... it's not quite over yet...

Hmm well my dad came back from KL that night with the result of the Canada interview...well we'll get the letter in a month but my dad said it was mostly ... positive as in we can go for sure... So yeah... hmm I guess this is it yea...

~~-DEEPAVALI-~~

Well for the festival of lights this year Ivan, Clarence, Vinny & me went over to Guitar's house yea =)
Well we finally got to meet her bf too who was a nice guy hahahs. 1 thing I do admire about them is the level of seriousness in the relationship cause you see how they live with each other & it's really homely. It's not like petty high school relationship, it was quite refreshing yea lols.

Anyway we wrapped up Xinyi's prezzie & made plans for her bday 2mr hahahs =)
After that was lunch, we even got to eat with hands , well when in rome right? While eating her dad had their parrot entertain us. The parrot was uber cute & funny, it sings, burps & coughs!A burping parrot! How do you top that? Unless she trains it to fart too hahahs =) Then played cards while her family had a Heroes marathon(cool!=))It was a nice & simple day just hanging around & getting to her better too lols. Afterwards saw Bee movie with Ivan which was pretty good lols =) Well hmm almost endyear, hope the rest of the year will rock yea =)

Bday Times!

2007-11-02T20:24:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey:)
Well went out 2day for the bday's thingy yea :). After a damn long day of classes, we went over to Blk L to meet the rest. Hmm nt sure why Vincent was brandishing a bat lols. Then it was pretty much goofing around in the lab while me & my, me & my, me & my, me & my friends.... waited for Ian lols. Then went over to McDs met up with b'day boy & his friends to head over to town yea :)

Hmm it was a pretty huge gang going 2day : GD,his frends, Ber, Ivan, Clar, Cyn, Ian, Vin, ZF, Jake, CherShen!(which rocks since he is from JB lols), JingLong, Derek, Joe,MingFang, Joespeh albeit later on!, & theodora at ps yea. Hmm tho we couldn't get a ticket at PS so we went over to Cathay instead lols.
We got tickets there & went for dinner near mind cafe =) It was pretty damn hard finding a place to eat with ard 18 pp tho lols.

Hmm after dinner went over to see the movie which was Stardust. I didnt even know we were watching that until the ticket counter lols, thought we were watching Rendtition lols. Well I have to sat it for an uber unhyped movie, it was pretty funny & nice yea, a bit long but was pretty solid movie throughout except the dumb ending, where the villain had a chance to win but wanted theatrics lol . Owh yeah , poor Ian had to sit on the floor throughtout the movie since hmm there was a mismanagement of tickets yea.

Well den after the movie, Cynthia & Theodora were about to head back before we stopped them & gave Cynthia her jellybeans hahahs =) Hmm then Joeseph really came around hmm 1140? It was nice of him coming out so late yea lols :) Hmm thn the presents came got the prezzies lols . Guo Doong was 1st & his was ...

Man of the hour content showcasing his boxers lols

Hmm well they got me a new wallet, well those around me know my wallet is ripped in half...literally yea. So it was of them to remember that yea :), well and also a nice shirt too yea :)
Afterwards, GD & me had to share cake, gross hahahas! Well I learned to never share cake with some1 who eats slow since definitely kena cakesmash lols

Plus GD handed me & Cyn a card from him, it was pretty damn funny hahahs :) Thnx lols!
Well after that, hmm we went looking for a pub. We went alotta places... Hmm either we couldnt get in cause the age limit or as it was 80% of the time, it as closed. It was a pretty bad lucked out night as most of the pubs were closed yea ;p

So where did we go? Instead after Vincent & Clarence left, we went over to some LAN shop while some of us went over to Mcdonalds. Then after an hour of crap talking, went over to bar chor mee shop(hmm I think I spelled it wrong lols) Well I slept there for an hour or so, but then we left I refreshed from that short sleep after that lols. Hmm though I think I slept on one of my legs since it was feeling very fuzzy yea lols.
We went back to McDonalds & then talked crap till morning, we played some word game that got more sicker as it went on lols... 1 of phrases coined up was "Destructive sex" WTH lols. Well we lvled up talking crap or haha lvled down lols .
Hmm after that we went back around hmm 8 yea. It was a long night lols.

--- The next Day

Well I was walking over to CG when I saw this crazy van & just had to take a pic yea lols.

Well went out with Ivan to go AMK Hub, wasnt much to do so we decided to see Unrest. Well hahah we were late for the show 30 mins... we tot the show started at 630 lols & the lamest thing was that from 330++ we thought it was 630 since we were calling Guitar & telling her it was 630 lols Well the movie had a few uber sick scenes like the tank full of water & bodies. After that went for dinner... hmm well 1 thing every1 around AMK knows is that if you go for dinner there, prepare to walk yea lols. It's usually walk to one place, it's full, then the next one, this usually takes around 30-40 mins hahahs. Hmm well we managed to get some chow at Jubilee yea before heading back yea.

Well realised it could very well be 1 of the last time celebrating my bday here but yeah I think it would have killed the mood lols. Hmm well on the 8th, my dad will be going KL for the Canada interview, and I guess from then I will finally know whether next year Im actually going to leave another hometown...

Well haha thnx for the celebration & yea hey sorry to every1 there was so much time wasting that night yea lols.Well I had fun neways:) Thnx for the wihses too yea ppl =) Cheers! 20 years old , wo0o0ots!

ZzZzZzzz

2007-11-02T08:54:00.000+08:00

Hmm well not much this this week except went to see Superbad finally! Tho was waiting for like some time due to ZR's photo shoot for the NYP brochure lols. Mr.Lim was funny hahha, said it was for promotion for Changi Prison when it was ZR's turn mwahahah =D. Well anyway the movie was pretty solid yea =)! Anyway well finally going out today to celebrate the birthdays yea ! Who0o0oosh!

Hmm JChou's new vid,2nd single off the new album=)... Hmm I didnt like the 1st single, I thought it was a weak version of Mai Tai Yang yea, well hope the rest of the album fares better yea =)

Cai Hong
哪里有彩虹告诉我
Na li you cai hong gao su wo
Tell me where the rainbow is

能不能把我的愿望还给我
Neng bu neng ba wo de yuan wang huan gei wo
Could you still give me back my wish

为什么天这么安静
Wei shen me tian zhe me an jing
Why is the sky so silent?

所有的云都跑到我这里
Suo you de yun dou pao dao wo zhe li
All of the clouds are running to me

有没有口罩一个给我
You mei you kou zhao yi ge gei wo
Is there a mask for me?

释怀说了太多就成真不了
Shi huai shuo le tai duo jiu cheng zhen bu liao
Recalling too much of the past words can accomplish nothing

也许时间是一种解药
Ye xu shi jian shi yi zhong jie yao
Perhaps time is a kind of antidote

也是我现在正服下的毒药
Ye shi wo xian zai zheng fu xia de du yao
and also the first poison I’m taking now

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
Kan bu jian ni de xiao wo zen me shui de zhao
I could not see your smile, how can I sleep well

你的身影这么近我却抱不到
Ni de shen ying zhe me jing wo que bao bu dao
Your silhouette is so close to me, yet I cannot embrace it

没有地球太阳还是会绕
Mei you di qiu tai yang hai shi hui rao
Without earth, the sun can still circle around

没有理由我也能自己走
Mei you li you wo ye neng zi ji zou
Without reasons, I also can walk alone

你要离开我知道很简单
Ni yao li kai wo zhi dao hen jian dan
You want to go away, I know that is very easy

你说依赖是我们的阻碍
Ni shuo yi lai shi wo men de zu ai
You said dependence is our obstacle

就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
Jiu suan fang kai dan neng bu neng bie mo shou wo de ai
Even if we break up, but couldn’t you not receive my love

当作我最后才明白
Dang zuo wo zui hou cai ming bai
Assuming I’m the last to understand

The Trick is to Keep Breathing~

2007-10-28T22:56:00.000+08:00

Hey hey =)
Well hmm the 2nd week fo sch has already ended, haiz time really goes by quckly for 2nd sem!
Some of us went over to eat dinner at Dhoby Ghaut Friday after sch yea. Hmm though I had my bro b'day too that night so couldnt stay for long. We headed over to the arcade & hahah it was nice seeing all the pros doing their thing in the rhthym & beat games( which I compeletely suck at btw lols ;p). After that I had to head back, haiz heard they went on eat egg tarts which hmm I dont remember the last time I ate lols. Aww man I so wanna eat Portugese Egg Tarts lols! Well there's always nxt time :D

Hmm well alotta b'days coming up & yeah alotta planning. Turning 20 ... Hmm finally reaching that auspicious age yea... It's a bit scary cause I know in just a few years, friends will start to get married & stuff. Well this week should be great, you only get to turn 20 once in your life rite lols? Yeah looking forward to that heheh =)

Hmm well on Sat, after CG was planning to head back since it was around 8 already but Vincent said the kickboxing bbq at ECP was still going on. So yeah I had about two bucks left & a negative MRT card but yeah just went along since there was a bus to there yea lols. It was uber last minute cause I already wasnt thinking of going hahah until I heard Derek was also late, he reached around a few minutes before us (the BBQ had been going on since 6 lols) So rite, we got off at Parkway Parade, waited for Derek fer awhile until realised he overshot the bus stop & was on the otherside of ECP so we went ourselves. It was a pretty long long walk hahahs. Well after finally reaching there got to grab some stuff to eat. Hmm well alotta people from the Thursday group had apparently left for clubbing(it was still a Saturday nite after all lols), well nearly every1 was there yea =)

Hmm well after eating the hmm Wasabi Donut =)!,Vincent, Derek & me noticed nearly all the seniors were wet with all their clothes on. I mean you dont go swimming like that lols, so we knew somethin was amiss. We were by the BBQ pit when the guy there told us" Stay with me. You'll be safe. They won't toss you into the sea because we are the cooks, I've been here the whole day cooking their wings." So yeah the plan was to cook everyone marshmallows at least we would look busy rite lols? And well 2 minutes after the plan started, the cook was grabbed to be tossed into the sea lols~! The coach told us that we werent seniors so we couldnt get tossed in lols. Anyway the chef escaped & the coach gave him some wise adivce. He told him there was one way out, and that was he toss himself into the sea lols. So the cook ran into the sea at night, and hahah it looked like he tripped and landed face 1st into the sea lols! It was funny to watch & Hell I was laughing my ass off until they grabbed the next man: Vincent lols! He was like "No you guys said you dont toss 1st years in lols!" All the seniors got him & threw him into the sea hahahs, it was at this point I knew me & Derek were screwed lols. It took a few more people to grab Derek up & toss him into the sea next lols. After him, I think it was Guitar who went for a night dip cause I think she was laughing nearby when they tossed Derek so they tossed her in too lols. Well I was roasting Vincent, Derek & my marshmallows since they were still getting the ECP sea off them lols. Then I heard Guitar said Kenny's next right behind me lols. I heard but yeah once they got me " It was like We caught you & there is no escape lols. Please declare any items to take off before we toss you in. And for your last words, tell us the next victim " Hahah I think I picked Rashid, but anyway I tried applying kickboxing throws near the sea but Marcus was like " Oh you want a slam? Here a special slam for ya" Then he hoisted me up before plunging me into the sea & after arising I was part of the gang tossing people in with the rest lols. Found out it was that Bobo who saboed me actually when he picked me for the next guy lols. I didnt have a cahnge of 2nd clothes so whole night I was drying off lols. Anyway well it was a fun nite, tossing people into the sea and we tossed alot of them in lols. Yeah! We stayed until around 11 before going back with Vin,Derek,Guitar,Ajay, BeBop?,Xinyi & Cheow Fern lols.
On the way back home saw this place called C.Nai cafe lols! Clarence, next time go ECP can eat at ur place eh lols =)Well it was nice seeing all the kickboxing ppl like this , we definetely needed this lols =)
PS I learned to always wear long jeans when going anywhere near a beach party hahahs since they wont toss you in lols.

Speaking of kickboxing, haiz came back home & found that my cousin snapped & my dad punched him to straighten him out. My cousin is pretty much ... nuts for lack of better words yea lols. I mean low EQ, anyway its a messy story but the gist of it is, he scolded my little sister & he's 27 btw because of something unlogical so my dad didnt like how that was & told him he couldnt do that so he asked my dad to punch him. So yeah he gave him a knuckle sandwich yea. He's really nuts lols.

November... Hmm haiz... its almost NYE... Damn I miss Sutera Harbour & the fireworks. Haiz.. sorry to every1 back home for not making it... but yeah hmm there isnt a right or wrong in this. It just desicisions that had to be made rite? Hmm it sounds simple enough but yeah hmm then I shouldnt need to feel that guilty . Hmm though yeah I havent heard much from them , and I havent told them much from here. I dont know... I mean I could tell every1 back home about my friends here but you know it just seems kinda .. pointless .. cause I dont think they will ever meet up. Likewise, whenever people talk about their Secondary life here, I dont have much say since mines was a few hundred miles away in a place no1's heard of yea. Hmm but yeah, I do hope they ahve some kinda reunion this endyear... its already been 4 years since SPM guys, hahah almost 5 years dude... We've got a long way to go alright , I really do hope that we will have time to talk crap 5 years from then. I'm not gonna budge an inch if you guys dont too yea. Haiz, plus I might be moving next year... I really liked the idea of being able to visit you guys but when I move it will be so much harder ... We're never going to ever have it easy yea. Bt hmm hope things are going great anyways. Miss you guys & KK! =D

Kay well another week is upon us yea! November begins soon! Oh yea, Good Luck to A-Levels and every1 taking STPM this week too yea lols. Godspeed people!!!