Same Song On Infinite Replay

Well .. not much but I found me old journal. I wish I had kept it active through my stay in Singapore now. Sure I have a blog.. but there's just some things and thoughts that you know only you'll ever be able to decipher. And yeah sorry.. this a bit of mindless self indulgence here.. but I'll post a pretty important entry from it. It's pretty much for those who know Hokkien Mee as a dish that's best served black or know the smells of a long kang yea.

October 20th 2005
These last few days were just hard messaging all the friends about leaving. Nadia left a pretty sweet comment. Well it was kind of weird going out every day knowing full well that it would be some time till I was there again. I guess everywhere I went I took snapshots in my mind to try and keep those places that I grew up in my mind. Other than that, I felt excited:) I felt like I was finally doing something with my life by going over to Singapore. A new lifestyle,possibly new friends.

On the day itself, Oct 20th. I was awoken by my dad. It was time to go. And I remember when I was packing my bags into my uncle's car that suddenly everything changed. All the sudden I felt this deep and soulful kind of hurt that I had been trying to hide from myself. I realized how I been subconsciously trying to make myself excited to try and avoid feeling this hurt. I guess all my excitement just melted away. I realized I would be an island away from all my close friends that I loved. I missed KK so much right then.

I'll never forget how in the last day of Grade 4 in Boston, I walked over to the giant globe model and spun it around to find this exotic place called, Malaysia. I remember having no idea what kind of people stayed at Malaysia. All I knew were these stories my parents told me about like running from Fire Ants and starfruits. In my mind, I thought Malaysia was literally all jungle. So when I was landing there I saw there was actually a town I felt relieved that toilet time didn't mean digging holes or using leaves.

Fast forward a small lifetime, and now I was leaving KK already. Who would have thought that I would end up missing this small humble town. But I do, I love the place. I guess if you ask me now, sure I was born in America but I'd like to consider myself more as a Malaysian since I was brought up there. It's where I grew up along with my friends. Now I was leaving it all behind for a place where I knew no one. 8 years have come and gone so fast.

Well I had to take the flight from home to JB by myself. Not a good idea since I was uber clumsy.On the plane I took some pics as we left. I guess by the time I landed I felt okay again. Something weird though.. I noticed that my phone had dropped a newly added accessory. A gift from a friend that read KENNY SABAH. I thought it was kind of like the universe was trying to tell me that I was no longer home. I took it and tied it back on as I wouldn't let this new land break my spirit. Well reaching JB, I messaged family and friends that I managed to get there safely. Used up all my Digi credit since Digi wasn't used in Sg. Well finally the bus to Sg came and I got on.

Things were going alright until we reached a check point. I wanted to take my luggage but the bus captain said I didn't need to since after the check point would get back on the same bus again. Every1 else left their things too so I went with the crowd. Well since I had a different passport , mines took longer to process or something. When I went through the checkpoint, I saw my bus. Problem was that it was on the road and far ahead. So I was full of expletives and well yeah my phone had no battery too so couldn't call my dad. I was freaking out. Stupid bus took my luggage. Well called my dad who told me to wait for the bus to come back. This being JB I felt the chance of that was not possible.

So I finally decided to take another bus to catch the other one. And well hahah I did, caught up with it. Got my stuff and complained to the bus driver. But yeah I sucked at being angry anyway. Well got on the bus and made it to Woodlands. I had to fill up a form which read: WELCOME TO SINGAPORE & next to those words? WARNING! DEATH TO ALL DRUG TRAFFICKERS. Yeah it's been a pretty great welcome so far from this new hometown. Well met up with my uncle here and got to my new place. So yeah finally I had arrived in Singapore. I tried messaging my friends about everything that had transpired but... my sim card wasn't able to work here. So yeah couldn't contact them. I felt the barrier of a 1,000 miles right there and then. Well... yeah goodbye KK :)

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Fast forward 2 & 3/4 years.. Summer's coming to a slow close as it gives way to August. Hmm.. yeah... Well still got 7 weeks left. Trying to make the best of it yea. Story of my life-> Leaving my home for a place where I know no one. This is the 3rd time!In a sad way, things have come full circle too as I head back to Western lands... Still worried if I can get used to it there. Won't ever hear "bah" or "lah". Hahaha... Never forget how after my 1st day of school in Malaysia, I went to the dictionary to look up those words. God,I'm going to miss Singapore and KK... Just biding my time now yea...

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