All That You Can't Leave Behind

Hmm well nearing the end of November already yea !

1st off, cheers to A-Lvls & STPM peeps! Hahah freedom reigns yea! Hope you guys get all the R & R that u guys deserve yea :)

Well on Friday, went to go see Enchaned but just 3 of us wanted to see, every1 else couldnt make it . We, Guo Dong,Hazel,Ian,Cynthia,MingFang & Joe, took the train to town after school. Yeah we tried catching it but in the end, it was fated that we cannot see it that day Zzz Not only Cineleisure was sold out but Cynthia was over at PS & the tickets were selling out fast too yea Zzz... Was damn damn disappointed, well at least can go catch the movie nxt week with the rest then yea :) Well after failing to get tickets we went to walk around Orchard a bit to see of this year's lights on the road which rock this year btw:) before heading over to PS's Pastamania for dinner& haha GD was damn funny, 2nd retard oredi Hahaha XD 1 part after we were all bombing him, he looked down & talked to the parsley "Can you guys please give me some respect? Im not retarded" He was too damn funny hahahs! After dinner, walked around fer awhile before heading back home yea :)

Hmm well 1 thing came up recently thats well pretty big to me at least yea...My family well, we got the results for going over to Canada... And well yeah it would be a short post if the answer was that I wasnt going but yeah no such luck. Yeah hmm I found out I'll be leaving nxt year yea...

Well for the past few days, my head's been battling with my heart. My logic has been torn apart. Its pretty complicated but suffice to say I have to move. I tried saying I could live alone but I know, I cant... Its dumb , sad but well honestly true at the same time... I sleep on a bed my father bought, in a house my father owns... Nothing was really mines except my heart & fears... and the growing knowledge that not every road was going to lead back home anymore.... You know I would never know that in 3 years ... that I would be going through the same crap so fast again... Haiz Canada is damn damn far.. I checked... Hmm Its really a 12 hour difference, even chatting would be a problem too now. The last time I left a hometown, I took my heart with me cause I wanted to move here... but now my heart is here, and its not going to be so simple this time... Its leave with possibility of no return yea Zzz

My dad said I would be moving depending on when the University there starts... I saw the website & clicked the admission... I can tell you that clicking around the website was the most was scariest moment for me this year, bar none... I mean I felt like I was reading my own tombstone... like I didnt want to know the exact time when it was going to end yea... Hmm the dealine is... well January 18 2008... Haiz.... well at least the term starts at September 2008 :) Hmm I can still punk out some peeps for their 21st before I leave eh ;P

I'll always remember what a good friend from home told me after coming here for a year & struggling to keep in touch, "I know that our friendship is strong. Its too important to us that neither one of us will alow it to die but the truth is we really have no control over the time & distance that stands betwen us" I feel its true.. I mean.. Im still friends with them at home, but its not the same anymore... I mean I want to be with them but relying on MSN & visits once a year... Its not so fun... I left them & moved away yea.. And now well its the same guilt trip again ..

Haiz Im not even going to begin on what I already know, I am going to miss this place... Especially now after settling in so nicely.. Right now Im pretty content with my life & things are looking promising... And just when things were going along so nicely too... I cant say this enough, I'm really glad to have to made it here, from KK ... I always thought Singapore was impossible & the people were out of my league but Im really happy that I got to meet such nice people here. Im glad to meet people that well I know I will care for after I move yea.Cheers to that at least yea ;) Hmm after finding such a solid & close circle of friends,Im going have to drop it all & leave for a place all the way on other side of the globe where I know no one, its basically 2005 redux. Restarting from nothing...Story of my life Zzz

And I havent even relayed it back to KK... Havent mustered up the courage to tell them yet, only AeA... Dont know how I can tell the rest, I mean untop of the fact I'm breaking promises to not go back home for NYE.. The sucky thing is that I know Im doing the right thing by staying here for endyear cause I know I may not be able to return here once I leave due to escaping from NS but I still feel horrible about not going back ....

I'll guess I better just worry about it when the time comes, no use wasting the time left eh?

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted,
Could it be I'm haunted?

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

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