2000- 2010

Before my heart starts to burn
Times are hard when things have got no meaning,
I’ve found a key upon the floor,
Maybe you and I will not believe in,
The things we find behind the door.

So what’s the matter with you,
Sing me something new,
Don’t you know the cold and wind and rain don’t know,
They only seem to come and go away.

Stand by me,
Nobody knows the way it’s gonna be`

What a decade its been
From dreading the halls in All Saints, strolling through the ever-sunny streets of Singapore, to bracing winter cold in Vancouver...

We've seen no robots or flying cars, no stupid calamity-inducing virus, the idea of terrorists introduced to masses via Fox news, survived the Bush, Dick, and Colon era but still reeling from the effects of the invasion of Iraq, seen a white rapper rise to fame, and a black man elected president, watched hopelessly on the sidelines as the economy went to the shitter, mourned the loss of fallen idols, watch as reality killed the video stars as MTV grew farther and farther away from being a music channel, Google plotted down the earth, cellphones replaced public phones, Apple challenged Microsoft for hsehold computer dominance, and Bill Gates entered the video game industry, we've seen rights won for gay marriages and start to get scared about global warming... Hope the next decade will be better : ) Cheers everyone, I'll join the rest of the world in a bit : )!

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Where I End and You Begin 1:00 am

Lumi Returns'

Today was walking to school, it was raining. Well nothing out of the norm since Spring was pretty grey yea... Hmm halfway there, I noticed the rain was... less noisy... So I looked above my umbrella and the rain had turned to snow. At first it was just flurries but then it became these clumps of snow. That was definitely a beautiful moment in a day where I had classes about the abortions and euthanasia. Hmm I know I rant (alot) about Winter and how I hate having wet shoes everyday during the season but... today having the snow crunch under my soaking shoes, the snow fluttering like a snow globe, my knuckles clutching the umbrella feels as if I dipped my hands in water and put them in the top freezer, hair more white than Gui Sheng's 21st bday. Still I know I'll never really take it for granted, I will always remember that it used to be just sun and rain for 10 years yea.

I want this


Its the cover collection for Fables, James Jean is just great : ) Plus the series is heading to a new direction with the Adversary staying at Fabletown. Boy Blue died too . Well, the book is good because it has so many characters but you're never really overwhelmed as they all get good set ups yea.

Fave webby at the moment
fmylife.com
A nice pick-me up site to share and revel in people's misery. Example,
Today, I let my 7 year old niece cut my hair. I thought she was using fake scissors. Now, I have a cut on my left ear and a bald spot on the right side of my head. Tomorrow, I have a job interview for Tony&Guy hair salon. FML
Schadenfreude, no?

And as the world waits for Watchmen next Thursday, I'm starting to take a liking to the movie industry in Japan. I mean yes, I dabbled a bit with a bit of Ichi, some Battle Royale, but I think there is a rise of steady movies from Japan. It may have lost the gaming empire(FF XIII trailer does look sweet ).. but their movies are usually not made to appeal to the mainstream. While Hollywood, its usually about who can make the most $. I know that's an over simplistic view but I think other countries`movie industry is in some way more pure since their movies are not

Two picks to look out for yea.
Tokyo!

Big Man Japan

.. my dream team of directors for a movie? Michel Gondry, Takashi Miike and Stanley Kubrick!

And also.. hmm fave vlog lately is UltraNeko
She has knack for making noise : )


Been listening to alot of Iron & Wine yea : ) A very organic sounding band , nice song yea : D

Besides my weekly Pho fix, been lovin waffles and maple syrup... yes, I have it in my hse agn. So all is good : )

Anyway well yesterday , after finishing most tests. Went with Johims over to the arcade yea : ) Played SF IV and got my ass handed to me hahah. There was pool too(finally) but we didn`t get a chance to play since only two tables and everyone round the tables looked like some Biker gang.Anyway end of the night, we running to find a bus with McFlurries in the snow hahah : ) Yeah, it was good to look around town yea. Right, well hope to catch Watchmen nxt week :)

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Where I End and You Begin 11:09 am

Walk The Line

Its roughly 2am here...

Hmmm... insomnia is getting progressively worse... too much coffee?... Have I mentioned? Since starting school, lecturers have been trying to get us addicted to coffee. No BS, my Philosophy teacher has his mug in class everyday and has even created a mantra to help us to get coffee... And now... I love coffee... forgot the mantra, but been drinking everyday twice ... coffee double double ... coffee single single...

Anyway besides my caffeine fix... things have been going pretty much the same.. Spring brought false allusions of a beautiful spectrum of yellow and green but hmm its been all grey at this point.

Hmm... yes... this is sounding like that song near the end of Cruel Intentions with the lyrics.. " Coffee black and egg white" Good movie too... Speaking of movies, still haven't caught one since coming here.. but yeah now just waiting so I can watch the Watchmen(no, its not a pun. Look it up yea) which btw IGN scored it well. But then again IGN scored the Devil`s Rejects well too... Anyway the cinemas here ... different.. like... after you finish a movie you could in theory catch another movie if you wanted to. Just go to another hall since the tickets don`t have seats. Yes, I was lame enough to do that yea... Haven`t tried it here but back when I was still pledging allegiance to the Red,White & Blue every school morning. The movies? Beavis and Butthead do America and The Relic. Good times :)


life at the moment

Well decided that I'm not taking the next semester of school, just going return for the winter semester yea. It's one part so school fees will be easier for me, since I'm pouring most of my resources into another thing already.. And been brainwashed into the notion too, that nobody studies in the summer yea . So yeah... back when I first got to Sg... Well in a month, I somehow got a job at Balaclava but anyway the point being the job only gave me one day off a week. So yeah... I remember one shift where I was at the outside area and all the patrons were too drunk to order or bug us so I could just stone for awhile... And I remember looking at at Marina Square from the outside of Suntec... and thinking I should at least go there(yes this was back when that overhead bridge was still there)... and that started a train of thoughts.. of just how much of Singapore I explored since arriving... Yeah... I just felt I should have some experience to show for my friends and myself as well... Well yeah, so basically for Summer.. I plan to get the Hell around Vancouver and lookup everything. There's still lots of places that aren't just trees and hills.

Going to move soon yea... I just want heated floors and non-cold toilet seats.. argh.. every morning... I'm scrambling to find my slippers yea. As for food... I've been starting to take a serious liking to Vietnamnese food yea : ) Aww... the Viet Sub and the Pho :) Another funny thing was when I was eating at a usual place with a friend, I got to try their Jalepeno which has a reputation for one of the spiciest chillies in the West... Hahah... I can`t take spicy food but seriously .. no kick...Like ... vegetable... I mean come over to South East Asia, they would just die. (*Insert memory of CZ chalet? where I had the worst chilli ever)

Well feelings on a whole have been a state of flux.. but anyways yeah... starting to make sense of it all.. Well ... Maybe now isn`t a good time time too since it is a critical time yea... But I still feel the pull of the world too.. and yeah ... what I understand from it is, what I`ve been thinking all last year yea.. This and when I see the students in class, God.. they know what they`re doing for sure... I`m still making it up as I go along... I mean my results have been pretty good but I really hope I don`t drop the ball this time. Just feel I`m on the wrong side of 22.

It`s almost March already.

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion--
Is nothing new
Flashback--warm nights--
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after--

Sometimes you picture me--
and I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said--
Then you say--go slow--
I fall behind--
The second hand unwinds

Hurry up April.

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Where I End and You Begin 5:19 pm

Hoppus DeLonge Barker

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CHEERS :)Blink is back !!!!!!

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Where I End and You Begin 4:12 pm

Maybe Tomorrow

Well for the most part, the awful fog seems to be residing at last yea. Haven't been able to see the sun for the 1st few weeks of the year yea. It is better now yea. I remember catching the glimpse of the sun on a walk back from a morning shift on a Sunday some weeks back I think. Yeah, that sounds so passe but you really tend to miss the silliest thing as long as you've been deprived of it long enough. I was happy at least. Foggy blue sky with a perfect slice of red cut in the middle. The Greeks thought that of the four elements, fire was the most purest. Well they base it as to how the universe is set up. Earth, the land. Water, the sea. Wind, the sky. And Fire, the Sun. It's like four layers with Earth in the middle with Fire being the outer layer after the other two.

I had an interesting work day around CNY too. Before I started work, I saw someone hauled away the police. I stood around a bit before making my back to work since I was late. Nearly slammed a door at someone in a wheelchair who was next to me watching the scene. After that fun incident started work. Later on, saw that guy in the wheelchair in the store again but this time the security was leading him out of the store. Didn't catch the full story as to what happened but heard him asking for free coffee. Anyway after work, saw 2 guys arrested outside my school. And up ahead past the school at the fire station, there was 2 cops with a dog sniffing the area for God knows what. At this point I felt something was off with the day in general. So finally made it to the neighbourhood until someone from his house called out for me. He said he saw me walking back all time(which is all too true). He came down to meet me and as I was walking to his house thinking of all the weird stuff that happened, I was thinking owh so finally it ends here hahah. But then again, yeah I didn't think he could really do anything since I just lived nearby from his place. Well turned out in the end, he was a pretty nice guy. Just wanted to sell some cigarettes from Iran ($3 for 3 packs was damn cheap too). Anyway went back after that.

CNY ... yeah not much going on... Yeah... sometimes I just feel that's all I have to say and so talking about here sometime seems pointless. I mean I want to report back home and say interesting things but I don't know... I am doing alright here for the most part, finally starting to make a few friends I guess yea... But it's starting to get busy here. Tests and whatnot. And yes it is hard that I'm not able to catch up with most of them since I don't wake up on time and on the other hand they're graduating soon too so yeah things will be very hectic these few weeks of course. Anyway Godspeed to them, I hope graduation will be great.

Yesterday, messaged AeA since I realised now that it's already been almsot half a year since I talked with him or Su. I'd like to say time went by slowly here while I know things must have picked up quick over there but the honest truth was that it passed by here so quick too without me really taking notice. The truth was that I would probably always head back to Sg before KK. I wished they all moved to KL. I mean it's not fair. Back then, if I wanted to go back to KK from Sg, I only needed to work bout two weeks before going over. But now I had to plan for months. Things would be easier if they all lived together. This and the rest heading to NS yea... But yeah, I just missed home alot. Anf they're all finally making their way to the world too. School was almost up. And so I started to think about everything again. But had a test the next morning so I decided to forget it and catch some rest. I ended up 'forgetting' it all night...

The next morning I got a call which was weird since my phone was pretty much deadweight these days. It was AeA hahah, and yeah I was suprised alright. Well he caught me before I was heading to class. He was working in Digi( something like M1 for Malaysia yea) so he had free calling hahaha :D It definitely made my day. It was very good to hear from him again. I needed somthing to hold on to at least, I mean it's been a piss-poor month so far... I mentioned this to Ivan too, I mean... 22... this was where life was taking us... we all were off doign our own things... Chan's doing well in Penang, president of the Bowling Club:) N is doing well there, I hope to meet her in London this year yea : )Su? He's off to KL to... hahah work with AeA.. they will get to work together :)... And yeah, AeA's the same guy... Chan is coming back home this year finally I heard. And it really is one my great hopes to climb Mount Kinabalu with them. It's definitely past 5 years... I'll probably never forget hahah. We will always have time to talk crap now, and later on too. Yes the gay-meter just broke but screw it.. I'm very glad that things are still good. And that will be good enough to make it for the next month.

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Where I End and You Begin 11:52 am

Gone baby, gone...

Right well this is pretty much a post about something that recently happened over the weekend. I'll just get right into the shtick , 1up.com and the fabled Electronic Gaming Monthly has gone the way of the dodo. This is a part geek-ish admiration of the two & also the general feelings I have about the print industry upon this two-strike blow.

1up.com ... well ... yeah as the EGM hit its late teenager years... It kinda lost track I guess? Well I kinda thought 1up.com took over.. I mean the podcasts hahah, there were some funny shit going with Shane & the rest. So yeah... this it you know, its hard to see such a tight community there torn up... The staff were great people ... Here below is a pic...



What's going on? Well over in Gamespot.com a reviewer was fired for a "bad" review of a game called Kane & Lynch.. And these guys came out to bat for him for injustice to a fellow journalist.
Right, if you want to see people faced with real loss , over here. As to what happened? Here.

On to EGM... And this one is the one that hurts the most for me... Come on ... If you're not pissed off or the slightest clue what this magazine means & stands for then.. this post isn't for you. This mag... it was here back when the hardcore gaming crowd were the only gamers, not all these mainstream "look at me, I'm a gamer too with the Wii Sports/Skateboarde/Guitar Hero/whatever" hippies... Not knocking the games just the new mainstream crowd ... I mean... Yeah more gamers is good for buisness but when games start coming out to cater to them and not to the hardcore you know the gaming industry has changed so much since the days we all 1st Shorukyen's someone's ass..

Granted.. I know EGM on the last few years had a less spectacular run... but I think we all are still on WTF mode as to how easily the best gaming mag is gone when GamePro is still there.. I mean no offense, but EGM >>>>> GamePro... That and the staff... They had such a great Review staff .. plus you could generally tell these people working behind the print really did love their work..

Some of EGM high lights... Hmm Shen Long anyone heheh? Which actually went on to sorta becoming a character in the new SF 4 ... ... Hmm also I thought Shoe's interview with Peter Moore was legend too.. It wasn't the typical "polite and geeky" gaming journalist interview. There were some serious problems with the Xbox 360 & Shoe wanted to know what was going on... What happened to "Next Gen?" I mean as Penny Arcade put it.. It was a necessary step for the easy-going way of most gaming journalists.

I think I'll miss it most when it was just... Shoe.. Sushi-X .. Crispin.. and Shawn... Four man review crew and the mag was so damn fat too : )And now... really.. I don't ever expect any of the other mags to ever step up & try to become the new EGM..

And now well.. how this all hits home... In case you don't know.. I'm studying to become a journalist at the moment... And then this horror story comes along.. It makes you certainly question your career path.. I was probably too naive not to notice that ... print media is dying... Once again as with TRL, internet killed the magazine star... I mean 30 good people lost their jobs.. and they are probably better than what I can ever hope to try to acheive... And yet still... As Shoe puts it... "We know they’re talented people with great resumes from working there, so they should be back working 80-hour work weeks for some other website or magazine soon enough. We just hope this economy cooperates with that theory."

I mean your dad or mom would tell you go become a doctor or lawyer, you'll make guranteed big $$$ .. I always thought doing what you wanted was most important.. but I'm not sure if I can even get to do that 5 years from now... I mean not counting the whole 2012 stuff which hahah I bet all the tea in China is going to be just another boring night. I mean will the industry I aim for even be there after all this economic mess? I mean I know this doesn't just go for me.. but for DET & DMD peeps as well.. We are in the creative industry one way or another.. I mean it isn't set in stone whether we are even going to get a chance to do what we've been studied for so long.

I'll close with pretty awesome quote from Jenn ... "But this is what 1UP very literally means: you will always get to have one more life to play on, because you fucking earned it."

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Where I End and You Begin 9:04 pm

Zeno's Paradox

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Hey hey ,
well finally onto 2009 yea : )

Well yeah, hmm lemme see.. well I'm now in school already yea . So well the experience? Hmm yeah needless to say it is very different.. I look around and there the age range in the class is staggering, there are 18 year olds from High School and then are people who are already married too. So yeah it would be pretty hard to feel too old which is definitely good for me right?

1st day didn't really make any friends, as I had realized awhile back. Every class had different people and all my classes are in classrooms , the lecturer is pretty much talking throughout the whole class so you don't really get to find out who's everyone in class. And yeah there was no orientation either, hmm well hahah only in one class of the day which was Sociology, where we really got to talk to each other since we were pretty much forced to do so : ) Hmm and yeah, we kinda set seating for that class so yeah, and the girl nxt to me is pretty alright & friendly;] but alas a ring she wears which means *pfft..heheh : P

Hmm and yeah the other class luckily there was someone from work in there too so yeah that was pretty alright. We decided to join the gym club nxt week hahah, plus they have a snowboarding and skiing event at the end of the month so might as well make the most of the "fun" weather right? So I figure I should probably be hmm okay in the next month or so yea. Though I have this feeling that.. hmm NYP was sorta more on making friends > study...I kinda feel that the case will be the other way around this time.

But to be honest, the sch material is really good.. All the lecturers have phDs:) And hmm one thing I can surmise from all of them they... well it seems everyone in Canada smokes pot hahah. Hmm and yeah I like the Philosophy classes, mind-blowing stuff hahah :) Right now taking a class on Reality & Existence.. And well there's huge study on Greek Mythology , which I love :), and yeah the class really did open my mind on things. And studying Philosophy is different too, in the sense that all our academic lives we were taught that getting the answer was the most important thing whether it was Maths or Biology. But here, it was all about asking the right questions yea :)

Also, hahah wow Chinese New Year is actually on the 1st month of the year for I think the 1st time that I can recall in my life.. Well most definitely going to check out Richmond since that's pretty much the go-to place for Chinese thingies. I reckon they'll have something up .

Well not much to update other than this, the rest is bleh.. Hmm well I finally started to cashier at my work place in the Dollar Store, hmm ... I also noticed that everything here seems to be stuck 30 moments ago in the past. I mean the internet literally took a few months to get up, and argh.. the laptop I want has been out of stock for awhile. That and I've been behind on lotsa things I was supposed to send out for Xmas hahah..

Hmm plans for the year... Saving up for a return trip of course heheh , and yeah before they shave their heads and everything... but yeah realized it's true that most of the ppl are guys in the clques hahah ... Also hopefully a trip this year to London with Nadia. I mean both of us came from a place in South East Asia that most of the world has never heard of.. OKay forget the world, even in Singapore it was pretty much unknown too. But here we are in a extraordinary situation where we can both actually go to London on our power and you know.. damn it, if we're not going to take adavantage of it right? Yeah hahah it's good that it's cheap for her to head there too since she's over in Lithaunia and flying there for me is only 180 yea. So yeah, try to go there and massacre the Cockney ppl yea? That's great... never thought we could do this considering where we came from heheh : ) That's bout the only solid plus I can realy say about ere now... Everything else is just a blur... Hmm well I know I could be happy here given the time, but I'm not sure it would ever be as good as it was back then yea. I was really happy .. but yeah .. shit happens... Well thats how things have pretty much been for the new year... things are still crawling along. Anyway I'm sure the year will get better yea.. All is one afterall ;)
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Today.... was actually the first sunset of the year : ) ... The sun had pretty much been on hiatus through the whole new year.. Finally today was lucky enough to catch some streaks of red in the sky... I have missed the sun... I am so over Winter now... I long for Spring to roll right over Winter's lethargic ass yea : ) Cheers? :)

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Where I End and You Begin 4:03 pm

The Same Deep Water As You

Hmm hey : )..

Well I think pretty much most blogs have been vacated due to FB or FYP yea? Hmm hahaha owh well.. Right... here it is people , the last week of 2008 right?..

Well in regards to school.. I got in a degree program in Communications.. But hmm its 2 years in college before transferring to a uni midway.. With or without the transfer it is still 4 years .. but haha the thing is ppl here are pretty slack , as in there are students taking like... 5-6 years? cause some would take 1 module for each sem .. Sch starts in Jan 5.. Hmm taking some classes that I need to graduate but not much to do with Communications, like hmm Sociology & Philosophy hahah..

Also weird is the fact that .. it is my 1st year class but since... the way things are.. my classes could be with final year students as well .. like most classes can be taken from any point during your 4 years .. like a Final Year Lit student needs.. hmm like a Science class to graduate , I might have them as classmates even if its my 1st year.. This too and the fact that since you choose your own classes, its possible each of my classes might have different ppl hahah..

Well also, I got a new job heheh.. Working at a One Dollar Shop in the mall, the pay is better and hmm the ppl are easier to get along with yea heheh : ) Hmm plus I always wanted to get a job out of F & B yea . So yeah, good experience nonetheless. And also I finally got internet after like 3 months yea hehe ... Cheers :D

And I would post something up about Xmas but however pretty much nothing happened yea. Everywhere was closed and most of the people were at home with their families for the holidays over ere.. Well the only really good thing I can say about this year's Christmas was that it was a snowy one yea hahah.. Hmm yeah I don't really mind anyways... Wasn't a huge shocker to me that this year there would be no kicking of anyone's ass or turkey... : )

2008 ... hmmm ... Overall.. I think this year was .. great : ) .. There were really alot of great moments for me and yeah I could have done without leaving Sg but even that was really a good farewell too so I can't complain much...

The main things that I can remember for the year..

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Well the 1st goodbye of the year was definitely to hmm .. N233 .. I was kind of completely not expecting to be transferred out of the cg at the time.. I was thinking I was probably " safe " since I was leaving Sg soon but yeah hahah. Wasn't the case.. Hmm the sad/funny thing bout it, was in the end there was no more N233.. Yeah but we all had new CGs( getting to know every1 from N178 was so fun too) and yeah ...Here's the thing... I know I don't say it enough, or more importantly show it enough... I really appreciated all the love and care from the church and everyone...

Hmm the sad case is that I feel I always put on.. another face of sorts at church/work... I mean we all have our hang-ups right? I'm someone who can't talk during work probably cause I think I'm waaay to slow so can't afford to talk.. I mean during break or after work, I definitely get back to myself...Hmm as for church ..I always felt ... kinda like a different person? I don't know... Like before I went to CHC , I was pretty much the same person I am now, always have been.. But at church, I always felt like I have to be polite or something... It's weird because hahah, everyone else is actually nice & fun people. I mean people .. like Clarence or Vincent who know me from sch and in church could probably see the divide in my personality in both places. And I don't do it intentionally or because of the myth that church people are straight as an arrow but really it was just my own ineffiency.

Yeah... hmm and even though my .. "polite" face is incredibly boring , every1 was still alright with me. And I think kindness goes a long way... I mean sure there were many times when I felt like, I was stagnant... but overall I think they're awesome too. I think someone who can be faithful or committed to anything generally translates to people with real passion yea.

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Another thing for the year was well leaving NYP.. I'm not talking about leaving my friends and everything.. I'll get to that later but I mean... just dropping the ball and being wrong about something. This was probably one of my 1st main failures in my life... Not that I dropped out.. but really I felt so horrible that before the course, I really did want to be a game programmer. The main thing is you can do all the research and preparation you want before you commit to something but there's hardly anyway you can prepare your heart... I know that's a lame excuse , yeah I am aware that losing all my interest in chasing a dream fall to pieces was one reason. The other is that .. I was just horrible in the course.. I was probably more better in the TD modules but even then, I wasn't exactly Bryan Yeo (who btw is the creator of the blogskin I'm using) ... I really envy the people who really know what they want to do with their lives.. I feel I'm making it up as I go along sometimes yea...

Strange ironic little tidbit about above... It all almost came to a head at the end of 1st year... I was telling Ivan during 2nd semester already that I wanted to drop out already. So before 2nd year began, I actually went to Ngee Ann Poly to change course... I wanted to go into Mass Communications... And it's weird mainly because, I think I would have stayed here in Singapore if I completed a diploma and I'm sure having failed once would entice me enough to work hard for the 2nd attempt at a diploma. It is so weird how things turn out in the end right? I mean yeah if say, I did take this hmm alternative route, then I wouldn't have gotten to know the rest of SIDM yea. So yeah.. life is just funny sometimes yea : )

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And finally the main thing of the year was definitely of course leaving Sg yea.. It wasn't something that I just dealt with on the penultimate month but I'm not exaggerating when I say that it was on my mind through the whole year. OKay, yeah I beaten this whole leaving home topic for like a billion times, but yeah hahah along with this is also .. hmm my look on it now that I'm actually 3 months ahead of it and living a very different life yea.

Yeah.. I think there was less drama this year for most of the year, but instead we were all just tired from the 2007.. I mean 07 , the last end of the year was kinda crazy yeah.. and I guess going into 2008... we all slowly retreated and went back to our own cliques after the fun afterglow of all the OGL stuff...

But there were really awesome moments too , lot of fun moments... like how they all made time to actually go to the zoo cause I never went and hmm... just lot of shopping around though haha that it was usually just walking around for the whole day at Orchard but only getting maybe one or two things and then a movie ( Hahah I really miss that ) .. Chalets : ) Hobo's chalet was kinda of slow on the 1st few days, but it was the last day that was really awesome yea.. Hmm ..Then Ivan's 21st chalet.. It sucked I couldn't complete the flaming drink for the bday boy tho hahah... And definitely one of the best chalets not just the year but through the 3 years was Cong Zheng's one.. That was really the epitome of a good chalet experience, for like a few days it really seemed like we were friends living together : ) The chalet was after hmm the new OGLs camp yea, and so when we all just let our hair down with the water balloons and pillow fight it was really awesome. I think it was really one of those fleeting moments of happiness.. in which.. you catch yourself in for a brief moment in the midst of the chaos of real life and realize just how beautiful the moment is. It was great because for a moment it seemed like we rewound the clock one year and were all just close again without all the useless drama...bodysurfing at Baybeats thanks to Hobo: >... Home Club was damn fun too :)... Owh and hahah Hazel over at Battle of the Bands was awesome too yea... plus getting to know Jon and the rest more : )..Going to Kbox and trying to sing more hahah.. It was definitely cool getting to rock out to Dani California with Zhi Feng hahah : D and yeah no, we didn't get to do Creep but hmm ... at Timbre, there were so lot of songs we knew yea... I'll never forgot how EIC(who are great and you guys should catch them at Holland V at Wala Wala Cafe Bar : ))closed the last set that night with the theme song from Slam Dunk, that was really beyond awesome hahah : )Hmm and also going club/pubbing with Ivan, ZF and Bobo yea : ) See people?? The year was pretty kickass right? I think so yea : )

And now ... yea... hmm ... the offset too all this.. is unfortunately as great as the year was.. also the ugly truth... that this would also be the closest I would ever be with them. And now here I am 3 months later.. what is my insight on that truth? ... I think as of now... I'm not worried anymore.. yeah.. Granted... yeah sadly I'm realizing that distance really does change things ... I remember in Sg, how I would look for a movie or something to check out so we would be able to go out for the week to kill the boringness... Hmm all the sudden there was this huge void in my life when I got here... I didn't know whether to fill it or keep it because I knew that void was there because I wasn't living with them. This plus all the drama that did happen after I left. Yeah... I mean I can't imagine it over there the way it is now .. I know it's not my place to say since I will never know the full story.. But I am happy that there was one pretty great thing that happened for the last season yea : ) I would like to think that everyone deep down does miss the way things used to be but what do I know ... I wish he was close with him again... I don't know what it is that they have that they can't work out ... and also he with her too. Sorry if I'm overstepping on something that's very personal and I don't know much about... but I really wished things would get better. Life is really too short .. and yes, I know nothing is ever that simple and easy... but nobody is perfect ... So we need to compromise from time to time yea...

Hmm .. well ..I think as great as 2008 was.. 2009 should have its moments too yea... Sch will be starting for me which will lead on hmm my life to start to be busy again hopefully ... Hmm they'll be graduating...NS... and some will be working too yea : ) Hmm I used to worry bout where I fit in all that.. but yeah... there isn't any need to.. I mean yeah sure I'm not as close with some friends already.. but I do think not everything has to change.. Mostly.. I jsut have to learn to healthily move on I guess... And yeah I still feel things are pretty good between some of us yea ...My heart goes out to them : )

Right... 2009, hope it goes well for everyone... : ) Cheers everyone!


I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

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Rant No.34567

Shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
On a live wire right up off the street
You and I should meet
Junebug skipping like a stone
With the headlights pointed at the dawn
We were sure we'd never see an end to it all
And I dont even care to shake these zipper blues
And we dont know
Just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below

Double cross the vacant and the bored
Theyre not sure just what we have in the store
Morphine city slippin dues down to see
That we dont even care as restless as we are
We feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
And poured cement, lamented and assured
To the lights and towns below
Faster than the speed of sound
Faster than we thought wed go, beneath the sound of hope

Justine never knew the rules,
Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
No apologies ever need be made, I know you better than you fake it
To see that we dont care to shake these zipper blues
And we dont know just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
The street heats the urgency of sound
As you can see theres no one around

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I feel the pull of the world too. Its like all at once too right? .. Wish something could be done to ease the people's burdens .

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